bigjetplane6
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Can I vent?
It’s midnight and i’m going through a HA episode. Have been for the past week.
I feel restless, I am mentally tired, I feel hopeless, I feel sad, I feel guilty.
I want to cry. I want to scream. I want to run.
Run away from all of this.
Why can’t I be normal? Why can’t I live a normal life? Why does my mind have to be wired this way?
I feel guilt. And a lot.
My husband doesn’t get me. He asks why I’m always on my phone. No hun, i’m not cheating. I’m hooked on Google looking up symptoms. Finding cancers I didn’t even know existed and matching all the signs and symptoms to what I have.
I have so much guilt. I can’t be the perfect mother my daughter needs because of this stupid HA. I hope my baby can forgive me. Because she deserves the world.
F U HEALTH ANXIETY.
It’s midnight and i’m going through a HA episode. Have been for the past week.
I feel restless, I am mentally tired, I feel hopeless, I feel sad, I feel guilty.
I want to cry. I want to scream. I want to run.
Run away from all of this.
Why can’t I be normal? Why can’t I live a normal life? Why does my mind have to be wired this way?
I feel guilt. And a lot.
My husband doesn’t get me. He asks why I’m always on my phone. No hun, i’m not cheating. I’m hooked on Google looking up symptoms. Finding cancers I didn’t even know existed and matching all the signs and symptoms to what I have.
I have so much guilt. I can’t be the perfect mother my daughter needs because of this stupid HA. I hope my baby can forgive me. Because she deserves the world.
F U HEALTH ANXIETY.