hi, it sounds like you are having a hard time, and I understand that it feels bad right now. Thanks for sharing through tough times, if you are willing to try something that might make you be able to cope with your depression then seeing a therapist is my suggestion. I know it sounds cliche although it helped me a lot to cope with my depression. I can also recommend mindfulness and meditation, so you can be aware of what your triggers are and observe them. I really wish you well! lots of hugs.I’m feeling really depressed. Nothing in my life is going right. I can’t hold down a job, I don’t have any friends, and I frequently have angry outbursts. I can’t go on like this!