Really anxious about upcoming surgery...

[Hurt&Hopeful]

Those thoughts are normal with anxiety. At least you know that and will turn them off. lol So glad the swelling is down. The pain should start to ease up now. You sound so much better. No water again. Something must have happened to that main again. I'm glad you're doing better and hope we both have a good night.

OH NO! What's up with the water in your town? Are pipes freezing? That's the worst - so sorry.

Tonight I'm having trouble finding any comfortable position - lots of pain in new places. I think with the swelling going down and the overall ache getting better, I'm starting to feel individual little pains more - like where the staples are inside, the sutures, etc. It's not terrible, just keeping me awake. So I'm watching a documentary on serial killers, because I'm sure THAT's good for anxiety, right?

 

[Rosy]

OH NO! What's up with the water in your town? Are pipes freezing? That's the worst - so sorry.

Tonight I'm having trouble finding any comfortable position - lots of pain in new places. I think with the swelling going down and the overall ache getting better, I'm starting to feel individual little pains more - like where the staples are inside, the sutures, etc. It's not terrible, just keeping me awake. So I'm watching a documentary on serial killers, because I'm sure THAT's good for anxiety, right?

I have no idea what is wrong with the pipes. lol We called and the same message was on when it broke the first time. lol You are probably more aware of the new pains you have because the knee feels better from the surgery. It masked those other pains now you feel them. They will ease up too. I think you will keep healing and those pains will be history. At least,, I hope so. Hope tomorrow is a better day.

 

[Hurt&Hopeful]

I have no idea what is wrong with the pipes. lol We called and the same message was on when it broke the first time. lol You are probably more aware of the new pains you have because the knee feels better from the surgery. It masked those other pains now you feel them. They will ease up too. I think you will keep healing and those pains will be history. At least,, I hope so. Hope tomorrow is a better day.

Yep, I think that's exactly what's happening, and I take it as a sign of progress. The incisions are probably starting to heal, which makes them hurt a little, and I'm getting some movement back in my leg muscles, which is encouraging. I'll get there.

 

[Rosy]

Yep, I think that's exactly what's happening, and I take it as a sign of progress. The incisions are probably starting to heal, which makes them hurt a little, and I'm getting some movement back in my leg muscles, which is encouraging. I'll get there.

great minds think alike. lol I know you will get there. Hey, I have water. Took my shower and washed my hair. lol

 

[triceps]

great minds think alike. lol I know you will get there. Hey, I have water. Took my shower and washed my hair. lol

Hi Rosy and Hurt. You're both aware that anxiety distorts the thinking of so many on this forum. Panic attacks that mimic heart attacks, physical symptoms that persuade even the smartest of us that we have a terminal illness, debilitating thinking that keeps some of us from working or being able to socialize, just a small sample of the destructive tactics that anxiety uses on us. Even with these serious topics, the two of you got me worrying more about how pipes can get frozen in Arizona and whether a dishwasher got filled today with enough pre-rinsing of the dishes. Good distracting job ladies.

 

[Rosy]

Hi Rosy and Hurt. You're both aware that anxiety distorts the thinking of so many on this forum. Panic attacks that mimic heart attacks, physical symptoms that persuade even the smartest of us that we have a terminal illness, debilitating thinking that keeps some of us from working or being able to socialize, just a small sample of the destructive tactics that anxiety uses on us. Even with these serious topics, the two of you got me worrying more about how pipes can get frozen in Arizona and whether a dishwasher got filled today with enough pre-rinsing of the dishes. Good distracting job ladies.

Pipes do freeze out here but rarely. lol At least we are good for something. lol I think Hurt is getting back to normal, whatever normal is. lol So glad she is feeling better. I'm having a rough spot. Getting some anxiety attacks. I'm working on it hope to be "Normal" again soon. I keep telling myself I have a lot going on and it is just nerves. How are you doing. I hope all is okay.

 

[Hurt&Hopeful]

Hi Rosy and Hurt. You're both aware that anxiety distorts the thinking of so many on this forum. Panic attacks that mimic heart attacks, physical symptoms that persuade even the smartest of us that we have a terminal illness, debilitating thinking that keeps some of us from working or being able to socialize, just a small sample of the destructive tactics that anxiety uses on us. Even with these serious topics, the two of you got me worrying more about how pipes can get frozen in Arizona and whether a dishwasher got filled today with enough pre-rinsing of the dishes. Good distracting job ladies.

How DARE you suggest that I don't pre-rinse my dishes??? It's like you don't believe my anxiety is real!! HAHAHAHHAHA A good anxious person always obsessively cleans their dishes before washing them...

Yeah, it's nice to stress over something normal, isn't it? And yes, I managed to get my dishwasher filled AND turned on during my second jaunt around the house today on my crutches. I spent maybe an hour and a half up and around today, which was really nice. As a result, though, my shin has swollen up and started turning all the lovely colors of the rainbow. A little freaky, so I Googled ACL reconstruction recovery, and it turns out this is completely normal "bleeding from the bone" where the bone was drilled for inserting the ligament, exacerbated from being upright and stimulating all that blood flow. It's not only super gross to think about, but actually quite painful, so I might make the hubby do the dishwasher tomorrow. I'm going to have to take the strong pills to get to sleep tonight. The GOOD part was being able to call my mother and say "bleeding from the bone" several times until she yelled at me to stop saying it. Completely worth it...

@Rosy , you have any water yet???

 

[Rosy]

I have water. Got my shower and washed my hair. lol Glad you feel better. Hope we both have a good day tomorrow. Just thought of something. Guess I'll have to wash clothes tomorrow now that the water is back. lol

 

[Hurt&Hopeful]

I have water. Got my shower and washed my hair. lol Glad you feel better. Hope we both have a good day tomorrow. Just thought of something. Guess I'll have to wash clothes tomorrow now that the water is back. lol

Oh good!! I know you felt so much better after that. Hopefully that's the last of the great water saga of 2019 for you.

After you do that laundry, feel free to bring it to me to fold. LOL That's the ONLY housework I can do from this stupid bed. My husband brings the loads in and piles them on top of me. hahaha

 

[Rosy]

Oh good!! I know you felt so much better after that. Hopefully that's the last of the great water saga of 2019 for you.

After you do that laundry, feel free to bring it to me to fold. LOL That's the ONLY housework I can do from this stupid bed. My husband brings the loads in and piles them on top of me. hahaha

Okay I hate folding it. lol I'll bring it to you. I hope this doesn't happen again this week. I'll have another anxiety attack.. I told that to my husband and he says No I can't do that. It is his turn to have an attack. lol Happy dreams tonight.

 

[Hurt&Hopeful]

Okay I hate folding it. lol I'll bring it to you. I hope this doesn't happen again this week. I'll have another anxiety attack.. I told that to my husband and he says No I can't do that. It is his turn to have an attack. lol Happy dreams tonight.

Ha - you too. I'm watching a movie because the pain is keeping me awake. Just have to ride it out. ..sleep tight.

 

[Rosy]

Ha - you too. I'm watching a movie because the pain is keeping me awake. Just have to ride it out. ..sleep tight.

I had a good night's sleep. But I have anxiety. Worrying about taking my pills. They don''t seem to be helping. Hopeing this lets up soon. Hoping you have a good day.

 

[Hurt&Hopeful]

I had a good night's sleep. But I have anxiety. Worrying about taking my pills. They don''t seem to be helping. Hopeing this lets up soon. Hoping you have a good day.

From your other thread....If you have never tried an SSRI, you might chat with your doctor about it. They are different than benzodiazapene medications because they don't start working immediately, and don't give you that "high" feeling. Benzos are basically tranquilizers - they have never been much help to me because they wear off, and then you have to take more, and they lose their effect on you over time. SSRI medications take longer to show results (3-4 weeks, normally), and they are just a gentler overall mood adjuster. They help your body keep your seratonin levels balanced, which helps with anxiety as well as depression.

On another note...I'm in a LOT of pain tonight, and could use some good thoughts. There is some dark bruising spreading down the front of my shin, and some more swelling, and it's just really painful. I've read that it's completely normal and will pass with time - it's supposedly some light internal bleeding and fluid from the ligament attachment sites, etc. (bones) I took the final bandages off today, and the incision sites look great, and the knee itself is healing just like it should. So I'm hoping that this will pass quickly. I'm about to lay back and stick my leg up in the air. I could really use a good night's sleep tonight without pain.

 

[Rosy]

From your other thread....If you have never tried an SSRI, you might chat with your doctor about it. They are different than benzodiazapene medications because they don't start working immediately, and don't give you that "high" feeling. Benzos are basically tranquilizers - they have never been much help to me because they wear off, and then you have to take more, and they lose their effect on you over time. SSRI medications take longer to show results (3-4 weeks, normally), and they are just a gentler overall mood adjuster. They help your body keep your seratonin levels balanced, which helps with anxiety as well as depression.

On another note...I'm in a LOT of pain tonight, and could use some good thoughts. There is some dark bruising spreading down the front of my shin, and some more swelling, and it's just really painful. I've read that it's completely normal and will pass with time - it's supposedly some light internal bleeding and fluid from the ligament attachment sites, etc. (bones) I took the final bandages off today, and the incision sites look great, and the knee itself is healing just like it should. So I'm hoping that this will pass quickly. I'm about to lay back and stick my leg up in the air. I could really use a good night's sleep tonight without pain.

So sorry you are having a bad time tonight. I can't think of anything else to try. Do you take anything for pain?

 

[Hurt&Hopeful]

So sorry you are having a bad time tonight. I can't think of anything else to try. Do you take anything for pain?

You're so sweet - yes, I have some pain meds. I had already stopped taking the strong stuff, but I'm taking it at night when it's worse. And I know that it will be temporary - I just have to get through these first couple of weeks. I've survived more than a week of pain waiting for surgery, then surgery, then the first week post-op (which is the worst). So this is the next phase, and it will end, too. Then comes physical therapy pain. hahahahahhaha YAY KNEES! Kids, take care of your knees....

 

[Rosy]

You're so sweet - yes, I have some pain meds. I had already stopped taking the strong stuff, but I'm taking it at night when it's worse. And I know that it will be temporary - I just have to get through these first couple of weeks. I've survived more than a week of pain waiting for surgery, then surgery, then the first week post-op (which is the worst). So this is the next phase, and it will end, too. Then comes physical therapy pain. hahahahahhaha YAY KNEES! Kids, take care of your knees....

Good you have pain meds. lol Yes you will get through this. You have the spunk. If I have to have surgery for my aneurysm I'm hoping I do as good as you are.

 

[Hurt&Hopeful]

Good you have pain meds. lol Yes you will get through this. You have the spunk. If I have to have surgery for my aneurysm I'm hoping I do as good as you are.

Well, I hope that you DON'T have to have surgery, but if you do, you will get through it. We all do what we have to do, right?

I'm currently watching a Netflix documentary on Canadian Cat Shows, and it's making me laugh pretty hard and taking my mind off of it. So if you have surgery, I highly recommend it. hahahaha

 

[Rosy]

I hope I don't need surgery either but you are right. I will get through it. lol No other choice. I will remember about the cat shows if I need cheering up.

 

[Hurt&Hopeful]

I hope I don't need surgery either but you are right. I will get through it. lol No other choice. I will remember about the cat shows if I need cheering up.

I'm not really a cat person. I have HAD a cat before, but I'm a dog lover at heart, and "showing cats" just makes me laugh (hey - no disrespect....they evidently LOVE doing this....)

I'll just leave this here for your enjoyment:

 

[Rosy]

I'll just leave this here for your enjoyment:

So so cute. I am a dog person too. But I do like cats. Thanks.