Today was bad

[Concernedgal]

Today was bad. Most of the day went ok. My husband and I got into a fight when I got off work. We fought for about an hour or so. I told him during the argument that I deserved better in my life than what he was offering (not in those words of course). My husband is a really unemotional guy most of the time so when he started to bawl ... I was taken a back . By the end of the fight.... we got our issues sort of resolved. Hes sick so he took some nyquil and went to bed. I got into the shower and thought's in my mind just kept running in my head and I just can't shut them up sometimes. I found myself looking attentively at the razor... I starred at it. I seriously thought about using it. All of the sudden I started to cry , I cried so hard ...I couldn't breathe. I'm in so much pain right now. I just don't know what to do. I don't know if a person should have to be in pain all the damn time almost. Why does it hurt to feel? Why is it hard for me to cry that when I do... I almost can't stop? Why do I always keep my emotions bottled up? I bury it and I bury it and I keep sending the pain deep down. I 'm afraid that one day.. it's going to come out and when it does... what's going to happen? A nervous breakdown is near. I can feel it. Somebody please tell me. What am I supposed to do to stop feeling this way?

 

[janemariesayed]

Today was bad. Most of the day went ok. My husband and I got into a fight when I got off work. We fought for about an hour or so. I told him during the argument that I deserved better in my life than what he was offering (not in those words of course). My husband is a really unemotional guy most of the time so when he started to bawl ... I was taken a back . By the end of the fight.... we got our issues sort of resolved. Hes sick so he took some nyquil and went to bed. I got into the shower and thought's in my mind just kept running in my head and I just can't shut them up sometimes. I found myself looking attentively at the razor... I starred at it. I seriously thought about using it. All of the sudden I started to cry , I cried so hard ...I couldn't breathe. I'm in so much pain right now. I just don't know what to do. I don't know if a person should have to be in pain all the damn time almost. Why does it hurt to feel? Why is it hard for me to cry that when I do... I almost can't stop? Why do I always keep my emotions bottled up? I bury it and I bury it and I keep sending the pain deep down. I 'm afraid that one day.. it's going to come out and when it does... what's going to happen? A nervous breakdown is near. I can feel it. Somebody please tell me. What am I supposed to do to stop feeling this way?

I so wish I had the answer for you but I don't. Crying though is a good way to release emotions. You may not b talking about how you are feeling deep down, but I think that is why we cry. It is a release.

Let the tears flow if they want to come. And instead of looking at that razor, go and have a hug with your hubby so he can make you feel cherished. That might help.

Sending you hugs Sister.

 

[Concernedgal]

I should but, what if I meant it when I said... I deserved better? We have issues.