Those thoughts are normal with anxiety. At least you know that and will turn them off. lol So glad the swelling is down. The pain should start to ease up now. You sound so much better. No water again. Something must have happened to that main again. I'm glad you're doing better and hope we both have a good night.
Tonight I'm having trouble finding any comfortable position - lots of pain in new places. I think with the swelling going down and the overall ache getting better, I'm starting to feel individual little pains more - like where the staples are inside, the sutures, etc. It's not terrible, just keeping me awake. So I'm watching a documentary on serial killers, because I'm sure THAT's good for anxiety, right?