Sick and tired of feeling sick- one thing after another

[SallyHart]

Hey Everyone,

Firstly, thank you for reading and if you can comment that would be great. I just wonder does everyone have one thing after another. This past year I haven't coped that well and seemed to get one thing after another after another. I had a mole that went funny- it healed and was checked by derm. I had ear pain- that was checked probably 4 or 5 times along with throat issues- checked by doc and healed. I get heartburn and got upper abdo ultrasound - still get heartburn but take medication for that and is easing- I had chest CT in Oct for issues and nothing- chest CT in Dec and nothing wrong-. Juts 3 weeks ago had been getting abdo and side pain- they did a abdo and pelvis CT- nothing wrong. all normal- liver-pancreas-kidneys etc etc- said bowels were normal- (also had colonoscopy 18 months ago) So here I am extensive imaging- still getting side pain- and still convinced I have a cancer someplace. I also head head and neck scan in Dec with the chest one and all normal. I can't let go of this- it is so horrible living like this every single day- I don't have family close by and immigrated to a different country many years ago from UK- I just feel like when will this end- the constant testing- the constant worry- day in and day out. I tell myself I am okay and people get pains all the time but when it is still there even after testing it keeps you in the loop. I feel sad-I want to be joyful like I see others being joyful- can anyone relate please? Thank you in advance. Someone said I have had more imaging than anyone can wish for - BUT I wish I wasn't having all these tests I really do.

 

[Cuchculan]

But all the tests are coming back negative. Meaning there is nothing wrong with you in that sense. I get various pains from time to time. Like last night. But I done a lot of walking yesterday. Put it all down to that. Anxiety as well can cause a lot of things. It can seem to just go on and on. But you had all your medical tests. Nothing bad found at all. I would be happy with that. I think most people would be. It could be food that you eat. Maybe that could be the next conversation you have with your doctor. Are you eating the right kinds of food? Are you getting enough exercise? Are they just normal pains from things you are doing? Probably yes to that one. If ever I feel any pain, I wait a few days. See what happens. Most times it clears up. I just know in my own mind it is never anything serious. Par for the course. With things that I do. With anxiety people can jump to conclusions. Nearly always get it wrong. Just some food for thought with my words.

 

[Seryn]

Yes I understand. When one fear subsided another one pops up. I had heartburn, then constant tension headache that lasted over a month, pitting edema in my ankles thats still there but tests reveal nothing. Dull ache chest pains, but had endless bloods, CT and x-rays, pain so bad in my legs I got stuck on a walk. Back problems and now my latest is bowel. Fissures that bleed, chronic constipation, and now stomach pain from the medication I take from it. I keep getting reoccurring spasms on my lower left abdomen. Terrified is colon or ovarian C (can't even type the word I'm terrified of it coming true). I always feel ill. I feel 90 not 40 it's awful.

It spirals into my everyday and makes me a very nervous person, I'm constantly anxious or on alert. It means I find life in general hard as I'm constantly on alert and feel mentally and physically drained.

 

[SallyHart]

But all the tests are coming back negative. Meaning there is nothing wrong with you in that sense. I get various pains from time to time. Like last night. But I done a lot of walking yesterday. Put it all down to that. Anxiety as well can cause a lot of things. It can seem to just go on and on. But you had all your medical tests. Nothing bad found at all. I would be happy with that. I think most people would be. It could be food that you eat. Maybe that could be the next conversation you have with your doctor. Are you eating the right kinds of food? Are you getting enough exercise? Are they just normal pains from things you are doing? Probably yes to that one. If ever I feel any pain, I wait a few days. See what happens. Most times it clears up. I just know in my own mind it is never anything serious. Par for the course. With things that I do. With anxiety people can jump to conclusions. Nearly always get it wrong. Just some food for thought with my words.

Thank you for your reply- this helps - I do feel I am currently in that loop at the minute- I just have to believe the scans and that seems to be where I am stuck at the minute- You hear about people where things were missed ( I wish I hadn't) and then that sets me off too- Thank you again.

Yes I understand. When one fear subsided another one pops up. I had heartburn, then constant tension headache that lasted over a month, pitting edema in my ankles thats still there but tests reveal nothing. Dull ache chest pains, but had endless bloods, CT and x-rays, pain so bad in my legs I got stuck on a walk. Back problems and now my latest is bowel. Fissures that bleed, chronic constipation, and now stomach pain from the medication I take from it. I keep getting reoccurring spasms on my lower left abdomen. Terrified is colon or ovarian C (can't even type the word I'm terrified of it coming true). I always feel ill. I feel 90 not 40 it's awful.

It spirals into my everyday and makes me a very nervous person, I'm constantly anxious or on alert. It means I find life in general hard as I'm constantly on alert and feel mentally and physically drained.

Gosh - you sound like me- normally after testing I am okay and can put it to sleep but this one I can't because I am still having the pain or whatever it is. Like I said earlier- a CT should put mind at rest but this time it hasn't- it is driving me crazy- and it's not even a pain where I have to take painkillers for- I do take heartburn pills- I hate taking pills but am keeping on these for a little bit now. Honestly- every month or so it is something new- I feel so sad for this community because we are all in the same boat- Thank you once again I do hope you find some relief for your belly stuff that is going on- Do you run to the hospital? when you get something- you sound strong.

 

[Seryn]

Same. The pain isn't that bad. Originally I had a very strong spasm on the left. It literally made me jump and shout out a bit. It happened last month and again two weeks later. It went so it can't be anything serious but soon as I googled (shouldn't have!!) and it said left lower pain is bowel or ovaries it was enough to trigger anxiety fear, now I'm feeling waves of much lighter spasms there a lot. For me I think it's at its worse during ovulation or period so hoping it's just something mild to do with that or it's another manifestation of anxiety would be the best solution and not actually medical! I'm forever having stomach pains at the moment. It's been 6months. It puts me on edge and in a bad mood all day more than I realise. I don't always run straight for tests because I'm petrified of what they'll find. I'm also not very good with medical tests as I have a needle phobia so that just adds to the fun and games. I did have a lot of tests over 6months within the last 18months but I'm still believing I have some sort of autoimmune disease or something new. It's very hard sometimes to believe it's just nervous system disregulation and anxiety. But I would prefer it to be that over an actual medical illness. I just wish I wasn't terrified of everything and had a break from feeling ill.

 

[kammie72]

@SallyHart I have to have an abdo pelvic ultrasound in a few weeks and I’m soooo scared. How do get through these tests without totally spiraling in fear?

 

[SallyHart]

Same. The pain isn't that bad. Originally I had a very strong spasm on the left. It literally made me jump and shout out a bit. It happened last month and again two weeks later. It went so it can't be anything serious but soon as I googled (shouldn't have!!) and it said left lower pain is bowel or ovaries it was enough to trigger anxiety fear, now I'm feeling waves of much lighter spasms there a lot. For me I think it's at its worse during ovulation or period so hoping it's just something mild to do with that or it's another manifestation of anxiety would be the best solution and not actually medical! I'm forever having stomach pains at the moment. It's been 6months. It puts me on edge and in a bad mood all day more than I realise. I don't always run straight for tests because I'm petrified of what they'll find. I'm also not very good w. th medical tests as I have a needle phobia so that just adds to the fun and games. I did have a lot of tests over 6months within the last 18months but I'm still believing I have some sort of autoimmune disease or something new. It's very hard sometimes to believe it's just nervous system disregulation and anxiety. But I would prefer it to be that over an actual medical illness. I just wish I wasn't terrified of everything and had a break from feeling ill.

I get exactly what you are saying. I literally force myself to go for test because I kind of get this blue smoke around me that won't allow me to move on from it without going. It's awful really when you think about it. I don't get the stomach pains so often just the kidney area and around the side. But they checked all the kidneys 4 weeks ago with the scan and it is all okay. When I say okay I have a 3mm kidney stone but they said it should pass and would not be the cause of the pain- so there's that. I do have a low thyroid but take meds for that and that is controlled. I also keep trying to tell myself I am manifesting but it doesn't go away even when I tell myself that. You are not alone though, I too get terrified of anything I am going through. I wish I was normal like a lot of people seem to be- wouldn't that be lovely of that was the case. My hubby is the opposite of me- worries about absolutley nothing and just says - "it'll go" and with him it does go! Thank you for the reply, it does help having someone that understands.

 

[SallyHart]

@SallyHart I have to have an abdo pelvic ultrasound in a few weeks and I’m soooo scared. How do get through these tests without totally spiraling in fear?

I am so sorry you are going through this- it is awful. I think that is why I went to ER with mine because I wouldn't cope to well with waiting fir a GP appointment- then waiting for a scan. BUT, I know this is something I will have to overcome- I need to wait to see my GP unless it is an absolute emergency- I am hoping this will help me with the anxiety in a sense (although I worry in those weeks). But how I am trying to frame this is it is the only way to find out- thousands of people go through this everyday- we are not alone and will get through whatever is thrown at us. I hate going to the GP in case they want testing but also when I am being sane and logical about it know that it is best to do these tests and know they are for our benefit. My doc told me once that some people live with pain and never go to a GP or hospital for fear of what may happen so I think I would rather have the worry for a couple of weeks and get the testing done. It's a step that you are having the tests and have an appointment. In my opinion it is brave- some of us go and some of us don't but know that this is the only way you will get answers.