Hi. I'm new here. Just wanted to share a bit about me, after reading all your wonderful/terrifying stories. They did help my nerves to be calm and diminish my symptoms. Thank you.
I always considered myself a nervous person. With confidence problems and what i think it was normal anxiety. I was shy and would be nervous about public exposure, that's all. I thought it was normal, because i was still happy to live with myself and my feelings.
I discovered anxiety disorder and panic attacks with 36 years, first time. Looking back, i guess it makes sense to have this disorder since i never managed my stress levels or had much care about my nervousness. I just lived happy with my stress, embarrassments, hardships of life, etc. Never thought they'd have impact in me.
Talking to my therapist i guess we discovered that the previous year was too tough for me. Family members dying, moving house twice, living in my in-laws house, new job with high level of stress, violent events in the street i lived in. I think these events added up, i have to agree with the therapist on this.
My disorder is composed of thinking too much about my body feelings. I thought i'd have heart attacks, my lungs would fail, that i could have a brain stroke, tumor, stomach cancer, and some other stuff. Had numb limbs, muscle twitches, chest pain, neck pain, scalp pain, throat blockage, head pain, head flashes, random trembling, head pressure on the top, side, face numbness, ear buzzing, ear pain, stomach ache, irritable bowels, dizziness, derealization, depersonalization, etc.
One year after, i think i am recovering, but I'm not certain. After months and months of unhappiness, i feel like my mind wants to be happy now. I have significantly less physical symptoms. I think I'm happy now. At least my life is significantly more stable (even with Covid all around) and i have a more positive mind towards things. I feel a little bit more like my old self.
The problem is that I'm not sure I'm recovering. I sometimes keep feeling these milliseconds of dizziness flashes in my forehead out of nothing. I still focus too much on a headache that only hurts when i pay attention to it. If i keep working i never notice it. Some days i never feel it. When these feelings come, the brain tumor idea crosses my mind. Doctors never made a head scan... I guess i feel they're missing something on not doing that... The story of hypochondria... But I'm not a doctor and i have to trust them. I mean, i went to 3 different ERs, 3 different doctors doing 3 similar routines with the same result: you have anxiety disorder, let me recommend you a psychiatrist. Aside from ER, i visited some more doctors from different specialties. I'm ok! Ok, body? Can you just chill? Jeez...
To all of you that are recovering or had completely recovered, do you also feel a major disconnection between your humour and your body feelings? Do you feel like you're ok and recovering but still feel like symptoms come out of the blue? Without any reason? What do you do to ignore the symptoms?
Thanks for reading. Cheers
I always considered myself a nervous person. With confidence problems and what i think it was normal anxiety. I was shy and would be nervous about public exposure, that's all. I thought it was normal, because i was still happy to live with myself and my feelings.
I discovered anxiety disorder and panic attacks with 36 years, first time. Looking back, i guess it makes sense to have this disorder since i never managed my stress levels or had much care about my nervousness. I just lived happy with my stress, embarrassments, hardships of life, etc. Never thought they'd have impact in me.
Talking to my therapist i guess we discovered that the previous year was too tough for me. Family members dying, moving house twice, living in my in-laws house, new job with high level of stress, violent events in the street i lived in. I think these events added up, i have to agree with the therapist on this.
My disorder is composed of thinking too much about my body feelings. I thought i'd have heart attacks, my lungs would fail, that i could have a brain stroke, tumor, stomach cancer, and some other stuff. Had numb limbs, muscle twitches, chest pain, neck pain, scalp pain, throat blockage, head pain, head flashes, random trembling, head pressure on the top, side, face numbness, ear buzzing, ear pain, stomach ache, irritable bowels, dizziness, derealization, depersonalization, etc.
One year after, i think i am recovering, but I'm not certain. After months and months of unhappiness, i feel like my mind wants to be happy now. I have significantly less physical symptoms. I think I'm happy now. At least my life is significantly more stable (even with Covid all around) and i have a more positive mind towards things. I feel a little bit more like my old self.
The problem is that I'm not sure I'm recovering. I sometimes keep feeling these milliseconds of dizziness flashes in my forehead out of nothing. I still focus too much on a headache that only hurts when i pay attention to it. If i keep working i never notice it. Some days i never feel it. When these feelings come, the brain tumor idea crosses my mind. Doctors never made a head scan... I guess i feel they're missing something on not doing that... The story of hypochondria... But I'm not a doctor and i have to trust them. I mean, i went to 3 different ERs, 3 different doctors doing 3 similar routines with the same result: you have anxiety disorder, let me recommend you a psychiatrist. Aside from ER, i visited some more doctors from different specialties. I'm ok! Ok, body? Can you just chill? Jeez...
To all of you that are recovering or had completely recovered, do you also feel a major disconnection between your humour and your body feelings? Do you feel like you're ok and recovering but still feel like symptoms come out of the blue? Without any reason? What do you do to ignore the symptoms?
Thanks for reading. Cheers
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