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A little tired of hearing that I need to love myself when I mention my depression

JustinBailey

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I grew up with Family that treated me like I didn't matter and that I was incompetent at pretty much anything. Any accomplishments I made were dismissed as not being relevant or childish.

I score 33 on the ACT? It's a stupid test that only tests your ability to take the ACT is what I'm told. Also that I put in more effort than I needed on something that doesn't matter that much.

I make the Varsity team for soccer in 10th grade, am awarded MVP and Most improved player when I've never actually played the sport prior to joining the team in 10th grade? Soccer's not a real sport and the 10-0 season record [4-6 the previous year] was purely because of good coaching and my teammates, they only gave me MVP because they felt sorry for me... not, you know, the 20+ goals and 7 assists I had or anything like that.

I never felt like I was awful. I never didn't love myself, like so many people assume is the case when it's discovered I have depression. I never hate myself. I live in a state where I often think that I'm the only one who does.

Relationships and friendships? I've been conditioned to think people aren't going to like me or care about me because growing up despite doing my best to be considerate, caring, and nice I was treated like I'm the spawn of Satan. Despite working very very hard to achieve everything I have I was told my accomplishments didn't matter and that I'm lazy. 3.5 gpa honor roll? Wow, you only have a 3.5, you're lazy. Also, wow, you must have to put in way too much effort to get honor roll, who are you trying to impress?

Things like that I heard a lot growing up.
 

Cuchculan

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Well you are the one who can turn around and say ' look at me now '. You done what you done by working hard. so be proud. Others like to put people down because they never really got anywhere in life. At times they are reflecting how they feel about themselves onto others. They wish they had of done so much more. But the never did. So they like to make others feel worthless. Because maybe they are feeling that way. Other times they were told the exact same things when they growing up. That is what they get to learn from. Not making excuses for them. They could have been called all the same names too years ago. Do your best to ignore them. Keep moving forward with your life. Keep doing good.
 

JustinBailey

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Well you are the one who can turn around and say ' look at me now '. You done what you done by working hard. so be proud. Others like to put people down because they never really got anywhere in life. At times they are reflecting how they feel about themselves onto others. They wish they had of done so much more. But the never did. So they like to make others feel worthless. Because maybe they are feeling that way. Other times they were told the exact same things when they growing up. That is what they get to learn from. Not making excuses for them. They could have been called all the same names too years ago. Do your best to ignore them. Keep moving forward with your life. Keep doing good.
The whole point of this thread is that people mistake Depression for self hate and otherwise feeling as if you are worthless. However I do not ever feel negatively about myself or that I hate myself or am worthless.
The majority of what you just said implies that I need to have feelings of self worth. I already have that, I'm pretty aware that I'm ******* awesome. I'm mostly annoyed that when my depression is mentioned, discovered, or brought up people make the assumption I don't feel any self worth.
 

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There are times you wish you never answered a post. This is one of those times. Should have been happy you even got an answer. If you read what I wrote, I said that other people reflect their own problems onto others. In other words, you are not the problem, the problem is themselves.
 
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