- Oct 1, 2017
I’m anxious just writing this, because I’m afraid I’ll detect some confusion in my thought processes as I compose it. Basically I feel like I’m developing Alzheimer’s/demnentia. I’m only 23, so I know that’s not really realistic, but I’ve just been messing things up and confusing things so often lately. The other day I forgot a coworker’s name, I keep having trouble remembering if cashiers have handed my debit card back to me, at work I’ll mishelve books (I work at a library). Basically I’m scrutinizing every thought that goes through my head and every action I have to undertake, and it feels like even the most basic tasks require my concerted mental effort or I’ll forget how to do them; things like brushing my teeth and typing a text message. I’m almost too terrified to do them because I’m afraid I’ll find can no longer remember how to spell a word or something. And then today I flew into a panic because I imagined reaching the point where I no longer knew who my parents were, or myself for that matter. Has anyone ever experienced this? I feel like I’m losing my mind.