Social anxiety is going to ruin my life.

[Myownworstenemy]

I always thought I had just plain old anxiety. I knew any confrontation gives me uncontrolled anxiety. A couple of days ago I was confronted at work by my boss and an hr person. It was very sudden and they wanted to talk to me about my behavior on a particular day 2 weeks prior. My boss said I was disrespectful to her and the hr person said I was up and down while she waved her hand in the air with a waving motion. This was enough to put me in full panic mode. Not to mention defensive. My head filled with this cloud that does not allow me to be reasonable. I ended up quitting and leaving after saying i was not going to have that conversation. I had a full blown panic attack for about 2 hours. Couldn't breath. Extreme hyperventilating. When I calmed down I realized what I had done. I sent a text to my boss apologizing and begging for my job back. She said she would present it you leadership next week. In the meantime my anxiety is out of control. I loved my job and was really good at it. I have no money and live week to week. The thought of job hunting or not being able to find work makes me panic. I dont have anyone to talk to about this so that's why I posted here. Thanks for listening.

 

[Menesis92]

sounds like u work in a hospital.

I only say that cause that would happen are at my old job we're I with a hospital

Anyways. I'm very sorry about your ordeal, I too experience something alot like that at a job it doesn't help being isolated before your confronted.if it happens again take a breather and explain that you feel unconfertable good luck

 

[Rinka]

I always thought I had just plain old anxiety. I knew any confrontation gives me uncontrolled anxiety. A couple of days ago I was confronted at work by my boss and an hr person. It was very sudden and they wanted to talk to me about my behavior on a particular day 2 weeks prior. My boss said I was disrespectful to her and the hr person said I was up and down while she waved her hand in the air with a waving motion. This was enough to put me in full panic mode. Not to mention defensive. My head filled with this cloud that does not allow me to be reasonable. I ended up quitting and leaving after saying i was not going to have that conversation. I had a full blown panic attack for about 2 hours. Couldn't breath. Extreme hyperventilating. When I calmed down I realized what I had done. I sent a text to my boss apologizing and begging for my job back. She said she would present it you leadership next week. In the meantime my anxiety is out of control. I loved my job and was really good at it. I have no money and live week to week. The thought of job hunting or not being able to find work makes me panic. I dont have anyone to talk to about this so that's why I posted here. Thanks for listening.

If I were you I would talk to the hr person directly. Make an appointment and tell them that you are suffering from anxiety and panic attacks, that this is the reason for your unpredictable behaviour. They might be able to get occupational health involved, to see how they can support you in your job and behaviour. It is important to be honest with them. Mental health is a huge issue especially in the work place. This needs to be recognised.
I wish you all the best and keep us updated. You are always welcome to rant and write here as much as you like. You will see that this will help you.