Talking used to be very easy for me- I would be super engaged in conversations and speech would naturally flow out of me. However, recently, I've noticed that my "inner voice" will respond to people's comments when I'm talking to them. Like my friend would say something and then my inner voice would respond appropriately, but I don't respond immediately because he's still talking. And I'll notice this and it will give me anxiety? Idk why it does, I think cause I never experienced this friction before so then I just started ruminating on it and convinced myself that I was starting to go crazy.
Sometimes this goes away but when it does I start thinking "oh I feel normal now" and then it comes back and just gives me more anxiety. Maybe this gives me anxiety because I'll be afraid I'll blurt out what I'm thinking and it'll mean I'm crazy or something? Not sure. I just feel so hyper aware of my inner voice and how it translates to speech and it makes me think I'm developing some sort of mental illness!
Sometimes this goes away but when it does I start thinking "oh I feel normal now" and then it comes back and just gives me more anxiety. Maybe this gives me anxiety because I'll be afraid I'll blurt out what I'm thinking and it'll mean I'm crazy or something? Not sure. I just feel so hyper aware of my inner voice and how it translates to speech and it makes me think I'm developing some sort of mental illness!
