shay1988
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Hello, so I haven't been on here in a little whole but I was doing good with my anxiety. But a couple days ago my dog got sick and has been having some problems with his back and legs and I've been very upset and worried about him! Then I noticed my anxiety was coming back full force! Heart racing , fluttering, stomach gurgling and rumbling, DIZZY , derealization! It all came back within hours of being upset about my dog. I kno I stress allot over him because I kno he's old and he's not got much longer and it scares me! I think this is a big reason why I cant really calm down my anxiety, cause im constantly worried about him! So just a min ago I tried to go outside and pick some of my green beans out of my garden but after 5 mins I started getting dizzy and heart racing! It is very hot out! It's like I can't handle the heat anymore either! I used to love Going outside and doing things but now I can't! I can't handle more then about 15 min outside In heat! I've been trying so hard maybe a little to hard to control my emotions and just float with my anxiety! But the last few days I have had zero success! I am always so worried about my heart! It's always racing around! And beating hard it seems! But every time I get it checked I'm fine. I'm starting to feel depressed and hopeless! Like this is never going to end and I'm about to loose my mind! I just want to feel like my old self again. Even for just a day! I hate feeling like I'm not even real and I just floating around in a body that's about to kill over. Its really effecting my work now as well, I try to go in to work and do my best but I feel like my client can tell something is wrong with me. I haven't been able to eat in days! I've lost 15lbs. And I kno this can make u feel allot worse! I feel weak and tired and just foggy headed! I'm just not sure what to do anymore, I try to accept and stay calm but its not working for me right now. I kno I will have times where it will be hard to get by but im just so tired of feeling this way 24/7. Sorry for the long rant , just needed someone to talk to.