JustBeHappyG
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Hello community, please help! I moved to a new city about 4 months ago with my husband to start a new job, which I love. I tell my parents often how much I love it here, and how much I really like my job, etc. So my husband and I closed on our dream home on Monday, and after moving all boxes in the garage, I literally walked into the empty house, no furniture, and thought I was going to have a heart attack. I have GAD and have had 2 other major episodes before in my life. My husband is super supportive, but yesterday I was home all day crying. I walked in to this beautiful huge empty house, no furniture, not even a fridge, boxes everywhere, and I had such panic and anxiety. Did I make the right decision? Do I even like this city? Do I like my job? Do I love my husband enough to buy a house with him? What if I married the wrong person and that's why I'm anxious (all the while he's texting me anxiety support and reaffirming how we will get through this together). Financially we are fine, everything is great, we just ordered brand new furniture - but I can't help this feeling of anxiety, hopelessness, dread, like I made a mistake. I feel very overwhelmed.
I feel like such an idiot to have anxiety over such a great blessing, but I can't help it. I just want to cry and run away and hide under a blanket. Has anyone else felt this, or does anyone have any insight to this?
I feel like such an idiot to have anxiety over such a great blessing, but I can't help it. I just want to cry and run away and hide under a blanket. Has anyone else felt this, or does anyone have any insight to this?