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[Kari7495]

This is endless. I truly believe I'm going crazy and I'm just terrified. I havent been able to sleep tonight and my thoughts are just all over the place. I'm totally disconnected from my surroundings . I'm worried I'm developing something, I'm worried I'll hear voices. I'm so paranoid at this point.

I am terrified, extremely. I'm totally out of sync with my body and my mind. I dont feel here . I'm afraid I wont make it through the night with my sanity in tact. My therapist says I'm not going crazy but in every ounce of my being I feel like I am.

My family is reassuring me I'm fine but i cant snap out of it. Has anyone felt like this? I'm extremely scared.

I cant remember things, I'm out of it. The intrusive thoughts are terrible, I just want to sleep I just want to he normal
I really hope for just one day of not posting here with something new wrong. I'm so embarrassed. What is even going on

 

[Cuchculan]

Nothing to be embarrassed. about. We all go through bad times. Back when I first got all this anxiety stuff and I was trying to figure out what was going in, I thought similar things. That I was going crazy. I knew it just wasn't right. But back then I was alone with my problems. You know that others go through similar things. It can just be the fear of wondering is it going to get worse and keep going that way. It doesn't have to get any worse. With the right kind of help it can even get better. I think we simply fear the fear. You will make it through the night. No doubts about that at all. You are not going crazy. Just trying to figure things out in your own head.

 

[EMJ]

Fearing the fear is an excellent way to describe anxiety ...we fear one health problem ....then another ....then another real or not until it develops into fearing that feeling of our chest tightening...and that heavy feeling settling into our chest and causing tension in our shoulders...we look calm on the outside but inside we are going a million miles an hour. I always lose a ton of weight when I am in an period of anxiety ...I think it might be because my lose of appetite but also my metabolism is through the roof....anxiety about anxiety....

 

[matisworried]

sorry you're having a tough time right now! don't worry about "going crazy!"

i work in the mental health field with people that actually have "gone crazy" and it really is true that people that are losing their mind have no idea it's happening. the fact that you're even worried about it is proof that you're, ultimately, OK (!!!) other than your extreme anxiety level right now!

 

[Kari7495]

Thank you guys for the reassurance I made a doctors appointment and told them I was having a mental crisis . I'm at a total loss tight now. I'm super upset and having extreme depersonalization and derealization . It's scary. I want nothing more then to feel even just slightly normal

 

[matisworried]

Thank you guys for the reassurance I made a doctors appointment and told them I was having a mental crisis . I'm at a total loss tight now. I'm super upset and having extreme depersonalization and derealization . It's scary. I want nothing more then to feel even just slightly normal

i don't normally applaud appointments made in a time of high anxiety, but when that appointment is to deal with your anxiety i will! good for you for taking care of your mental health. please let us know how it goes and good luck!

 

[Kari7495]

Got my meds switched to paxil and abilify. I hope it works

 

[matisworried]

Got my meds switched to paxil and abilify. I hope it works

I really hope that's a positive change for you. congrats on taking care of your mental health!

 

[MainerMikeBrown]

I'm glad you're on new medications as well, Kari.

Did the doctor tell you that, if these new pills work for you, how long will it take to start working?

 

[Imara]

So sorry you are feeling like this. I have been through this as well. I just had to ride it out and therapy did help as well as talking to others who understood what I was going through.


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[doubleanx]

When I feel insane and disconnected like that, it helps me to remember if I actually was, I wouldn't have the presence of mind to realize it. Not sure that makes any sense but crazy people don't realize that they're crazy and the fact you're acknowledging your state of mind and seeking help, can assure you that you're not.