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[Concernedgal]

I agree jane...they are obviously meant to be together.

 

[Concernedgal]

I meant that lukas. You really are . I'mean sorry about that incident you had in that store.

 

[_Lukas]

I meant that lukas. You really are . I'mean sorry about that incident you had in that store.

Thank you <3
I love Dave so much. I know we're meant for each other. It means a lot to hear other people say it too though.
And about what happened in the store, we're both still very upset and angry and sad, but sh*t like that happens to us a lot and it hurts to say we're used to it, but we are.

 

[Concernedgal]

Damn lukas. It's clearly racist that they do this to you. I've had to comfort my uncle a lot because of this crap. He's homosexual too. And to add insult to injury. .he gets heckled because he contracted hiv on 1993 and they told him basically that he deserved it. ..what the hell? I mean hello!!? Everyone can get it...ass hole it'd not a ******* homosexual disease. Hate that ****.!!

 

[_Lukas]

Damn lukas. It's clearly racist that they do this to you. I've had to comfort my uncle a lot because of this crap. He's homosexual too. And to add insult to injury. .he gets heckled because he contracted hiv on 1993 and they told him basically that he deserved it. ..what the hell? I mean hello!!? Everyone can get it...ass hole it'd not a ******* homosexual disease. Hate that ****.!!

I hate that **** too. I don't think it necessarily comes from a racist place, because most of the people who bully us are white and Dave and I are also white. Unless they don't like Polish people, then yes, it's racist, because we're both of Polish descent. I do have somewhat darker skin than Dave though so sometimes people make racist comments to me because they think I'm Hispanic or Mediterranean. As far as I know I'm Polish, just olive-skinned with darker hair and eyes. Dave is very pale, with light brown hair and blue eyes.
It's definitely homophobia though.
I'm sorry people do this to your uncle too. He doesn't deserve it either.
I've told a lot of people off for saying HIV is the "homosexual disease." It really sucks that people think that. Like you said, anyone can get it, not just gay men.

 

[Concernedgal]

The thing is that day when it happened to me and my uncle ...it was 1993 and I was 9 years old. My uncle and I were walking in our neighborhood wall mart and that was one of the first times I had heard anyone heckle my uncle . I actually heard them say( you got hiv...you deserved it you fag. May not have been the exact words but, it was something like that. I mean he was a cop and he caught the virus from a needle stick while patting down a suspect. Sees what they know huh? Those closed minded sons of bitches

 

[_Lukas]

The thing is that day when it happened to me and my uncle ...it was 1993 and I was 9 years old. My uncle and I were walking in our neighborhood wall mart and that was one of the first times I had heard anyone heckle my uncle . I actually heard them say( you got hiv...you deserved it you fag. May not have been the exact words but, it was something like that. I mean he was a cop and he caught the virus from a needle stick while patting down a suspect. Sees what they know huh? Those closed minded sons of bitches

I'm so sorry that happened! That's so awful. I'm sure your uncle is a wonderful person and he doesn't deserve for people to be mean to him like that
It always shocks me how closed-minded people are. It's really upsetting.

 

[janemariesayed]

Damn lukas. It's clearly racist that they do this to you. I've had to comfort my uncle a lot because of this crap. He's homosexual too. And to add insult to injury. .he gets heckled because he contracted hiv on 1993 and they told him basically that he deserved it. ..what the hell? I mean hello!!? Everyone can get it...ass hole it'd not a ******* homosexual disease. Hate that ****.!!

I'm sorry that happened to your Uncle. People are so ignorant and cruel.

My ex-wicked-adopted-brother always used to make fun of people with disabilities. Years later when he became an adult, he got multiple sclerosis. Now he is disabled. I don't see that family anymore and I'm not sympathetic with his disability. I just think that God works in mysterious ways. The reason I'm not sympathetic is that when my adopted father was sexually abusing me for 7 years I turned to him for help and he threatened to break my legs. Now he has lost the use of his own legs so in that case, God has worked in a mysterious way indeed.

 

[_Lukas]

I'm sorry that happened to your Uncle. People are so ignorant and cruel.

My ex-wicked-adopted-brother always used to make fun of people with disabilities. Years later when he became an adult, he got multiple sclerosis. Now he is disabled. I don't see that family anymore and I'm not sympathetic with his disability. I just think that God works in mysterious ways. The reason I'm not sympathetic is that when my adopted father was sexually abusing me for 7 years I turned to him for help and he threatened to break my legs. Now he has lost the use of his own legs so in that case, God has worked in a mysterious way indeed.

That's terrible! I wouldn't feel bad about his disability either and I don't blame you for not being sympathetic. I'm so sorry your family did that to you. That's good that he finally got what was coming to him though, God doesn't sleep!

I know it's bad to wish ill on people but there are so many people who have hurt me and I do hope they get their own someday. I'm not a nasty person at all but I'm very bitter.
I'm disabled and I hate people who make fun of disabled people. Dave hates them too. I always run into people like that at the gym and it makes me so furious. I just wish they would leave me alone. Like who cares if I look funny when I work out or if I can't lift as much weight as a non-disabled person?
When I was in a wheelchair people used to be rude and make fun of me all the time. I don't understand that at all, what kind of person makes fun of someone who's in a wheelchair?! And of course I always get laughed at for my stuttering and my speech difficulties. It's so sad.
Anyway, I didn't mean to go off and ramble again and make that all about me, but my point was that I hate people who are mean to disabled people. That's a really horrible way to treat someone. And my philosophy is always "You shouldn't be mean to anyone because you don't know what they've been through or what they struggle with."

 

[Concernedgal]

I'm so sorry that happened! That's so awful. I'm sure your uncle is a wonderful person and he doesn't deserve for people to be mean to him like that
It always shocks me how closed-minded people are. It's really upsetting.

It makes me sad how after all these years people still can't be accepting.

 

[_Lukas]

It makes me sad how after all these years people still can't be accepting.

It makes me sad too

 

[janemariesayed]

That's terrible! I wouldn't feel bad about his disability either and I don't blame you for not being sympathetic. I'm so sorry your family did that to you. That's good that he finally got what was coming to him though, God doesn't sleep!

I know it's bad to wish ill on people but there are so many people who have hurt me and I do hope they get their own someday. I'm not a nasty person at all but I'm very bitter.
I'm disabled and I hate people who make fun of disabled people. Dave hates them too. I always run into people like that at the gym and it makes me so furious. I just wish they would leave me alone. Like who cares if I look funny when I work out or if I can't lift as much weight as a non-disabled person?
When I was in a wheelchair people used to be rude and make fun of me all the time. I don't understand that at all, what kind of person makes fun of someone who's in a wheelchair?! And of course I always get laughed at for my stuttering and my speech difficulties. It's so sad.
Anyway, I didn't mean to go off and ramble again and make that all about me, but my point was that I hate people who are mean to disabled people. That's a really horrible way to treat someone. And my philosophy is always "You shouldn't be mean to anyone because you don't know what they've been through or what they struggle with."

I don't wish or mean to think badly about my ex adopted brother, but I was young and turned to him for help. Him threatening to break my legs actually broke my heart. He did always make fun of people who had something wrong with them. Like calling people who wore glasses 'four eyes' and that kind of thing. Yes, I do think he got what was coming to him and in one way, I hope that people make fun of him now for the way he can't walk properly. But, and a BIG BUT, there are others who just don't deserve to be made fun of, or to have the disability in the first place. I feel sorry for those individuals but I do kind of smirk when I think of my ex-brother! Sometimes though, I think it is cruel of me, but the amount I suffered, with no one to turn to, and no one believing me about the sexual abuse, and then him threatening me was awful and has given me untold symptoms now. I think they call it karma! LOL

It doesn't matter a fig what others think of you Lukas. Or Dave. It just doesn't matter. They WILL get their karma like my ex-wicked-adopted-brother did. Although I would never say anything to his face to make fun of him, I just thank God that he gave that to my bro to deal with. Maybe after all these years, he has learned what it is like to have a disability. If only, if only God would swop it all around and give those with disabilities the liberty of agility and normalness, and those who have made fun of others to suffer to see what it is like.

 

[_Lukas]

I don't wish or mean to think badly about my ex adopted brother, but I was young and turned to him for help. Him threatening to break my legs actually broke my heart. He did always make fun of people who had something wrong with them. Like calling people who wore glasses 'four eyes' and that kind of thing. Yes, I do think he got what was coming to him and in one way, I hope that people make fun of him now for the way he can't walk properly. But, and a BIG BUT, there are others who just don't deserve to be made fun of, or to have the disability in the first place. I feel sorry for those individuals but I do kind of smirk when I think of my ex-brother! Sometimes though, I think it is cruel of me, but the amount I suffered, with no one to turn to, and no one believing me about the sexual abuse, and then him threatening me was awful and has given me untold symptoms now. I think they call it karma! LOL

It doesn't matter a fig what others think of you Lukas. Or Dave. It just doesn't matter. They WILL get their karma like my ex-wicked-adopted-brother did. Although I would never say anything to his face to make fun of him, I just thank God that he gave that to my bro to deal with. Maybe after all these years, he has learned what it is like to have a disability. If only, if only God would swop it all around and give those with disabilities the liberty of agility and normalness, and those who have made fun of others to suffer to see what it is like.

Of course, I would never make fun of anyone for having a disability either. I was just saying that sometimes karma gets people who deserve it.
I'm so sorry to hear that your brother treated you that way. That is despicable and it breaks my heart to hear it too.
I always feel like I'm cruel too for wishing bad things upon my abusers, but like you said, we suffered so much and had no one to turn to and no one believed us about the abuse, so it's natural to be relieved that karma got them. I don't think either of us are cruel or bad people at all, but it's understandable that the abuse has made us a little bitter and resentful of the people who have harmed us. That's just part of having PTSD.

I agree, I wish God would relieve disabled people of their misfortunes, and make the ones who have wronged us suffer. I feel so sad every time I meet someone else with a disability or with depression or anxiety or another mental illness. I wish there was a cure.

 

[janemariesayed]

Of course, I would never make fun of anyone for having a disability either. I was just saying that sometimes karma gets people who deserve it.
I'm so sorry to hear that your brother treated you that way. That is despicable and it breaks my heart to hear it too.
I always feel like I'm cruel too for wishing bad things upon my abusers, but like you said, we suffered so much and had no one to turn to and no one believed us about the abuse, so it's natural to be relieved that karma got them. I don't think either of us are cruel or bad people at all, but it's understandable that the abuse has made us a little bitter and resentful of the people who have harmed us. That's just part of having PTSD.

I agree, I wish God would relieve disabled people of their misfortunes, and make the ones who have wronged us suffer. I feel so sad every time I meet someone else with a disability or with depression or anxiety or another mental illness. I wish there was a cure.

Yeah, me too. Sometimes I have felt guilty for not being sympathetic with my ex-wicked-adopted-brother. He has enough people feeling sorry for him anyway whereas none of them felt sorry for dragging me through the fiery firey pit of hell for those 30 years. They ruined my life and helped make my brain fog worse.

I hate having PTSD, I had a number of flashbacks this morning. I cry out when they come, cry out with pain, I hate it.

 

[_Lukas]

Yeah, me too. Sometimes I have felt guilty for not being sympathetic with my ex-wicked-adopted-brother. He has enough people feeling sorry for him anyway whereas none of them felt sorry for dragging me through the fiery firey pit of hell for those 30 years. They ruined my life and helped make my brain fog worse.

I hate having PTSD, I had a number of flashbacks this morning. I cry out when they come, cry out with pain, I hate it.

I sometimes feel guilty too, but then I remember all the horrible things they did to me and I can't bring myself to forgive.
I'm so sorry about what you've been through And I'm sorry you have flashbacks and cry I wish there was something I could to to help.
I hate having C-PTSD too. Sometimes I have nightmares and wake up screaming. It's a horrible way to live. Hopefully someday someone will figure out a way to get rid of it.

 

[janemariesayed]

I sometimes feel guilty too, but then I remember all the horrible things they did to me and I can't bring myself to forgive.
I'm so sorry about what you've been through And I'm sorry you have flashbacks and cry I wish there was something I could to to help.
I hate having C-PTSD too. Sometimes I have nightmares and wake up screaming. It's a horrible way to live. Hopefully someday someone will figure out a way to get rid of it.

I'm beginning to think it won't go. Maybe it will just phase away in time but I doubt it.

 

[_Lukas]

I'm beginning to think it won't go. Maybe it will just phase away in time but I doubt it.

 

[janemariesayed]

Some days are better than others. I'm just glad I don't get nightmares anymore. I used to get really bad nightmares when I came out of the children's home and went to live with that bogus family.