the battle is tooo hard

[imsotired]

my battle with anxiety is so hard like I am trying my hardest and my psychologist said that I am pushing myself too much then I get rlly down on myself when I have a bad day but now I have realised that I have to stop fighting with feeling numb as the feeling will pass. I feel that after I do something wrong or bad I get rlly hard on myself and beat myself up for it and people have tried to tell me tell yourself what you would say to a friend but that doesn't work for me. do u guys have any ideas ? please help me !

its also soo hard to have friends over as i am so scared that i am going to cry when they are over and just going to embarrass myself ...like i want to have friends but i feel like its all tooo hard and i will just be alone with my mum and my dog- they are all i have got rn
i had a friend come over to the house yesterday and when she left i felt bad about the way that i acted bc i wasn't happy i feel like i am very awkward like i cant relax my face muscles

 

[Izthewiz]

Just go with it.
Just remember you can't Control anything in this world just what's inside your mind.
Let go of wanting friends they will come
But I will tell you this a lot of friends doesn't mean you're any better of a person based on social contacts.
You said you have a mom and dog that is more than enough.
I only have my wife and child that is enough for me personally.
If you're looking to make connections look in places people are down and need a good friend.
Places like volunteering at a food kitchen,church or take up a hobby.
I do jujitsu and we are all a family .
We bbq together have parties together we fight together.
I believe your issue isn't finding friends but finding connections that can turn into friendships.
True people will accept you for what you are don't mold yourself to be something you're not.

 

[imsotired]

thankyou

 

[Joshua1]

You said you have a mom and dog that is more than enough.

But is it though. The mother is good, but a dog doesnt talk back, i think its good to have a pet. But, unfortunately people think that having animals solve issues that people need to address. Build a rapor of friends online and offline. I must admit is much better to have a human friend then it is to have a pet. Pets are self indulgent. Pets think about themselves and have no morals and are very simple minded. That is a blessing and a curse at the same time. I said, the mother is good, that is a relationship that stands the test of time. Its the mother of all relationships we could ever have. (Pun intended)