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I'm awake in the middle of the night pondering algebra. It really makes little sense to me, but if I want the degree it's a course I have to pass. These are the real life situations I usually avoid, doing something which involves jumping through hoops for no good reason!
I feel a bit depressed but we're taking the little boys on a train tomorrow and my son says he's coming over to help me with the algebra after that. He says there's some foundation knowledge I am missing which is why I'm finding it so difficult, 'order of operations' he called it.
It's a challenge and for 2 pins I'd give it up this moment!
Got my blood pressure down this week, seeing the dr in another week to follow up on that but I don't think I'll need to change meds. The dr is $30 a visit but she's worth it to me right now. In 2024 I've taken insurance with access to the good NP gp I've seen before; visits to her and generic prescriptions are covered and cost $0. If I need to go on insulin that's not covered and will cost $35 a month for the drug plus whatever the test strips cost; hopefully I won't need that but I won't know until February when I run blood tests again.
I feel anxious but there's nothing wrong really, a few irritations that's all.
I played bells and piano in church, had a phone chat with an old friend, now I'm going to play with the 2 little boys in my life. We all went on a train ride yesterday, then for a picnic in the park! Today their dad is fixing my car up.
Haven't got far with the college algebra...but the boys' mum is going to look at it with me later.
Worried about my son, hopefully he'll be here Thanksgiving Day.
Today I have been cooking and eating healthily. Thanksgiving I worked, then spent about ten minutes with my son before that devolved and I left him to walk his way home. I was looking forward to it too, feeling quite lonely and sad though I just keep doing what I need to do to be well as I can, I cooked, ate, messaged with friends. I wanted to go get car tyres today but people owe me money and haven't paid yet. *sigh* My friends also didn't invite me to their golden wedding celebration next week so it would be easy to feel sorry for myself about now!
I'm almost to the end of Watership Down, fabulous and huge book! I can't believe I read it as a small child. One of the nice memories of my birth mother is she bought me books. I was 6 when it came out, that's a big book for a six year old to read! I always loved reading and I still use the library all the time, only now I can get DVDs, sheet music and other stuff there too.
Got a Beatles sheet music book out last week. Will prepare a few for a Beatles theme program in the new year. Until then it's all Christmas music prep. A client asked me to play 'A Maiden's Prayer' for their New Year party, it's quite difficult so I'll make a simplified arrangement for this time.
Sometimes I wish I had someone to share my life with.
The youngest kiddo had a friend over, and we took all the kids to the zoo today. They had a great time. We're all decorated for Christmas, which is my absolute favorite time of year. I'm such a child at Christmas. Haha.
Been working on remodeling my kitchen. Just getting finished up on the first drywall and mud process. Then on to the second leg which requires me to move my stove and fridge back in to place so I can rip out the last wall and put up drywall on it. Part of the walls are plaster and part tongue and grove pine. I removed the pine wood. Too depressing with all the wood. Trying to marry plaster and drywall is a challenge. Thank goodness for YouTube videos for help.