Suicidal Thoughts

[alice0]

Does anyone else have suicidal thoughts regularly? Whether they are just passing suicidal thoughts or intense urges?

 

[tonitoni]

Sometimes dark thoughts overtake my mind and I go, "I wish I'd never been born". Sometimes I wish I were dead. But I don't think I'd ever have the guts to actually kill myself. I have an aversion to pain of any kind (hence the occasional death wishes).

 

[Corzhens]

This is about a girl that I will call Neneng. She has suicidal tendency but despite that, she had a suitor who was patient. In the course of their relationship, the suitor was always giving way to Neneng's whims and caprices. And one time when her boyfriend couldn't agree to what she wanted, Neneng committed suicide by slashing her wrist. Her boyfriend brought her to the hospital and luckily the wound was not that critical. She was just an out patient. That suicide attempt made her boyfriend guilty so he married her. They stayed together for 5 years until such time that the husband couldn't take it anymore and they separated.


PS. The guy is now my husband.

 

[gracer]

Corzhens I have also experienced being in that kind of relationship and I could say it was the worst part of my life. I couldn't get out of that relationship because the guy would always use his suicidal tendencies to keep me stuck with him. To make the story short, I have found a way to finally get out and I am now contented and happy with my husband and our precious child. Last thing I heard, that suicidal person is still alive until now and he is now married too.

 

[Alex]

This is a very difficult and sensitive subject where many people who have been depressed will have had moments where they have felt suicidal. For those who have sought medical help and been prescribed medication, a question you always get asked is, "Have you felt suicidal?" or "Have you attempted to take your own life?" Many people would say "no" even if they did because they just want the medication and to get out of the doctors.


I find people feel this way as they have given up hope and it seems that will end the pain. I would say support rather than medication is necessary and more helpful when you do have suicidal tendencies to talk them through.

 

[It'sJaz]

Half the time I feel suicidal. I have attempted it a few times before, but failed obviously. For a period of time I was in a relationship with a guy who was also suicidal, it felt awful. We promised not to kill ourselves, yet we argued a lot because we both have issues, and then we'll threaten to kill ourselves. I knew he wouldn't go through with it but it made me so scared whenever things like that happened. In the end we ended up self harming most of the time.


I'm usually very open about my thoughts but I don't think I will tell just anyone about my suicidal feelings, because they tend to overreact.

 

[kgord]

I have them, but I am not going to act on them. I think it would be too unfair and hurtful to those around me, Besides my life could be a lot worse. OF course, that is another thing to feel bad about, because since my life is better than so many people why am I unhappy? I have never tried to hurt myself, but yeah I have thought of it. I am not very brave though, and a botched suicide with repercussions would be much worse than having the life I have now. Besides, I am not really interested in dying. JAZ, I urge you to seek help. You have acted on it..that is very serious!

 

[rz3300]

Well this is when we all need to do our best to proceed with caution and make sure everyone is taking things seriously. I have been there in a lot of different ways, from me personally to being there when others start talking about it or thinking. It is certainly a sensitive issue, but it is one that needs to be dealt with. You might think that just saying "there is so much to live for" is cliche or corny or whatever, but the truth is is that it is still nice to hear those things. Support at times like this is critical, so I hope that people are always keeping that in mind. Thanks for sharing.

 

[Quirah]

I think suicidal thoughts used to take up the majority of my day. I felt the most suicidal when something that frustrated me happen, no matter how big or small. I thought that it was normal and that everyone had those thoughts. It's not normal or good at all. If you're having suicidal thoughts, you need to talk to someone immediately. I didn't do this, but I was one of the ones who got lucky that it didn't escalate to suicidal attempts. I finally talked to my mom and while that helped it wasn't enough. We went to my doctor who said my neurotransmitters were off and gave me anti-depressants. This is one of the worst things that could have happened, because apparently I'm bipolar and you're not supposed to give anti-depressants to a bipolar person. All in all what I'm saying is go to a doctor, but also get a second opinion and do research online. If you see a mental illness online that you suspect you may have, bring it up with your doctor. If you just have a depression disorder, the doctor can give you something to help with that. Research, but don't try to diagnose yourself!

 

[John Snort]

Suicidal thoughts should be taken seriously. When you regularly think of committing suicide there's the risk that as you've thought of it as a solution for a long time, you might actually start believing that it might be a solution. A few people I know who in an offhand manner said they might kill themselves did attempt to commit suicide. When you have suicidal thoughts, call the suicide hotline. The free counseling you get might help you fight depression.

 

[miguel]

Does anyone else have suicidal thoughts regularly? Whether they are just passing suicidal thoughts or intense urges?

I only experience this when I'm going through a really REALLY tough time. If your going through hard times, I would recommend talking to a friend, or even a professional - especially if you start contemplating suicide.


I'm happy to talk and give some advise / encouragement. PM me.

 

[Sue]

I have suicidal thoughts when I am going through a bad time. It goes back a long ways. I attempted suicide by overdoing when I was a teenager. Luckily somebody found me and took me to the hospital. I still get the thoughts though. I love my family and they are what keep me going. I could never do that to them.


I do feel sometimes though that if I were to end of life right now nobody would even miss me. Nobody would care. Life would go on and I would soon be forgotten. It scares me sometimes to think that way though.

 

[joshposh]

You're not alone. Everyone at some point in their life did have feelings of suicide. I happens to me til this day when I think of my bills that are building up every month. It never ends and sometimes you think that the only thing in life is paying off bills. It sucks to live a life when that's the only thing to look up to.

 

[Surrender]

If you have suicidal thoughts I would suggest talking to someone who can help, like a doctor or counselor. I don't know much about it but I would presume depression is involved in something like this, and they could give you some medication that could possibly help your outlook.


For example, I've known a life long melancholy person who became a paraplegic. But they also were given prozac since it happened, and their outlook became better than before (not amazingly better, but they are certainly coping commendably). They say if they did not have the prozac they could not deal with it as they do.


I know another person who talked about suicide a lot, but I guess to people who did not believe or did not know how to help. And, he did it. It was devastating. I know for certain it was just a bad night of sleep, a full moon (for real), and a horrible moment where one bad decision changed everything. And I know for certain he regrets it. Don't ask me how, I just feel he is sorry for leaving everyone behind and didn't realize the severity of his actions.


Everyone's presence matters in his world. We are all meant to be here. We all have a purpose, even though we may not have any clue what it is. Just learning how to cope or get through depression may be one purpose, so later in life we can know how to help others.

 

[SirJoe]

This is about a girl that I will call Neneng. She has suicidal tendency but despite that, she had a suitor who was patient. In the course of their relationship, the suitor was always giving way to Neneng's whims and caprices. And one time when her boyfriend couldn't agree to what she wanted, Neneng committed suicide by slashing her wrist. Her boyfriend brought her to the hospital and luckily the wound was not that critical. She was just an out patient. That suicide attempt made her boyfriend guilty so he married her. They stayed together for 5 years until such time that the husband couldn't take it anymore and they separated.
PS. The guy is now my husband.

Wow, that is a very powerful story. I'm glad that your husband found a person with a very good heart.

 

[Laneorexorcist]

I think that my suicidal thoughts are on and off... I used to have them really often a couple of months ago because I was kind of desperate and I didn't really know how to scape, and sometimes I feel that now too but I think that I have learned how to control that thoughts. Something that really changed my perspective about this was a person who wrote that if I was that desperate in order to look for such a drastic decision as suicide is, I am desperate enough to start looking for alternatives in order to get what I need, even if it's progressively.

 

[Pijuy]

I don't think I have the courage to commit suicide and I can't even imagine putting my loved ones through the pain. But I've lately, I've secretly wished something happened to me. I don't ever say this out loud.

 

[iRichard]

I have suicidal thoughts but I'm not going to go through with it. I want to live because there are a lot of things that I want to do and I care about my loved ones. I don't want to see them hurt.

 

[aimeepoo]

I think suicidal thoughts are something that most if not all people have had at one time or another. Possibly even if it was just a quick little thought. Whether they want to admit it or not. I have had them many times especially recently but I would never go thru with it because of my family and friends and because I want to live. It hurts to be depressed but suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. Please, if you ever feel like you aren't safe..call someone to talk to them. Please.