Hi Vincent...Back in 1980 I was given the entire upper midwest as my territory by a company called Symboltech who invented the bar code reader. Problem was they told me that someday every product sold would have a barcode. At that time barcodes were only used in wherehouses to keep track of inventory and that was it. I passed on that opportunity so I feel your pain.
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I got bloodwork done yesterday.
I am on Celexa, and doctor wanted to do a routine yearly physical/bloodwork. I am waiting for lab results now and I am about to LOSE. MY. everloving MIND. My medicine is not working yesterday or today, and I am seriously a mess waiting for results. I am SO afraid it's going to come back that something is wrong, even though there's no reason to think that.
When she took my BP yesterday at the appointment, it was 145/90 the first time. I told her I was REALLY nervous. So she waited one minute and took it again - 129/87. UGH. Still pretty high, so now I'm freaking out about that, too.
ALL of this started over a week ago with palpitations - skipped beats. I lost my mind. Had a full blown panic attack. Was on the virtual edge for 3 days before everything finally calmed down. But the state I am in now, I feel like I'm on the verge of another panic attack at any minute now. Good grief.
I am on Celexa, and doctor wanted to do a routine yearly physical/bloodwork. I am waiting for lab results now and I am about to LOSE. MY. everloving MIND. My medicine is not working yesterday or today, and I am seriously a mess waiting for results. I am SO afraid it's going to come back that something is wrong, even though there's no reason to think that.
When she took my BP yesterday at the appointment, it was 145/90 the first time. I told her I was REALLY nervous. So she waited one minute and took it again - 129/87. UGH. Still pretty high, so now I'm freaking out about that, too.
ALL of this started over a week ago with palpitations - skipped beats. I lost my mind. Had a full blown panic attack. Was on the virtual edge for 3 days before everything finally calmed down. But the state I am in now, I feel like I'm on the verge of another panic attack at any minute now. Good grief.
Just got home after going out for what was about an hour long drive, which thanks to my anxiety is only the second time I've been outside in about a year (though both times have been recent at least). It's something I used to really enjoy doing in the past, though I just felt miserable almost the entire time. I saw a deer on the side of the road, then a couple more and started to think that I would end up running into one. I started to think that maybe it would be best if I just drove as fast as I could into a tree. Then when it came time to head home, all I could think was "I don't want to go home" because being here is just a trigger for my depression. Now I have to try and sleep, which I can't seem to do anymore. I feel like I'm going to cry, I don't want to deal with this anymore.
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I was wondering if anyone could give me some guidance for my girl friend, who tends to be quite anxious at times. We dated for about 9 months in college (She was a freshman and I was a sophomore). Then, she said she only wanted to be friends. I resisted that because I knew she needed someone to love her and comfort her when she has bouts of anxiety. Nevertheless, I went on to basic training for the national guard over the summer (because I wanted to be able to support her financially). Well, during basic training I called her (after not having talked to her for a month) and she said she was transferring to a Bible Institute. She told me that she did not think I liked her anymore, so she was transferring. I told her that I still adored her and admired her very much. I am now back at college and she is 9 hours away. I told her I wanted to transfer to be close to her and she told me that if I did she would not talk to me. I know that there is not another guy and she has said that she does care for me very much. I am just confused. What are the best options? Do I move close to her anyway, because she said these things in an irrational way-- or should I just move on? I love her and I'm not sure why she can't accept that.
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I can relate. Sometimes with my GAD, I try so hard to manage it on a regular basis but eventually end up having to admit to myself that I need some "real" self care time and have to take an actual sick day off of work for it. I understand mental health is equally important as physical health but when people can't "see" my suffering of anxiety and the toll it takes on me internally (energy - mentally and physically exhausted), it's embarrasing for me to think that my co-workers think I'm not "really sick" that day at work, especially because it isn't in my favor to be on any sort of dissability for anxiety, so most people at work don't even know I have it or how bad my anxiety can actually get. On the outside, I look fine.
That sounds a bit sad, but try not to live too much in the past. You are not able to change your past or the decisions that you made. The main thing is, that you live in the here and now and try to better yourself. If those people are really interested in you then they will see that you have moved on from your past. They might learn to trust you again.
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Very good point. I've actually cut out a lot of people this past year. It was just a lot of people that either I don't really like and felt guilty about deleting them or just don't know them well. It's been really freeing. I'm lucky to have some amazing people around me who do give me second, third and forth chances. I feel very blessed and dunno what I did to be worth it to them
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I dont know if I'm being needy. But I just got out of a severe panic attack. I haven't had one In a few months. My brain was talking ****. It felt so real :
Brain: dont you dare eat you fat piece of crap
Me: I haven't had anything since breakfast
Brain: you ate so much breakfast. You even helped your partner finish his you fat mole
Me: I didnt eat dinner the night before I was hungry
Brain: the vodka you are drinking is enough calories. Dont you remember how fat you got and how much you weighed this morning?
Me: I'm trying to be healthy and balanced
Brain : have you seen yourself? Even your bf would have sex with you last night because he 'was tired'.
Me: crys cos I cant do uni and I'm having a panic attack. I wont eat.
I reached out to my partner cos I was hyperventilating and felt like I was gonna die. Still not currently recovered.
Maybe I'm mad but is it bad of me to expect him to come see me and be worried. He gave me advice over txt but if it was reversed roles I'd be going to his straight away cos I love him and care. Or at least calling.
I just need to be held.
I'm home alone and shits bad. He knows that too.
Am I asking to much? I mean I didnt ask but I just thought since we have been together over 2 years he would be here for me.
Advice please
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Brain: dont you dare eat you fat piece of crap
Me: I haven't had anything since breakfast
Brain: you ate so much breakfast. You even helped your partner finish his you fat mole
Me: I didnt eat dinner the night before I was hungry
Brain: the vodka you are drinking is enough calories. Dont you remember how fat you got and how much you weighed this morning?
Me: I'm trying to be healthy and balanced
Brain : have you seen yourself? Even your bf would have sex with you last night because he 'was tired'.
Me: crys cos I cant do uni and I'm having a panic attack. I wont eat.
I reached out to my partner cos I was hyperventilating and felt like I was gonna die. Still not currently recovered.
Maybe I'm mad but is it bad of me to expect him to come see me and be worried. He gave me advice over txt but if it was reversed roles I'd be going to his straight away cos I love him and care. Or at least calling.
I just need to be held.
I'm home alone and shits bad. He knows that too.
Am I asking to much? I mean I didnt ask but I just thought since we have been together over 2 years he would be here for me.
Advice please
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Hi Thundathighs. Men. We just don't seem to be as compassionate as we should be. We overrate our reactions (like texting to you in your panic situation) as being responsive enough for the situation. We forget birthdays, anniversaries, almost any event or holiday that females place more importance on than many of us guys do. If your boyfriend had ever gone through a decent panic attack he would've been at your side. The point is, sometimes we need to be specifically asked to help meet your needs as we're not the best at figuring it out ourselves.
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Ugh - so sorry you're going through this. It's really hard - I've been there many times. And it's really hard to be in relationships and deal with all the normal relationship stuff when you're going through it, too.
I don't know your boyfriend, so I can't speak to him or his motives, but I can tell you about my own experience and maybe it will be helpful. First, NO, it's not ridiculous for us to expect compassion and care, especially when we're dealing with panic attacks. However, I've learned over the years that people who have never been through it will not know what to do automatically. My husband is a wonderful, loving man. However, he is not naturally sensitive or empathetic. He has no idea on his own how to help me through a panic attack, or what it feels like. He probably never will. And he has his own hangups and traumas that make it really hard for him to deal with. That doesn't mean he's off the hook.
It just means that we've had to have some really hard conversations through the years...what I need, what he needs, etc. He has come a LONG way towards learning how to love me through this, and he still has a lot to learn. And he keeps learning because he loves me. And sometimes he just fails and I have to give him the same grace that I expect him to give me, because I trust him. That takes time...and sometimes it really hurts. I've also learned that no one person can meet all of my needs - I have had to make a conscious effort to connect with other people who fill some of the holes. Again, this is just my life, and not a comment on yours - I chose to marry my husband and stick with him, and we work through each other's **** as it comes up.
I would definitely suggest sitting down with your partner and having a long conversation, in a non-panic moment. Explain anxiety, read about it together, watch YouTube videos if he's not a reader, etc. He can learn !
Thanks for sharing your inner dialogue - we all have these irrational thoughts, I think, and we hide them. You're brave, and you're making it!
I don't know your boyfriend, so I can't speak to him or his motives, but I can tell you about my own experience and maybe it will be helpful. First, NO, it's not ridiculous for us to expect compassion and care, especially when we're dealing with panic attacks. However, I've learned over the years that people who have never been through it will not know what to do automatically. My husband is a wonderful, loving man. However, he is not naturally sensitive or empathetic. He has no idea on his own how to help me through a panic attack, or what it feels like. He probably never will. And he has his own hangups and traumas that make it really hard for him to deal with. That doesn't mean he's off the hook.
It just means that we've had to have some really hard conversations through the years...what I need, what he needs, etc. He has come a LONG way towards learning how to love me through this, and he still has a lot to learn. And he keeps learning because he loves me. And sometimes he just fails and I have to give him the same grace that I expect him to give me, because I trust him. That takes time...and sometimes it really hurts. I've also learned that no one person can meet all of my needs - I have had to make a conscious effort to connect with other people who fill some of the holes. Again, this is just my life, and not a comment on yours - I chose to marry my husband and stick with him, and we work through each other's **** as it comes up. I would definitely suggest sitting down with your partner and having a long conversation, in a non-panic moment. Explain anxiety, read about it together, watch YouTube videos if he's not a reader, etc. He can learn !
Thanks for sharing your inner dialogue - we all have these irrational thoughts, I think, and we hide them. You're brave, and you're making it!