The Shakes

[XmasCarol52]

I have been very anxious and feeling very shaky this has happened before,but it is so scary because it feels like I want to jump out of my own skin.Kind of feels like a withdrawal feeling ,does anyone else feel like this or am I going crazy? Thank you,Carol

 

[XmasCarol52]

Right now I cannot stand it,the shakes are so bad I had to take an extra klonopin plus a requipt for my legs and yet I feel so anxious ,sometimes I have to do my chair exercises with moving my legs back and forth.I am nervous very nervous about something and i know that is part of it. Being anxious is no fun I wish i had someone here with me .I live around others but they don't get it,I cannot wait until spring gets here so I won't be so stuck inside. yes I am agoraphobic too.Good night everyone and I hope everyone is okay.

 

[XmasCarol52]

I am feeling much better now that the problem has been taken care of ,couldn't sleep most of the night but I feel a big sense of relief.I do try to lay down to relax but all I do is fidget..

 

[janemariesayed]

It sounds like you are very anxious which is why you are getting the shakes and fidgeting. Are you on the Klonopin daily? If you are I wonder if it could be that reason that you are feeling like you are. Maybe you can ask your Doctor if a different medication would be better for you. If you aren't able to get to him, you could arrange for a telephone appointment with him.

Mental health isn't understood very well, especially by those who have never suffered it. They think that it is all in our mind. Ha ha, yes of course it is in our mind! What I mean is that they think we are either putting it on or are confused about our feelings. They think that we should pull ourselves together and be normal. Whatever normal is supposed to be?

Perhaps you could try to put a few drops of lavender oil on your pillow, that may help you to sleep better as it relaxes you and makes you feel sleepy. You could also try to have a cup of hot herbal tea before you sleep. Such as valerian or chamomile. You are not going crazy @XmasCarol52 and if you are crazy, don't worry because I'm crazy too. You just have a problem like the rest of us on here. Our feelings are normal for whatever reason we have them. You may start to feel better when the weather warms up and you feel like going out more.

 

[XmasCarol52]

Hi and please call me Carol that is okay,I don't usually take it everyday unless I really need to like the last couple of days I had to take about four of them,I feel better now.Whenever I get something on my mind i become extremely nervous and my arms and legs feel like I have to much adrenaline, ugh silly I know just was so worried about whether I had my money going into my bank so I could pay my bills,i know i have had a problem with buying things like crazy most of it is food and yarn.I admit I also pick up things for my grandchildren for Christmas to, I am almost done with there gifts, it beats waiting until the last minute but I was so scared I wouldnt have any money to pay my bills the guess what i mailed them all out today so they were paid.. Still i cannot control myself when it comes to buying things ,it is like when i get angry or very anxious i have to by something to relief the stress,
I cant use anything like oils or scents cause of my allergies,oh yes even those make me very anxious and nervous if I get a cold my anxieties develop into a major panic attack and i get gagging spells anything that smells to strong make me gag,Do you have gagging issues to?? Sometimes I wish i had a hammer where i could just knock myself out cold fall asleep ,lol,
I know once the warm weather gets here I will be outside knitting and crocheting again don't get me wrong I do that anyway..I already made two afghans this year. I love to make things for people except I don' t want to make them miserable,lol. You seem like a nice person. Sometimes just dont feel very normal.. Around here they do n not give telephone appointments wish they would.. Thanks for responding sometimes I feel so stupid in what I say,, Carol

 

[Concernedgal]

Ahh yes. Shaking and nervousness, the door prize of every anxiety disorder. I have too experienced this . I'm really sorry that you had to go through it. Your not crazy. You are mentally ill. I have panic disorder. Such symptoms happen to me alot. And what aggravates me is that it happens out of the blue. The doctor just put me on paxil. Maybe it will help. I hope so. Keep your head held up high and remember they are just feelings, your not going to die. Never wonder why you feel the way you do, just recognize it for what it is and as hard as it is. Believe me it is so hard, try to stay calm.

 

[XmasCarol52]

You know I often wonder why does a physical and no offense to anyone over here seem to take perference spelling over a mental illness? I mean where I live I feel like an outcast.It just feels like my mental illness comes in second.I hate that feeling sometimes I just want to jump out of my window I have come close but don't worry I don't think i would hurt myself since it is only about 2-3ft from the ground.Oh feelings that is another thing that scares me those intrusive thoughts,can I asks u something ?Well at night sometimes when I go to bed whenever I close my eyes and open them I see things like the other day I saw a snowflake and I have seen words or just black dots I can follow them with my eyes but they just disappear, my doctor told me that is another part of anxieties sometimes it can be scary. Do u experience that too? I know my mom does and I have heard a few others have too. Just like they pop up. Thank you I do feel much better now and I was able to get some sleep/I swear I have a alarm clock in my head everyday I wake up about four.

 

[XmasCarol52]

hope it i sokay to post my drawings it relaxes me and I love to use puns and make people laugh or just make them smile

 

[Concernedgal]

Your drawings are cute. I kinda know what your saying about seeing things when awakening in the middle of the night except I see rainbow colors. You think it could be our medication too? I dont know. And yes I totally agree with you on one point you made. Mental illness is always put on the back burner and it's a sad thing. It really is. And things have to change.

 

[XmasCarol52]

I once heard during a meeting on tv that if the mentally ill do not get the help they need they could end up in jail or in a mental institution not me because they wont be able to get there meds. I hope not .However I wont let this sit around and bother me cause if it did i would go crazy for sure.I just lost my temper again well I was trying to buy something the gift card no was invalid ugh even after i copied and pasted it so I lost my cool. See I have this problem where I am afraid of losing things.I hope the new president ugh doesn't do anything to mess things up for us... I dont care for him but we are not here to talk about him,Glad u like my drawings I love to draw on the computer so enjoy this pix

 

[Concernedgal]

Can I ask you a personal question? I'm sorry if I offend you. But, is your anxiety due to trauma or did it just pop up 1 day out of the blue? Mine . It popped out of the blue . If yours did too. Do like i'm about to do and get your hormones tested. Your hormones control just about every part of your body including your adrenal and pituitary gland and even the hypothalamus. All team up to effect your mood and the way a person handles stress. Please do this. Hormonal testing could be the answer. I'm hoping anyway. Hope is what keeps us going everyday.

 

[XmasCarol52]

Hi oh no you could never offend me I hope I didn't come across that way.I wish there was a way I could go get tested but my agoraphobia is so bad I am afraid to even leave the house. I am on abilify and depakote because of my mood disorder,and trauma no.It just hit one day and I can tell you happened exactly.I was just sitting outside because my husband was painting the porch and the fumes make me gag.Anyway I was knitting and suddenly felt like I couldn't breath I started to cough felt like I had no air my heart starting racing I thought I was having a bug but many visits to the doctor and he said no and the strange thing about it every single time I drank soda if felt as though something caked up in my throat and I starting gagging it only got worse from there every day having gagging spells well it finally took ugh a nervous breakdown for me to get a doctor i was in the mental health unit for just about two weeks ,I hated it there,You had to go to groups which b y the way had nothing to do with our illnesses. I felt so closed in..I suffered for about six months not knowing what was going on.I still do get the gagging spells and it scares the heck out of me. I am glad I went to the doctors but geez enough is enough with these anxieties nerves,to bad a nice big hug won't cure them.Carol, xo

 

[Concernedgal]

The first panic attack is always the worst and yes... I know how you feel when you say a gagging feeling. This life with anxiety. .. not alot of people understand what we go through and let's face it even the mental health professionals don't get it. Unless you've experienced it, you just can't even begin to understand. I had constant agitation for a year and a half. My life was always based around a schedule . I wake up. Take my busbar. Keep busy, always keep busy because if you dont... you will be sitting there anticipating another attack. During this time, my chest stayed tight and I also felt pain. I got off caffeine and still... nothing. I couldn't take a shower , I would always feel as though I was drowning. I did it anyway, I couldn't go anywhere in a car, I did it anyway. I had a panic attack each and every time I did these things . BUT I STILL DID IT. It is so hard to live the type of life we have to live. So so hard. I'm limited in my life. Like you ,I don't like to go anywhere. I can only travel for 10 minutes in a car. That all I can stand. I thankfully found a job where I am basically left alone. I do prep work for a local restaurant. A 5 minute drive. I stay in the back room , cut my lettuce and tomato and go home. I hate summer too. The heat makes me feel as though I am having a heat stroke. I get dizzy light headed and I start to hyperventilate. It's hard enough that I don't have air conditioning unit in my car. Winter bother me too, it literally takes my breathe away. It makes me feel as though my blood pressure is low. And I try so hard to ignore all this and move on with my life the best I can but, it's just so hard. This hormone test is my last hope. I am hoping for some type of resolution. I'm praying for it. Th e first panic attack I had . I was 17 and when riding in a car with friends having a good time , like you ,I started to feel like I was choking and my vision got weird I couldn't see. It scared me . I thought I was having a stroke. And following that, was my year and a half hell. I finally decided not to allow my anxiety to victimize me. I got mad at it . I decided 1 day that enough was enough. So everytime I would have a symptom I would say to myself "fine go ahead, i'm not afraid anymore " . Let me tell you, It was 1 of the hardest thing I ever had to do in my life. I convinced myself that I was not going to die from this. So, my advice to you is. GET MAD AT IT. DON'T LET THIS WIN. Lord help me it's going to be hard and I am far from normal,far... lol. But, my life has improved some. That's just my advice. You know yourself better than anyone . Only you can decide what's best for you.

 

[XmasCarol52]

Hi I was about 21 when I had my first my attack that was over 40 years ago,I do get very angry believe me sometimes at myself because I think it is my fault that I have a mental illness even though some of my friends say it isn't ,hey we didn't ask for this. There are sometimes when I can control the anxiety but the way for me to do that is to lay down take deep breathes and try to relax sometimes it works and other times forget it,I get like this bubble in my throat which blocks my breathing then i gag, OH gosh my doctors are like a 25 minute to a half hour drive depending on the traffic I always make early morning appointments to get them over with and so I don't have to sit around all day long and worry about them. At least my son said he would take me to my next appointment they are going to do a evaluation on me,ugh I dont know what kind of question they are going to asks but I am getting nervous about it see I have anticiaportory anxieties as well.I get scared anywhere from two months before i have to go somewhere..I wish I could just sit outside get out of my apt to cold but i have a n idea i can open my blinds put a chair in the bedroom sit in there ad look outside the window it sure beats staring at these walls in my living room all the time.See we have a train that goes by and i love to watch it.. I also live right next to the fire department.. Thank you.Like my post main who also has anxieties says are minds are damaged i like that. You know sometimes I try to keep busy when I am feeling anxious.There are days when it works then other times it doesnt.I can tell u one thing though whenever I get sick I get full blown panic attacks it is just plain awful.

 

[Concernedgal]

I have anticipatory anxiety too. My doctor is 10 minutes away from work. That's awesome but, still I feel anxious. I have something called a checkpoint system. Convenience store, checkpoint, grocery store, checkpoint, barbecue restaurant, checkpoint until finally. . I'm there. Have you ever had an evaluation done? It's always the same, questionaire, ink blot test you know, the usual. Nothing to be nervous about. They are going to probably put you on different medication too. I didn't celebrate the holidays because my mother In law is an hours drive and I was to afraud to go. As far as going outdoors , some days I can and others I can't. The sun bother my eyes and I love a cloudy rainy day. Ask for ativan, I love the stuff. In my opinion it works alot better than Depakote. And your right, you can't always control anxiety attacks, they've sent me to the er. Yikes. Let me know your your appointment goes.

 

[XmasCarol52]

I have to go on March 14th it is a new doctor that is why I have to have that test.I think I had it done once before,they wanted to know if I knew my name and when i was born,If I don't know my name by now then I am in big trouble.I don't know how you feel about this but for me i prefer a woman doctor.They make me more relaxed.I have heard of that checkpoint system. How strange is this when my husband was alive every Sat night we would go for a ride one time we went to New Hampshire and back that is about an hour drive but I loved the scenary sorry sometimes my spelling isn't to good/Or we would travel about ten minutes to go and sit down by the Marina I absolutely love the water.I wish I lived near the ocean.Something about the ocean calms me down,the Marina is also a little park. So we would go to Dunkin Donuts and sit down there and I would get out of the car and sit on one of the park benches and look out into the water. I love the sun as it is setting over the water.The sunrise is so nice too.To bad they couldn't bottle the ocean. Oh I use to be on ativan but my doctor says it isnt working anymore,

 

[Concernedgal]

I always feel more comfortable with a female doctor too. Have you ever gotten your sarotonin levels checked? I think I will do that too in addition to my hormones being tested. Have you ever tried paxil? I ask because my doctor prescribed it to me. Kinda nervous to take it because of my past experience with SSRI medication. If you have tried it, what were your side effects if any? Did it at least help? Might wait to take this medication until my doctor does those blood test next month.

 

[XmasCarol52]

I cannot recall if I took paxil.I did take something once all I can remember it was a tan pill I got so sick from it dizzy felt like throwing up.Hey I opened my back door today took a chair and sat by the door so I could see outside but it was so cold.I was only there for about a half hour but I also opened my blinds just to look out the window had it been warmer I would have sat outside. I am making a hat.

 

[Concernedgal]

I'm really glad that you had a good day. My depression has hot me down today. Cried alot. I remember those days that I could barely leave the house. I still have my problems, I can't do much and I can't go far but, being outside means the world no matter how long i'm outside.

 

[XmasCarol52]

I am so sorry that you cried here is a hug I hope it helps. I wish that I could take your pain away believe me I know the feeling,sometimes I could just be sitting here and then comes the crying and it gets to be embarrassing around someone. I cry because i miss my husband he passed 13 years ago right in front of me,I was leaning over to hold him well he stopped breathing,I feel like it is my fault he died. Everyone says it isn't but it still hurts.He took me down to the marina on Sat nights and Sunday mornings a lot,We use to get breakfast and eat it there. I am just trying to cheer you up with this pix