Howlingvapor
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I’ve spoken with my therapist about how I’ve been feeling lately and there’s no getting around it, I’m depressed. Whether this is situational or something that’s been brewing for years, I’m currently going through depression and I need to find a way to deal with it. So far I’ve just been trying to be around people more, which helps, but my social anxiety holds me back from making genuine connections. I just feel unmotivated and unhappy all the time. The things that used to bring me so much joy I barely care about now. My parents are very disappointed in me for not going out and finding a better job with more hours and for not quite meeting the potential the see in me. I haven’t told them how depressed I am. I really don’t want to worry them or make them feel like they messed up some how. It’s just hard finding motivation to go job hunting when even my favorite video game or tv show doesn’t interest me anymore.
However I’m slightly proud of myself now. Today I didn’t feel like doing anything, I felt super low energy and I just wanted to sit in bed all day watching YouTube videos. I felt almost trapped in my own head, like nothing made me feel good. Yet despite feeling so down, I managed to message a professor about an internship and finish the homework I was dreading all day. It doesn’t sound like much, but considering how I was feeling most of the day I’m just surprised I got myself to do anything at all.
My therapist wants me to ask my doctor about starting antidepressants and anxiety medication. Just for a few months or so until I get my life on track and don’t need them anymore. Normally I’m cautious about medications, but at this point I’ll try anything, because living this way is honestly killing me.
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However I’m slightly proud of myself now. Today I didn’t feel like doing anything, I felt super low energy and I just wanted to sit in bed all day watching YouTube videos. I felt almost trapped in my own head, like nothing made me feel good. Yet despite feeling so down, I managed to message a professor about an internship and finish the homework I was dreading all day. It doesn’t sound like much, but considering how I was feeling most of the day I’m just surprised I got myself to do anything at all.
My therapist wants me to ask my doctor about starting antidepressants and anxiety medication. Just for a few months or so until I get my life on track and don’t need them anymore. Normally I’m cautious about medications, but at this point I’ll try anything, because living this way is honestly killing me.
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