You are not alone....

[H_wrightington]

I just wanted to share something that happened to me today, mostly for the purpose of assuring others that they are not alone in their health anxiety. I have been having frequent headaches, lightheadedness, and eye strain lately (I have posted about it a few times seeking opinions). I went to the bathroom at work today and noticed that my eye was extremely red. It looked as if I blood vessels had popped or something. In that moment, I was FULLY convinced that my brain was bleeding and that I was about to have a stroke and die. I began having a full blown panic attack and was basically waiting for the moment I was going to just drop dead. Within a few hours, the redness was gone and I was fine. Has anyone else ever experienced a moment of pure panic similar this this? It is so hard to be rational in the moment. I constantly try to remind myself that I am not alone and this forum has helped assure me of that!

 

[PRguru_cfj]

When I get frustrated I just give up and be in a pretty shitty mood for the rest of the day. My anxiety is related of how I am doing I school so I am failing in all my classes and now I think of quitting. Some times I get sick thoughts that Inwant to do violence. I can't even calm myself down. Most of all Ineant to die and give up. I am not as strong as my father and I know my family would suffer without me. But sometimes because mybwant to succeed I don't care how I would hurt them. I just want the pain to end and I do not know how.