Grace360
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So I gave into my hypocondriac mind and looked up the one thing I shouldn't. The one thing I've been fearing about my breathing.
Cheyne-Stokes breathing pattern.
A pattern that's common in the end of life process, or certain serious diseases.
I know that anxiety can cause irregular breathing. But I'm afraid its more serious. I've had shortness of breath for a while. Since November. Countless tests. Ekg, ecg, chest x ray, multiple blood tests to that my heart. All normal.
But I always fear they missed something. That I'm dying and can drop at any moment. Driving myself insane as if I'm some 95 year old with end stage congestive heart failure. I'm worrying the equivalent or even more at this point. It's nearing insanity. Its a real fear for me.
I'm afraid when I stop thinking about my breathing and think that I'm stopping. Or when I swallow or something and I stop breathing, I panic. I either breathe too fast or I breathe too slow. When I breathe too slow, I speed up. I never think my normal heart rate is supposed to be normal, so I try to raise it instead. Breathing harder and faster, which make me almost hungry for air and like I'm not getting enough.
I keep trying to reassure myself with my past threads but its still at the back of my mind. I just want to enjoy my summer. Keep myself busy. Enjoy my dramatic haircut. But I need to overcome this.. hurdle.
Cheyne-Stokes breathing pattern.
A pattern that's common in the end of life process, or certain serious diseases.
I know that anxiety can cause irregular breathing. But I'm afraid its more serious. I've had shortness of breath for a while. Since November. Countless tests. Ekg, ecg, chest x ray, multiple blood tests to that my heart. All normal.
But I always fear they missed something. That I'm dying and can drop at any moment. Driving myself insane as if I'm some 95 year old with end stage congestive heart failure. I'm worrying the equivalent or even more at this point. It's nearing insanity. Its a real fear for me.
I'm afraid when I stop thinking about my breathing and think that I'm stopping. Or when I swallow or something and I stop breathing, I panic. I either breathe too fast or I breathe too slow. When I breathe too slow, I speed up. I never think my normal heart rate is supposed to be normal, so I try to raise it instead. Breathing harder and faster, which make me almost hungry for air and like I'm not getting enough.
I keep trying to reassure myself with my past threads but its still at the back of my mind. I just want to enjoy my summer. Keep myself busy. Enjoy my dramatic haircut. But I need to overcome this.. hurdle.
