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Stuck!! Dr.hopping and life going down the drain...

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Health anxiety is still ruining my life, no matter how much I go to the doctor I have something hurting and worrying 24/7. Have a good life that I’m missing because I worry constantly and feel horrible physically, on meds that seem to be making worse. I’m in a hole...
 

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Health anxiety is still ruining my life, no matter how much I go to the doctor I have something hurting and worrying 24/7. Have a good life that I’m missing because I worry constantly and feel horrible physically, on meds that seem to be making worse. I’m in a hole...
You hang in there, Titus. There'll be some kind of break for you coming soon. Maybe the meds will kick in or you figure something out that really helps.
 

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Health anxiety is still ruining my life, no matter how much I go to the doctor I have something hurting and worrying 24/7. Have a good life that I’m missing because I worry constantly and feel horrible physically, on meds that seem to be making worse. I’m in a hole...
im with ya titus...im the same way. for the past several years it seems like its always something, either physically with me, mentally, and ive had alot of loss of loved ones over the past few years. just seems like its never gonna let up :( i love triceps tho...he's always so positive, im hoping that will rub off on me eventually....
 
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I just feel like my meds are working against me or something, causing other problems that are making me worry about those problems. I’m 35 with a great family, I’m gonna be miserable through Christmas, I’m sad every time I interact with my kids cause I don’t want to leave them. Uuuhhh
 

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Hi Titus,

I rarely reply to posting on this site but I thought I had to reply to yours. I have been in the same situation for almost 2 years now and I can tell you, it is horrible but I can surely tell you this, you will survive it. Just take it one day at a time. I am the only one who can tell what's going on in my body. The pain like someone or something is tying me in chains and squeezing around my chest and stomach. As soon as that seems to subside, severe stomach pain, then spasms in the whole intestine, blurry vision, dizziness, migraines, fear, panic attacks (had to stop driving for almost 9 months or so because I get panic attacks every time I get behind the wheel), shortness of breath, fatigue or whole body weakness, palpitations, numbness and tingling all over the body, pins and needles sensations everywhere, and many more. Nothing I eat works. My digestion is all screwed up. I changed diet, removed gluten, went Paleo, didn't see much difference. Lost almost 50 lbs in weight. Last December, after another 911 call, I ended up in the hospital for two days where I was diagnosed with POTS (Postural Orthostatic Tachycardia Syndrome). Since then multiple visits to the ER. I have spent a lot of money in the last two years than I can count. I researched everything on google not knowing I was killing myself doing that. Finally, I found some help from few videos on YouTube and a lot of prayers from loved ones. Now, things are gradually getting better. I am beginning to drive here and there. Not too far but it's something. Training my brain to realize all of these sensations are not dangerous. From months when I couldn't stand up for more than 1 min tops to being able to stand up for 10-15mins to cook. For almost 18months, I could not go to any of my kids school function and miss a lot of church services. It is a miserable and lonely life but you can do it and you will do it. I still have days when as soon as I walk outside, some stupid thought drops into my mind with something like, "are you sure you are okay?", "you might drop down and die if you don't get back to bed", "check your heart beat, it is very fast", and in few minutes, as soon as I entertain it, the symptoms come flowing in.

It is going to get better soon for you. Like a therapist told me, it took a long time for you to get here and it will probably take you some time to get back to normal but you will be back. Try baby steps. Don't push yourself too much. Find something to laugh about even if it's just watching comedy shows on TV. You will get your life back gradually. Don't give up. It will all be well.
 
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Can’t get past, is this the symptom that’s real and is gonna get me. I go from one to another thing now, no relief, when one thing gets better another pops up. My bowels are ridiculous, I never know what’s gonna happen when I go to the bathroom. Stomach is all out of whack. It’s torture!
 
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I hear you,, Titus. I’ve lived with anxiety most of my life. I always thought it was just free floating anxiety, but have come to realize that it’s heath anxiety. I go from heart to head to stomach and back again, I’ve had doctors tell me that I am the picture of health, yet for whatever reason, I feel like they must have missed something because why else would I feel like this!?!? I, too, have a family that is understanding and supportive, however in recent years I’ve noticed that one of my daughters is following in my footsteps. I have to say when I hear her tell me her complaints, I think this is ridiculous! You’re the picture of heath...stop worrying about this. Seriously. Now I don’t say these words to her...I try to encourage and let her know she is, in fact, fine. But in my head, even tho I do the very same thing because it seems so real to me, hearing it from someone else. I can be more objective.

I would love to know what YouTube videos Olu has been watching. Titus, I’m sorry I can’t help anymore than to tell you, I understand, you are not alone, and not to give up hope. Somehow, some way, you’ll get thru this...just as I hope to.
 
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It always comes back to intestinal/abdominal pain with me. I got through my ALS fear a couple weeks ago with a clear Emg, with not much time after my bowels start going haywire and I have abdominal pain. My dr says other than slightly elevated liver enzymes “because of meds” my bloodwork is good. But yet I lay here with aching lower back and abdomen and worry what I’m going to see every time I go to the bathroom. My wife gets really frustrated with me about all this, the money and I’m a drag to be around.
 

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This is one of the links to the Christine Yeong videos I watched
. I'm sure some of you may have watched her videos. Listening to her symptoms gave me some understanding to my situation and that treating the symptoms is not the best remedy for relief here. I patiently watch all her postings and actually talked with her few times and email her when I am confused about new symptoms. The first thing she told me the first time we talked was, start living as if nothing is wrong and start confronting the triggers of the anxiety and panic attacks. Let the sensations flow through you and train your brain to realize that all the symptoms are not dangerous. My first day getting out of the house to take a walk was scary. I actually had panic attacks just walking down a block from my house but the more I do it, the better it gets. I remember how I used to be inside my home and not even walk to the garage for weeks. It was a terrible feeling but God has been good to me. I am not saying what works for me will perfectly works for you but some solutions overlap. Even if just a little bit of it helps, it's something. I do not wish this on anyone. It is a terrible way to live. One thing has stayed with me since I talked with her - "The worst that can happen to you is a panic attack, you are not going to die".

I come here a lot to read other people's experiences too and every little bit helped.

Thanks.
 
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I thank you guys so much for telling your story to me, I’m really bad right now because I’m thinking my meds are making me worse and dr wants to do a CT scan to put my mind at ease. I just feel like crap cuz I can’t sleep and scared to eat. I called a mental illness hotline at 4am last night just to talk with someone.
 
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This is one of the links to the Christine Yeong videos I watched(
). I'm sure some of you may have watched her videos. Listening to her symptoms gave me some understanding to my situation and that treating the symptoms is not the best remedy for relief here. I patiently watch all her postings and actually talked with her few times and email her when I am confused about new symptoms. The first thing she told me the first time we talked was, start living as if nothing is wrong and start confronting the triggers of the anxiety and panic attacks. Let the sensations flow through you and train your brain to realize that all the symptoms are not dangerous. My first day getting out of the house to take a walk was scary. I actually had panic attacks just walking down a block from my house but the more I do it, the better it gets. I remember how I used to be inside my home and not even walk to the garage for weeks. It was a terrible feeling but God has been good to me. I am not saying what works for me will perfectly works for you but some solutions overlap. Even if just a little bit of it helps, it's something. I do not wish this on anyone. It is a terrible way to live. One thing has stayed with me since I talked with her - "The worst that can happen to you is a panic attack, you are not going to die".
I have not seen any of these videos, you can actually speak to her?
 

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Yes I did Titus. I paid but it was more than worth it. She's from Australia and we talked over Skype. Such a wonderful person. I am not saying you should talk to her. If the videos can help you as it did for me, I'll say go for it. I was at my desperate end when I did and it is always better to hear from someone who has walked in your shoes than someone who hasn't. There is a comfort there that you are not crazy or making this up but most of all, you are not alone.
 
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Yes I did Titus. I paid but it was more than worth it. She's from Australia and we talked over Skype. Such a wonderful person. I am not saying you should talk to her. If the videos can help you as it did for me, I'll say go for it. I was at my desperate end when I did and it is always better to hear from someone who has walked in your shoes than someone who hasn't. There is a comfort there that you are not crazy or making this up but most of all, you are not alone.
May I ask how much it costs? How you do that, never Skyped...I watched the video and she seems very knowledgeable and open.
 

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I'm not sure if I should be referring you to a particular therapist here. Not sure what the forum etiquette or protocol is but you can watch her videos and she's got information in the video descriptions. But if any of the administrators of this forum think it's okay, I can provide you more details. Sorry about that. Thanks.
 
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i would just like to actually speak with someone who understands. I go to therapy and pay a lot of money to a person who understands my problem but is not walking it himself. Wish there were AA meetings for anxiety.
 

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i would just like to actually speak with someone who understands. I go to therapy and pay a lot of money to a person who understands my problem but is not walking it himself. Wish there were AA meetings for anxiety.
Hi Titus. Please ask your therapist if he/she is aware of any anxiety groups you could attend. I went to anxiety group therapy for a couple years and it was very helpful hearing from others in our same situation.
 
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I’m having gut issues again after getting blood test and hearing I have slightly elevated liver enzymes. Worried to death I have liver disease or something with my pancreas. Haven’t had a normal bowel in over a week, have intermittent pain all through my abdomen.
 

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I’m having gut issues again after getting blood test and hearing I have slightly elevated liver enzymes. Worried to death I have liver disease or something with my pancreas. Haven’t had a normal bowel in over a week, have intermittent pain all through my abdomen.
Try to keep in mind that the doctor said the elevated enzymes are from your medication. He's not worried about it so I'm sure you're fine and your heightened anxiety is keeping your bowels a wreck. When you're able to settle down, you'll be pooping like a champ,
 
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I’m literally about to lose my marriage because of this, my wife wants me out. She is pregnant and says that I’m causing harm to her and the baby because of my ridiculousness. Which I don’t disagree, I’m on the brink of losing it all, don’t know how long I’ll be able to hold down my job either. Convinced I have stomach cancer now because of chest pain and back pain. Bowels are still a wreck. I’ve had blood pressure issues as well lately as well. I’m 35 and decent shape. I’m ruining Christmas!
 
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