The Shakes

[XmasCarol52]

Where I live I cannot have a room mate or i will get kicked out like a couple of years ago this guy was secretly living with the girl next door can u believe those bass turds wanted me to spy on them and let them know f I saw anything I did but I aint no snitch,I didnt say a word but when he pulled a bb gun out of his pants in my apt I got scared,I don't unlike some of my neighbors around here dont believe in worrying about what my neighbors do it is there business not mine, I know they didnt like it to much that I wouldn t say anything but that is not my place if they wanted to know if he was sneaking around living here then go andlook for themselves .What people do in there own homes are there business,,,

 

[janemariesayed]

I've not been doing so well. I have another therapy assessment tomorrow. At first, it was at half one in the afternoon, and now they have changed it to a morning appointment. So I have had to re-think what time to get the bus. Someone is going with me so it isn't too bad. I'm a bit of a nervous wreck about it though and I'm not looking forward to it. @Concernedgal has a great idea! What about advertising for a roommate? Even if you can't have a roommate, how about advertising for a companion friend, I mean one to go out with to these places that you used to go with you Husband?

 

[XmasCarol52]

my friend works part time for companions and homemakers,if it comes to that I may get into that companions are expensive here,oh i hear what you are saying about the bus I wont take one mainly because It is hard enough for me to walk,ugh my friend says she can take me when she works but at a certain time like 10 but then if it takes more then a half hour she has to leave me at the doctors office ugh she will pick me up when i am done,god only know how long of a wait that could be i heard of people waiting for two hours waiting to get picked up,A friend of mine was this was actually her idea,whenever one of us have to go someone we pretend that person i swith us so I pretend that Ellen is with me it helps some,all I can see is her holding my hand making me smile she is the ellen on here and i do the same for her so pretend I am with you when u go,

 

[Concernedgal]

I've not been doing so well. I have another therapy assessment tomorrow. At first, it was at half one in the afternoon, and now they have changed it to a morning appointment. So I have had to re-think what time to get the bus. Someone is going with me so it isn't too bad. I'm a bit of a nervous wreck about it though and I'm not looking forward to it. @Concernedgal has a great idea! What about advertising for a roommate? Even if you can't have a roommate, how about advertising for a companion friend, I mean one to go out with to these places that you used to go with you Husband?

Really. I have a therapy assessment too. At 3:30 today. They are not going to like this but, I took 1 paxel it made me feel well... no right and then I stopped. They won't like hearing that. I wonder what my diagnosis of the month will be this time. Will it be severe depression, bipolar depression or the latest .. bipolar disorder. What will it be this month? Aren't they the professionals, shouldn't they know what my ailment is?

 

[XmasCarol52]

Honey they dont know a thing even my shrink didnt even know what agoraphobia was,Ya he wanted me to take a cab go all the way out to New London which is a good 45 minute ride just to see him so i could get my pills I had to explain to him I cannot do that you want to know what his responds was ,why not,I said duh I have agoraphobia then he says what is that? Had to explain that to him as well,I never went I am not going that far just so they can see me to give me my meds so I made it on my time and my terms ,it is a stupid law u have to see the doctor in a certain amount of time or they will not give u your meds,I think most likely they just want to see green. Wanna make a bet the people that make up these crazy laws never had to deal or had problems with going to the doctors.. I do not like doctors, I just dont trust them i even had one call me a liar only about a year ago,,he was such a jerk

 

[XmasCarol52]

I can remember shaking so bad that it actually felt like my insides were moving - like my entire stomach area. The shakes are very very scary. -- Carol - I love your "may God be with you" drawing. How many times have we called on God over the years to help us? I would say for me - probably about one million.

HI ellen I am just wondering how u have been doing with your anxieties and stuff.Come to the forum when you can

 

[XmasCarol52]

Well for the past few days I have been extremely shaky,it feels just like when u have the restless leg problem but all through my body,I am kind of proud of myself because I went outside today it hit 80 degrees,I actually talked to two people .One doesn't even live where i do just down below us seems to be very nice.We did introduce ourselves.I wasnt scared either,It was so beautiful outdoors I made a hat.

 

[Concernedgal]

Have you changed medication or are you getting off of a medication? Have you been purposely holding back your anger? Any of those things could cause you to shake nervously. Because the obvious reason is your stress and anxiety. I personally never had the shakes" knock on wood" lol. But, I get this thing where I feel like my throat is tight. I hate it , it's weird. I'm glad that you were able to step out of your comfort zone today. You always have that awesome feeling of accomplish. I love it. And your self esteem goes up a bit. I'm really happy for you. Keep it up. I wish I had your courage . I can't even go farther than my work and that's 15 minutes away. Any farther.. And it's major anxiety. It's not that I don't trust my husband driving,, I just feel a sense of claustrophobia. Keep me posted . Kinda worried about your shaking situation.

 

[XmasCarol52]

the doctor didnt do a darn thing she just said we just met me so she couldnt give me something else she knows me she had my files right in front of face,It was so hard to go out yesterday because i was so afraid I may fall.JUst because you have a walker doesnt mean you will not fall,I remember abotu a year ago right in te middle of the night I had a fall here i landed right on my face and we have wooden floor no fake ones and underneath it is all cement i was so black and blue.No wonder I cannot get better cause i hit my head. SInce I had that bad fall i get scared whenever i have to get up and walk,like it may happen again,So i guess you could say i have a huge fear of falling..Nope havent felt like yelling at all except maybe yesterday but it was shouting it was more like talking loud but i didnt swear ,si that is some thing good

 

[XmasCarol52]

I am feeling so darn shaky it feels like I got a bunch of butterflies in my stomach,I was up all night with a stomach ache it still feels shaky only and always on my left side feels like i got a bunch of fingers inside of me which is pushing against my stomach dear god do i ever hate this feeling i ate some crackers,

 

[Life is Sweet]

I signed up with this forum just to communicate with you, Christmas Carol. First of all, I hope you are feeling less anxious, and that you're getting the care you need. If you're not - I think you may have built a serious tolerance to your benzodiazepine. I've been there. It's a terrifying feeling. Please let me know how you are doing now. If you're still on the benzo I can perhaps help you get off of it safely. I have some books I can send you. (I saved them to help someone else). Or I can tell you what steps you can take right here on this forum. Just know that if you are dependent upon benzos, you can get better.

If you are anxious for other reasons, I sure hope you get better soon. Anxiousness - the kind where you feel like crawling out of your skin - is a horrible feeling!

 

[XmasCarol52]

I have been very anxious cannot sleep.I had a stomach attack last night where I first start out with very bad restless leg syndrome I took my meds then comes the full feeling then I start to cough up mucus. I am having very bad anticipatory anxieties too.It doesnt help that I have to see a new doctor in a couple of weeks. I am very tired since I cannot sleep.oh ya I feel pooped

 

[XmasCarol52]

I need sleep I got so much stuffing going on in my head i find it hard to relax.love you all.your sister Carol

 

[janemariesayed]

I need sleep I got so much stuffing going on in my head i find it hard to relax.love you all.your sister Carol

I wish there was something I could suggest to help you relax that would work Carol. I kind of know what you mean about your head. My head is going around in circles and I can't make it quiet. The noisy mind is hell to live inside. There is no peace at all.

My dogs help me to think of other things sometimes, but all the rubbish is still in there.

 

[XmasCarol52]

Maybe I need a man lol no seriously I don't know what to do,i recently purchased some store brought sleep pills I will give them a try.I did last night and I slept all night but yet I am still very tired.I guess part of it is depression to. All I feel like doing today is sleeping I am so exhausted.

 

[Concernedgal]

When taking otc sleeping pills .. use caution especially when taking anti anxiety medication. Because you never know. You finally got a full nights sleep and i'm happy for you but, it's going to take more than one nig ht of sleep for you to recover after all that time of not sleeping well. And another thing... some otc sleep medication may make you fall asleep but, it's all about the quality. How are you today? Seems to be decelent here today huh? I have to go get a cardiac ultrasound on the 20th... I hope that goes well. Sure hope there's no damage. I don't need anything else in my life. But, I suppose everybody has there problems huh?

 

[janemariesayed]

Maybe I need a man lol no seriously I don't know what to do,i recently purchased some store brought sleep pills I will give them a try.I did last night and I slept all night but yet I am still very tired.I guess part of it is depression to. All I feel like doing today is sleeping I am so exhausted.

Hey, wait! Don't go taking counter meds without your doctor's approval! You don't know if these meds are compatible with the meds that you are on already. You don't have to go to your doctor to ask, you can telephone them instead.

It is great that you got a good nights sleep, and tell your doctor that. But before taking any more, check first that they will be okay!

 

[janemariesayed]

When taking otc sleeping pills .. use caution especially when taking anti anxiety medication. Because you never know. You finally got a full nights sleep and i'm happy for you but, it's going to take more than one nig ht of sleep for you to recover after all that time of not sleeping well. And another thing... some otc sleep medication may make you fall asleep but, it's all about the quality. How are you today? Seems to be decelent here today huh? I have to go get a cardiac ultrasound on the 20th... I hope that goes well. Sure hope there's no damage. I don't need anything else in my life. But, I suppose everybody has there problems huh?

My prayers are with you for this check up @Concernedgal I really want you to take things easy and try to not let things get to you. Keep a check on your anxieties. What I mean is, if being in a car for longer than a quarter hour makes you anxious, then don't do it. Don't put yourself in a situation where it might be dangerous for yourself. Take it easy. Good luck for Thursday!

 

[Concernedgal]

It's makes matter worst that I have an increased chance for a heart attack during a panic attack. My doctor told me that You can't talk yourself through a heart palpitation. You know.. She's got a good point too. You might can talk yourself through hyperventilation or maybe even dizziness but, a heart palpation. .. I don't think so. And nobody on my family" at the exception of you guys".. knows what it's like to battle your whole life . To fight against simple tasks such as going to the store, going swimming and even being there for your loved ones when they need you. Does it hurt? Yes. But, sometimes you feel as though there is little to nothing that you can do about it. Maybe if I get on the right medication though things will be ok again and I can at least attempt to live my life once more. Have you ever taken beta blockers? They want me to but, I'm afraid to take them . Should I ? Will something bad happen to me if I don't need them?

 

[XmasCarol52]

Hey, wait! Don't go taking counter meds without your doctor's approval! You don't know if these meds are compatible with the meds that you are on already. You don't have to go to your doctor to ask, you can telephone them instead.

It is great that you got a good nights sleep, and tell your doctor that. But before taking any more, check first that they will be okay!

So far I haven't touched them.Funny thing is the doctor asked me how have I been sleeping i told her I dont get to sleep until about one then i get up about four or five she shook her head and wrote it down but said nothing,maybe the buspar when i get it is suppose to help with that I dont know.