Surrender's Journal

[Surrender]

I guess I am struggling a bit right now with anxiety and depression creeping back into my life.  First off the weather changed, and it set me off into sweatsuit mode, which is not the best for me as I begin to stop caring about my appearance. But also there are a number of balls in the air right now, major unresolved things that are in process, that could go down either good or bad. I am trying to remember that just because there is uncertainty in the air, does not mean there will be a negative outcome. I think I am doing ok trying not to worry and think about negatives, but still just the unresolved uncertainty is truly making me jittery. 


I am trying to pray, but finding it hard to get past my jitters to get into a calm, meaningful connection.  I am reading Psalm 91 to try and regain my calm.  But it is almost like when I do relax and regain some peace, a new fiery arrow comes flying at me from left field. It is crazy. Sometimes I just think this is all a test, to teach me to rely on Him and not my own strength. 

 

[WorkAtHomeGal]

I too can relate to this a bit. Well social anxiety and depression have always been a problem for me where there is points in controls my life. But I do have some balls in the air right now that I am juggling but also waiting on outcomes and closure in a few things. I have a hard time not thinking negative in certain situations but I try not to as it does me no good or anyone else.

 

[Victoria Sheffield]

In my life I had to learn that I needed to surrender my all to God. I also had to learn that 99 and a half is just not enough. When I was born, I was born with purpose and if I go against the grain of Gods plan for my life that I would be bumping into walls all my life. I always tell people that I am not my own boss. It was when I surrendered my all to his will that things started lining up in my life. Yes we will all suffer either way but i'd rather suffer for doing good than doing the wrong things.