I want off this evil Rollercoaster

[Always_Scared]

This constant battle taking place in my head is driving me insane. I want these demons out!! I go from thinking clearly and making Christmas plans and not really worrying about all my symptoms to a sudden panic of cancer. I swear I will not live to see another Christmas with my kids.
Entering menopause has really messed up my head even more than it already was

I'm ok one minute and then I'm crying in a full panic of dying the next. I question every little symptom and I have a lot

. From messed up period problems which are of coarse ovarian, uterus or cervical cancer (this is today's worry!!) Tomorrow will probably be back to throat and esophagus cancer because of all this thick phlegm in the back of my throat. Maybe later in the day, it will be stomach or colon cancer because I have too much gas and loose stools but this also can be ovarian cancer

. The following day will be back pain of coarse this is also cancer once again.

And the sad thing is it very well could be cancer because of my age

My body is falling apart and dying a little each day. I hate it. I just want to be normal like everyone else who doesn't worry about there health.

Ageing with HA is a cruel joke.

I want off this evil effed up Rollercoaster!

Can anyone else relate?

 

[EMJ]

I can certainly relate to what you are saying .... the worry.,,, the symptoms ... which are real but caused by how we think... the cycle of fear .... it is awful ..., right now I am worried sick about my heart ... I am having palpitations and the feeling of skipped beats .... had EKG last Thursday.... normal results.... but I am falling into that anxiety hole again ...I just want to be normal .... whatever that is...

 

[Olu]

That's what we all pray for. Not a fun life to live but somehow, we keep going hoping one of these days, we will wake up and not feel like this anymore. At least, that is my prayer because I have done everything in my power and nothing seemed to have worked.