Kitten just died

[Iona]

My 6 month kitten just got hit by a car and died on Tuesday. The person left her on the road
Already been dealing with major depression anxiety; eating issues, sleep issues, family issues, partner and I both struggling with our split and whether it’s right or not.
Then my best friend and lifeline scully, just suddenly died. She was on my lap then 30 minutes later she was hit by a car on a street she never goes to.
I read online about other peoples stories of their cats being hit, and someone wrote that it’s our own faults for letting them out. Said that people who keep indoor cats love their cats more.
I live in Scotland, seeking help can be a nightmare with all the hoops to jump through. I finally spoke to community psychiatric nurse who says they have to sort my physical health before my mental health because I haven’t ate or slept. I fainted and was sick in the clinic. I moved back to my mums. The community health people will visit me daily for a few weeks.

I feel I’ve lost everything and I can’t cope

 

[bigjetplane23]

I’m sorry to hear about this.

 

[Walking Circles]

Truly sorry to hear it. It's always hard loosing a furry family member. It's no fault of yours at all, you need to know and internalize that. Cats are still creatures of the wild to some degree and they all want to play outside, sometimes tragedy comes of it. However none of it is your doing.

 

[Jonathan123]

My 6 month kitten just got hit by a car and died on Tuesday. The person left her on the road
Already been dealing with major depression anxiety; eating issues, sleep issues, family issues, partner and I both struggling with our split and whether it’s right or not.
Then my best friend and lifeline scully, just suddenly died. She was on my lap then 30 minutes later she was hit by a car on a street she never goes to.
I read online about other peoples stories of their cats being hit, and someone wrote that it’s our own faults for letting them out. Said that people who keep indoor cats love their cats more.
I live in Scotland, seeking help can be a nightmare with all the hoops to jump through. I finally spoke to community psychiatric nurse who says they have to sort my physical health before my mental health because I haven’t ate or slept. I fainted and was sick in the clinic. I moved back to my mums. The community health people will visit me daily for a few weeks.

I feel I’ve lost everything and I can’t cope

'It's only a cat' some may say. OH NO!!!! It's far far more than that. No matter how long we have had a pet it still hurts deeply when we lose them. I know only too well My wife and I had boxer dogs and it was like losing a family member when they went. As others have said, it's not your fault at all. Animals wander. It's part of their exploration process.
You have not lost everything and can cope. Oh yes, I know. It's ok for me to talk like that, but we can only speak from our own experience. I too live in the UK so I know how inadequate our mental health services are. But get all the help you can. If you can afford private consultations with a counsellor go for it.

 

[8888]

I’m so sorry for your loss!

 

[Iona]

Thanks all for your comments

I wanted to reply to you all with an update. I have Scully’s ashes with me until I work out what I’d prefer to do (tattoo, bury the ashes, made into a ring etc) there are so many options.

Dealing with the crisis team (I’m Scotland) who will begin to visit me at my home. I’m trying to do small goals in the morning and only started today and yesterday I had a suicide attempt

 

[E.B]

Unfortunately I have lost a ton of furry loved ones and it is most certainly difficult. However you will persevere through it all.