Yahoo I did it

[XmasCarol52]

Yes I did it I made it to my primary doctor today and to my surprise I wasn't really all that nervous.I believe that the busparine is working.It helps with negative and scary thoughts.Thank God.Ok she was concerned but not much about my left leg because it is still swollen maybe there may be a blood clot now do not worry ,Also my heart was good I believe I also lost three pounds Yahoo.The best thing of the day was I got to go to the marina for about ten minutes I wish it was more but the woman wanted to show me where she lives,I can only imagine how much that will costs me ugh.I also had to pay co-payment today too.I miss my friend that is what makes me sad.Anyway I am okay.My heart was good and so was my lungs.I may live for a long time.So you are all stuck with me now lol.OH yes the biggest treat was going to Dunkin Donuts and I got a ice coffee mocha flavored oh my goodness it taste just like a milk shake and a couple of chocolate cream donuts and I got my dear friend a jelly one ,I only hope by tomorrow it isn't hard.I closed the bag as good as I could.Hey Dunkin Donuts for everyone here lol.I am a good girl I did not cancel my appointment.I did see my nosy neighbor there so I am sure my land lady will know about it,.The doctor was nice,anyway now I am home and safe in my own apt.Thanks for all of your prayers,I do pray for you all everyday and night.God be with you all.with much love Carol

 

[Concernedgal]

That's great news. I am happy that buspar is working for you. I'm happy to gear of your good health and yes..... I knew that you would be around for much longer. Anyways it's always good to know of an anxiety defeat. Love you too carol.

 

[XmasCarol52]

Thank you,how have you been doing?I do not have to go back until November 6th but I have to see my shrink in about five weeks that is okay because at least it is about five weeks I have been to two doctors like in a six weeks time that is way to much i need some rest from doctors.

 

[Concernedgal]

Kinda nervous to go to my cardiologist on the 22nd and lately my anxiety has been pretty epic. Feeling more agitation lately and felt breath less a couple of times. I don't like feeling g breathless. Been really stressed lately and it showed yesterday when during an arguement with my husband. .. I threw the glass of tea I was holding but, it strangle made me feel a little better. I think that I may have a lot of aggression that needs to be let out. I almost always let things go and I just take and take and take and I stuff it all inside and one day.... i'll snap. I don't want it to reach that level. I don't know what I would do. And if I did snap... would it change me forever as a person? I need to find a way to stick up for myself. How? How do I do it?

 

[XmasCarol52]

I will pray for you.Anger unfortunately is part of anxieties that is what I read anyway.If throwing the glass made you feel better that is okay.I usually just throw out my words,i got the land lady coming today and I am sure I am going to hear it how she had some complaints about my yelling.I really wish that people would just shut the f up and mind there own business if these people knew me they would know I am not a mean person.She just doesn't get that it is part of my illness so for now my stomach is a nervous wreck,This woman has no feelings or sense of humor. SHe says she cares sure she does she is nothing but a phoney,guess who I saw at the doctors the other day her aunt.SHe lives here and has a big mouth so i am sure my land lady by now knows I was at the doctors office as if it is any of her bleeping business.She thinks she has to know every ones business but I dont tell her a thing.I am so tired of people sqealing on people here.However I cannot leave cause it would cause me to much stress and i cannot afford to move anyway.. I crinch with the thought of her coming here..

 

[janemariesayed]

Walk away @Concernedgal when anyone is annoying or upsetting or aggravating you, walk away. Because of your condition, you cannot chance to get angry. So try not to get into those situations. You can have a heart attack 2 hours after losing your temper.

I'm surprised at your husband for arguing with you. He should not be doing anything to stress you out. When you get like that, if he loves you, he should leave the room. Go out for a walk or something. Not stay and wind you up even more.

You stick up for yourself by saying 'I can't be bothered!' and walk away. I know it isn't easy but that is what you need to do.

 

[Concernedgal]

The problem is though...I believe that he does love me however. ... I can't he loves winning an arguement more ....at any cost.

 

[XmasCarol52]

The problem is though...I believe that he does love me however. ... I can't he loves winning an arguement more ....at any cost.

I am so sad for you that you have to live like that.Here is a hug if that helps any Hug

 

[janemariesayed]

The problem is though...I believe that he does love me however. ... I can't he loves winning an arguement more ....at any cost.

When I was in Egypt with my husband he wanted to win all the arguments too. I was working for a Lawyer at the time. He advised me not to give him my face. So when he wanted to fight and bicker I would either go out for a walk or go and have a bath and shut the door on him, or go to my bedroom and shut the door.

Your hubs need to change his ways purely because of your condition. Now moreso than ever.

 

[Concernedgal]

He don't care about anything but himself. But, I will try what you said and see how it goes.

 

[XmasCarol52]

Good luck I am praying for you so that things will turn out alright.

 

[janemariesayed]

It did seem to work for my ex husband. He told me about his new woman as well and she used to do that to him as well! He would tell me about it and it would really frustrate him! By the time they did catch sight of each other again the argument was diffused. It does work. One person can't argue with themselves.

 

[Concernedgal]

Wow guys. Not to change the subject but,I straight up had a panic attack at work. Still I the middle of it. I had to leave early and i'am speaking to you as its happening . My god. I need to be home. RIGHT NOW. I can't stand this. I haven't had a bad attack I a while and now... I feel so faint. Lord a mighty, please stop... please.

 

[XmasCarol52]

I hope you are feeling better.I just hate it when and attack just comes along like that without any warning.I know how u feel when I have an attack I always gag.I gag so easily.I hate it,

 

[Concernedgal]

Well today I just got a sudden episode of lightheadness and blurred vision. And all of the sudden the light looked weird.. if you understand that . Like a hyper sensitive to everything. I can't stand that. And then my heart palpitated.

 

[XmasCarol52]

I still have a problem with seeing dots and numbers on the walls at night everything is in black.Please be careful with your heart I wouldnt want anything to happen to you.

 

[janemariesayed]

Well today I just got a sudden episode of lightheadness and blurred vision. And all of the sudden the light looked weird.. if you understand that . Like a hyper sensitive to everything. I can't stand that. And then my heart palpitated.

Does any heart problem affect blood pressure? It may do as it is all connected. It sounds like you are having low blood pressure, or high I'm not sure. I get dizzy when my blood sugar level goes down. Perhaps you need food? Think about what you have eaten, have you eaten enough for the time of day?

Try and think about where your mind was a moment or two before the feeling. Was it somewhere negative? Or had you had a negative occurrence or thought earlier in the day? That can bring on an attack as well.

Take care of yourself, Sis!

 

[janemariesayed]

I still have a problem with seeing dots and numbers on the walls at night everything is in black.Please be careful with your heart I wouldnt want anything to happen to you.

This sounds like something to do with a sight problem, or possibly like a migraine. I see jagged black and white shapes sometimes.Apparently, it's a migraine. It starts at the sides of my peripheral vision then it gets bigger and bigger until it covers the whole of my sight. I go and have a lie down and close my eyes. If I can't lay down, I just close my eyes and rest them. Sometimes it can last for a few days and sometimes just for a few minutes. Have you told the doctor about it?

 

[XmasCarol52]

Yes my doctor told me it was part of my anxieties.Sometimes I can actually see sentences,one time I saw Have A Very Merry CHristmas but that one was in white,it gets spooky because you can see those dots move then about ten seconds later they are gone.Until u shut your eyes and then open them up again then I can see them all over again.Weird isnt it?

 

[Concernedgal]

To be honest ... I don't know own what it's all about. I will ask my cardiologist on the 22nd. I know that Google symptoms is the devil but, I can't help but wonder why this is happening. Ugh. Maybe it's horomonal.