bin_tenn
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This is a bit of a weird thought process, I suppose. I know this happens to all of us, but I'm still curious where certain worries seemingly disappeared to. Over the years I've worried about so many different things. Many of them were very short lived, and I believe that's because those specific fears developed as "spin-offs" of my primary fears.
Some of them, however, I was so deeply entrenched in. For example, skin cancer was a primary source of my health anxiety for quite some time. I was constantly self checking, especially one mole on my back which is raised and sort of "floppy", and it's also pretty dark. As time went on and I began attacking anxiety itself, that fear - alongside the others - seemingly disappeared. But where did it go?
Some of my health fears I was able to let go of once I had a routine physical and everything checked out just fine. At my physical in 2018 my doctor asked if I was concerned about any moles or other skin "things". I said no, and she asked about that one on my back, that I hadn't worried about for a year or two at that point. I told her it's been like that for at least three or four years, and I only knew it was that long because I obsessed over it for that long. She said "oh, okay" and left it at that. Perhaps the fact that she didn't mention it after that made me feel like she, as a doctor, didn't have any suspicions due to no change in the mole? I don't know. But even after that appointment I didn't have any anxiety about it.
My heart fears are mostly gone as well. Where did those go? Haha. I still have "symptoms", granted they're the exact same symptoms I've had for 5+ years, and I've passed all the tests I've had for them (several EKGs, a stress test / echo, etc).
I know I made a conscious effort, including some therapy sessions, to combat anxiety. But I still think it's odd that these fears seem to have basically disappeared. I'm not complaining. I guess it's just my natural curiosity, always wondering about the weirdest sh*t.
Anyhow, I reckon that's all I wanted to say. If any of you have insight as to why this happens, or if you've noticed the same for yourself, I'd love to hear about it!
Some of them, however, I was so deeply entrenched in. For example, skin cancer was a primary source of my health anxiety for quite some time. I was constantly self checking, especially one mole on my back which is raised and sort of "floppy", and it's also pretty dark. As time went on and I began attacking anxiety itself, that fear - alongside the others - seemingly disappeared. But where did it go?
Some of my health fears I was able to let go of once I had a routine physical and everything checked out just fine. At my physical in 2018 my doctor asked if I was concerned about any moles or other skin "things". I said no, and she asked about that one on my back, that I hadn't worried about for a year or two at that point. I told her it's been like that for at least three or four years, and I only knew it was that long because I obsessed over it for that long. She said "oh, okay" and left it at that. Perhaps the fact that she didn't mention it after that made me feel like she, as a doctor, didn't have any suspicions due to no change in the mole? I don't know. But even after that appointment I didn't have any anxiety about it.
My heart fears are mostly gone as well. Where did those go? Haha. I still have "symptoms", granted they're the exact same symptoms I've had for 5+ years, and I've passed all the tests I've had for them (several EKGs, a stress test / echo, etc).
I know I made a conscious effort, including some therapy sessions, to combat anxiety. But I still think it's odd that these fears seem to have basically disappeared. I'm not complaining. I guess it's just my natural curiosity, always wondering about the weirdest sh*t.
Anyhow, I reckon that's all I wanted to say. If any of you have insight as to why this happens, or if you've noticed the same for yourself, I'd love to hear about it!
