Summer

[Twinkie Moon]

It's summer time here, which means everyone's going outside having fun... except me it seems. Everybody's going some place, hell even my socially awkward friend is out on beaches. Other friends are going out with their friends/partners, going to concerts, family parties, etc.

And I'm just staying home and seeing them post on their social media all these things just make me sad and I feel like I'm wasting my life away not having fun. I can't even go out to the park or to any store. I keep making excuses and evade hanging out with my friend to instead text. I hate half of my relatives and the other half I don't care for.

The only time I thought I was genuinely having fun was playing my new Switch games which I completed recently. And now I think all those hours of playing and sometimes skipping lunch to continue playing were just to fill a void because I tried to replay it and gave up after I died.

 

[Rinka]

It's summer time here, which means everyone's going outside having fun... except me it seems. Everybody's going some place, hell even my socially awkward friend is out on beaches. Other friends are going out with their friends/partners, going to concerts, family parties, etc.

And I'm just staying home and seeing them post on their social media all these things just make me sad and I feel like I'm wasting my life away not having fun. I can't even go out to the park or to any store. I keep making excuses and evade hanging out with my friend to instead text. I hate half of my relatives and the other half I don't care for.

The only time I thought I was genuinely having fun was playing my new Switch games which I completed recently. And now I think all those hours of playing and sometimes skipping lunch to continue playing were just to fill a void because I tried to replay it and gave up after I died.

Gosh I can so relate to that! You feel bad because it’s nice weather and you should go out, but then you don’t feel like it and then feel even more crappy. It’s a downward spiral. Don't be too hard on yourself, it only makes it worse. Do what you want to do, even if its playing games. If you want to go out, go on your terms, have an ice cream or maybe just for a short walk.

Also checking social media is the worst. No one will share their down time. When they sit in the living-room on a chair in their underware spilling soup on themselves. You will never see their worst time only the best. The pictures they want to share, which are just snippets out of their real live. Remember no ones life is perfect!

 

[MasterRoshi]

Hey I’m new here so I checking all the posts.

I can totally relate!! As a fellow depressed person, the isolation is comforting cuz there’s no chance of being harmed, however being out with people seems to bring this joy I wouldn’t have by sitting at home.

I’m still figuring this all out, but it seems as a depressed person we don’t have certain luxuries of the normal person, such as sitting st home playing video games alone. This seems possible for others, but it will really cause me to spin into loneliness, isolation, and depression.

I have found when I force myself to start the day outside and with others, I have a much more positive experience with life.

This starts with the little things in the morning. (Actually starts the night before with a sleep schedule) in the mornings when I jump out of bed quickly (1-10 minutes after alarm), go to bathroom, drink tall glass of water, journal 10-15minutes, meditate, stretch/exercise 10 min, dance with headphones on, shower and eat breakfast (outside in the sun if possible), then go outside and walk around in public with others (no headphones) and attempt to look at them and smile or say hi... when I do this I feel much better.

And these things nowball into other motivations for the day, to do other healthy things or volunteer someplace etc..

The last week or so I havnt done them consistency (or with the same faith that they will work so I havnt been as enthusiastic while doing them), and my mood has dropped. The past few days I’ve stayed in doors and binge watched YouTube videos, or played video games all day, and went to bed late. And it left me feeling really depressed.

Hope this helps a little. I’m still figuring this all out. Stay strong! According to my therapist and countless others, it will get better!

 

[Chris]

I just cant believe its nearly the end of August, where is the summer going!? I looked forward to the summer so much but Iv'e hardly done anything I wanted. No vacation. Not many days out. Just spent the entire time being stressed and anxious.
The winter felt so long and depressing yet summer seems to be going in a blink of an eye.

 

[brtmdo]

I just cant believe its nearly the end of August, where is the summer going!? I looked forward to the summer so much but Iv'e hardly done anything I wanted. No vacation. Not many days out. Just spent the entire time being stressed and anxious.
The winter felt so long and depressing yet summer seems to be going in a blink of an eye.

i hear you Chris. I stayed pretty much in my house the last month or so hoping to reduce stress and get my meds right. it is boring most of the time and can make me angry and feel sorry for myself. I maintain some perspective by thinking that many people with physical illnesses are also restricted at home or in a hospital. i am trying to learn and use cognitive behavior therapy principles to start enjoying my life more. good luck to both of us

 

[Chris]

i hear you Chris. I stayed pretty much in my house the last month or so hoping to reduce stress and get my meds right. it is boring most of the time and can make me angry and feel sorry for myself. I maintain some perspective by thinking that many people with physical illnesses are also restricted at home or in a hospital. i am trying to learn and use cognitive behavior therapy principles to start enjoying my life more. good luck to both of us

Yes and at the end of the day anxiety is an illness, you shouldn't feel bad. How how you learning the therapy principles, on youtube? Hope it works for you

 

[brtmdo]

Yes and at the end of the day anxiety is an illness, you shouldn't feel bad. How how you learning the therapy principles, on youtube? Hope it works for you

i go to a counselor and i found some good workbooks. the concept that we can choose our thoughts and use that power to control our emotions is very encouraging