struggleing

[imsotired]

covid is litterallly aking it so hard to go out and hang out with friends cus most of the time they want to limit their exposure to covid while i am trying to get out there working on my social anxiety. im so lonely. i dont blame anyone if they dont want to be my friend because sometimes i hate myself tooI it takes so much of efffort to keep friendships even though it shouldnt have to. I just want to be norml and i know ill never meet anyone and be homeless on the street....
i want friends
help me please

 

[Nutmeg]

I don’t really go out much anymore, instead I’ve found ‘friends’ online. I love reading, so I’ve started interacting with reader/book people on Instagram and now have a lovely timeline of posts I can relate to. It’s lovely.. online friends are a lot easier than ‘real life’ ones. Even though the online ones are real, they don’t come with expectations to show up! There’s also ‘local’ people on there amongst them, but there’s no expectation for me to meet up with them, so that’s fine too!

Why do you think you will be homeless?

 

[imsotired]

I don’t really go out much anymore, instead I’ve found ‘friends’ online. I love reading, so I’ve started interacting with reader/book people on Instagram and now have a lovely timeline of posts I can relate to. It’s lovely.. online friends are a lot easier than ‘real life’ ones. Even though the online ones are real, they don’t come with expectations to show up! There’s also ‘local’ people on there amongst them, but there’s no expectation for me to meet up with them, so that’s fine too!

Why do you think you will be homeless?

i think ill be homeless because i dont have a job, will never find anybody, have not support from my mum and dad when they ppass away and dont believe i deserve any ones love. when i cry my anxiety tells me that nnoone will want to help me. im so ugly.

the sad thing about all this is i am doing this to myself no one else is the problem. my anxiety is making me come across as rude as o dont really speak to anyone like i used to before. it is so hard i want to get back into my studying but my anxietys in the way.
its all my anxietys faut.

i had online friends in the past but they all drifted since i made too many instagram acccounts and cant get a hold of them anymore. online friends is video calling and you are kinda forced to talk otherwise it is akward.i am self concious of what others think of me so its hard for me to video call them. also i preffer to physicaly see them in person cus online cn be scary . sometimes the person you are talking to on the screen is not really the person in real life.

i want this all to stop before it ruins my life. my goal for 2022 is to change my thinking patterns and i believe i can i hae hope but its taking along time

sorry this is long and my thoughts are dark but sometimes thats what it is u know

 

[Nutmeg]

I don’t think I’ve ever answered a video call, and I don’t think I could. I’d probably block the person that tried it (dramatic, yes!)

You will get a job, and things will work out maybe when you least expect them to. Do you like animals? Would pet sitting be an option? I never feel lonely since getting my cats.I know animals aren’t for everyone, or every living situation and I don’t know your situation..

 

[imsotired]

I don’t think I’ve ever answered a video call, and I don’t think I could. I’d probably block the person that tried it (dramatic, yes!)

You will get a job, and things will work out maybe when you least expect them to. Do you like animals? Would pet sitting be an option? I never feel lonely since getting my cats.I know animals aren’t for everyone, or every living situation and I don’t know your situation..

yes i love animals