Terrified of Lymphoma

[Ablespruce441]

Hello, I am a newbie here to a forum like this. Thank you in advance for any feedback.

31 yo female, overweight, hx of anxiety since childhood. Currently fighting debilitating anxiety about possibly having lymphoma.

Noticed a hard but tiny (oval shaped, maybe 1cm long) occipital mass about a year ago. It became harder and almost pea shaped when I was ill. After getting over illness, I finally went to the doctor in October after poking and prodding it enough to cause pain. She thought it was a superficial lymph node and was not worried. Gave me antibiotics and referred me to dermatology if I was still worried.

Fast-forward 6 months later, and the small rubbery mass is still there, only on one side. I have not noticed growth. Over the past year, I’ve noticed bouts (1-3 weeks at a time) of uncontrollable itching w/o dry skin that I thought could be related to fatty liver/not as good as diet as I normally try to have.

I know I should go to the doctor and have a second opinion. I am beyond terrified. I’ve spent most of the day crying that it’s something serious and that I will die and not be with my boyfriend.

As I type this, I feel ridiculous and helpless. I am just so afraid.

 

[janemariesayed]

Hello, I am a newbie here to a forum like this. Thank you in advance for any feedback.

31 yo female, overweight, hx of anxiety since childhood. Currently fighting debilitating anxiety about possibly having lymphoma.

Noticed a hard but tiny (oval shaped, maybe 1cm long) occipital mass about a year ago. It became harder and almost pea shaped when I was ill. After getting over illness, I finally went to the doctor in October after poking and prodding it enough to cause pain. She thought it was a superficial lymph node and was not worried. Gave me antibiotics and referred me to dermatology if I was still worried.

Fast-forward 6 months later, and the small rubbery mass is still there, only on one side. I have not noticed growth. Over the past year, I’ve noticed bouts (1-3 weeks at a time) of uncontrollable itching w/o dry skin that I thought could be related to fatty liver/not as good as diet as I normally try to have.

I know I should go to the doctor and have a second opinion. I am beyond terrified. I’ve spent most of the day crying that it’s something serious and that I will die and not be with my boyfriend.

As I type this, I feel ridiculous and helpless. I am just so afraid.

I'm sorry that you are feeling like this and going through all this worry. You need to get yourself back to your doctor as soon as you can. If there is nothing wrong he can put your mind at rest, and if there is something wrong he can fix you up to get better.

By the way, I'm on Prozac and it makes my skin itch.