So between Instagram, Facebook, etc…I have seen 2 stories recently of young women around my age (29) being diagnosed with lymphoma. Both of them said it started with excruciating back pain that sent them to the hospital and then they found out. Well I’ve been dealing with “run of the mill” back pain due to having 3 kids, carrying them around, sleeping in funny positions bc my baby breastfeeds in bed, blah blah. But now that these stories are in my head I cannot shake the thought that it will happen to me too. That I will wake up in the middle of the night with severe pain. I’m so afraid the pain is going to get severe and I’m going to lose my mind if it does.
I really cannot deal with the world around me because everything is triggering me. Everything. When I read a story about a sick kid, I start freaking out about my kids. If my body feels somewhat normal for a moment, I will obsess about my husband. It’s never ending. Sometimes I feel so hopeless. I just feel like I can’t function.
I really cannot deal with the world around me because everything is triggering me. Everything. When I read a story about a sick kid, I start freaking out about my kids. If my body feels somewhat normal for a moment, I will obsess about my husband. It’s never ending. Sometimes I feel so hopeless. I just feel like I can’t function.
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