Really hurting tonight

[Adirv14]

Hi guys, i have anxiety that makes me feel as if im having a heart attack. My father had one at 43 im now 26.I have had a full cardio workup done and the doctor says i am fine after having a stress test, echo and ct scan of chest. I know i should trust the doctor but im felling crummy tonight. I havnt been eating well the last couple weks and that makes me paranoid. I start a newjob on friday. It will require me to drive alot and somehow i have developed a fear of driving over bridges out of the blue. I need some encouragement or something just down on myself that i dont have my life together on things other people dont think about such as fear of heart attack at my age and driving alone over bridges.

 

[riley coach]

I know how you feel- I also feel like i worry about things that other people are free from worrying about. I feel like I am missing out on having a clear mind.. i just want to say that it APPEARS like other people dont think about your fears.. And even if it isnt these exact fears that other people are thinking about then it is other out of the ordinary fears. most emotions and fears come and go. Give yourself time and do not be too hard on yourself. Whenever you become scared, remind yourself that your test results are normal... I am proud of you for reaching out and sharing what you are afraid of! I hope that your night gets better. Tomorrow you should be really kind to yourself- eat your favorite meal.. watch a funny movie... call your best friend.. Just spend time taking care of yourself.

 

[Adirv14]

Thank you for your response. I just need to vent sometimes and no one is awake who i can usually talk with. I know the stuff i need to do to handle anxiety and i just havnt been doing it the last few weeks and am paying for it tonight. I try to eat real lean and clean, excercise. When i do those things and put multiple days in a row i feel more confident that i am moving in the right direction and hence feel confident in my body that its getting what it needs.. I just need to get back into that, i also watch light hearted tv shows that boost my mood like you suggested. Unfortunately i have just moved to st louis and dont know anyone here besides my fiance who has to work all day tomorrow and my friends and family live like 3 hours away so they wont want to make that drive. This is my crazy thought about bridges i fear passing out while driving over the bridge causing me to lose control of the car. I have only ever passed out once in my life like 3 years ago and alcohol was a contributing factor. Its got to be my perceptions on reality need to be tweaked a little bit.

 

[riley coach]

Thank you for your response. I just need to vent sometimes and no one is awake who i can usually talk with. I know the stuff i need to do to handle anxiety and i just havnt been doing it the last few weeks and am paying for it tonight. I try to eat real lean and clean, excercise. When i do those things and put multiple days in a row i feel more confident that i am moving in the right direction and hence feel confident in my body that its getting what it needs.. I just need to get back into that, i also watch light hearted tv shows that boost my mood like you suggested. Unfortunately i have just moved to st louis and dont know anyone here besides my fiance who has to work all day tomorrow and my friends and family live like 3 hours away so they wont want to make that drive. This is my crazy thought about bridges i fear passing out while driving over the bridge causing me to lose control of the car. I have only ever passed out once in my life like 3 years ago and alcohol was a contributing factor. Its got to be my perceptions on reality need to be tweaked a little bit.

well I'm glad I'm up so you can vent to me! It sounds like you hit a bit of a rut tonight. Youre feeling lonely because of the move and down about yourself because you have strayed from you healthy lifestyle. Tomorrow is a new day! You get to wake up tomorrow and decide to get back to eating right and exercising. But really, please do not be hard on yourself. Life is full of ups and downs... it sucks..but just know that there is an up coming your way. Maybe even do something nice for you fiance- like spend the day planning/preparing a candlelit dinner. I always feel best when i have done something nice for someone else. That would give you something to focus on tomorrow and it would make you feel good for being sweet to your fiance. Also, i understand your fear. I have similar fears that i cannot overcome or get passed, so I feel a little hypocritical trying to give you advise on it.. but somethings that you should never underestimate are the powers of distraction and careful planning. Make a playlist for your car ride that will distract you.. maybe even talk to someone on bluetooth during your commute.. You could even try public transportation to get there? Try to find what you think is the safest route on google maps? just some suggestionns.

 

[Adirv14]

Thanks for your help tonight! It is uplifting, and your ideas are good. I really appreciate it!!

 

[Adirv14]

Just an update, i have been doing well with my new job and i have been driving bymyself over bridges and everything. I still feel panic but i fight through it and get to the other side. Today i had to drive 4 hours away for work. It was uplifting that i was able to do it. Last year i wouldnt even attempt such a thing. It has taken a long time to get to this point. Now i just got to get my diet right. This forum helped me when i was at my lowest.