Questioning it All

[adamden]

I know I shouldn’t be doing this, but it’s nights like last night that are posing so many questions. Is this truly anxiety? Are these symptoms real and being chalked wrongly to anxiety? Man anxiety sucks......

For starters, after the party I hosted last night, I went to sleep at 11:00pm, but woke up at 2:00am with the same exact splitting headache behind my eyelids that caused me to get sick on Wednesday. What do you think happened this time? Got sick again in the middle of the night. As soon as I got sick though, the headache got better, didn’t entirely go away, but I fell back asleep, and it is gone now as I type to you all. I can’t pinpoint why these headaches are being caused, as I’m not finding any common denominators. If anyone has any ideas, please throw them at me. This time around when I got sick, it wasn’t a lot that came up, but still, got sick anyways.

But if that wasn’t all, as our party was ending, I had incontinence happen at around 10:45pm (which I chalk up as being my own fault because I didn’t give myself enough time), but I also had incontinence sometime last night in the middle of the night and I’m not sure when. That’s the second straight night now I’ve had incontinence happen in the middle of the night. And I’ve been on a good track recently on eliminating incontinence recently during the day and night

It’s just times like these that make me question if anything medical is truly going on, or if this is all anxiety and I’m gonna be stuck with it for years to come. I know I’ve had my medical work-up done (CT scan, X-Ray, blood work, EKG, pulmonary, etc.) and it all came back clear. I even had a urologist appointment last Monday to talk about the incontinence, which I have an ultrasound to for sure settle everything on that end Thursday, but I feel like they aren’t gonna find anything, and I’m gonna be left with continuing to find out how to eliminate these symptoms.

I just need some pick-me-up, some advice, some answers, ANYTHING! All this is making me not want to get out of bed today.

 

[Joannedbo]

Adamden i feel your pain i am, reading your post is like a day in my life. Last week i convinced myself i had bowel cancer because i was constantly getting pain. Today its cervical cancer, i just want the world to stop so i can get off.

 

[adamden]

Adamden i feel your pain i am, reading your post is like a day in my life. Last week i convinced myself i had bowel cancer because i was constantly getting pain. Today its cervical cancer, i just want the world to stop so i can get off.

Very sorry to hear that. We’ll get through this together

 

[Joannedbo]

Thats a deal! I find exercise helps me but i can only exercise on my better days. I also listen to mediattion music to help me sleep. I try my best to not google ut do find this hard.

 

[adamden]

Just another update for this thread. I just got a call from the clinic that is doing my ultrasound tomorrow, and they told me that prior to the appointment, like 45 minutes before the ultrasound, they want me to drink 24 ounces of water.
I feel like that is too much to drink at one time for my stature, and I'm not sure that I can and will be able to do so.
Anyone have any advice on that? I weigh around 78-80 pounds and am only 4'10".

 

[MamaLove]

Hmm once I had an ultrasound that I had to drink 32 oz for. I'm sure they took your size into account when giving you the instructions, but you could always call and double check. It was uncomfortable for sure, but necessary to get the best results.

 

[adamden]

Hmm once I had an ultrasound that I had to drink 32 oz for. I'm sure they took your size into account when giving you the instructions, but you could always call and double check. It was uncomfortable for sure, but necessary to get the best results.

I'm actually not sure if they know my size, but I'll look into it a little more. At this point, I'll do anything to make sure they get the best results, because I want to solve this incontinence once and for all.

 

[triceps]

Hi adamden. In response to the title of your post. I find that having too much time on my hands causes me to have questions about my anxiety in general. I don't have health anxiety but get many physical symptoms (including not being able to walk at rare times) from my generalized anxiety. Sometimes, particularly if my wife is out of town, I'll even question my sanity. I have an extremely supportive wife and I think I just get insecure when she's gone. Just wanted to let you know that I too, "question it All". Hope the ultrasound goes well.

 

[Joannedbo]

Hi Adamsen, i would say make sure your drink but just want you can handle its so they can get a clear picture of your bladder so as long as its full should be ok.

 

[AnxiousBean]

Hi Adamsen,
Your headaches sound kind of like what happens to me when I've accidentally ingested Gluten (I have celiac disease). I throw up for about 2-4 hours and then start feeling better afterwards. It would wake me up at night =( For your bladder, I had the same procedure done. It's not terrible but you'll feel a little uncomfortable during the test because your bladder will feel like it's going to pop but it won't. It's really important that you drink as much as you can though! I had a renal scan done as well to check my kidney's and that wasn't bad at all. I wish you the best of luck and hang in there. Everything will be okay.

 

[adamden]

Thank you everyone for your kind words, I greatly appreciate it. I just had the appointment and wanted to update you all. I'm still a little bit uneasy about this. I thought this would calm me down, but it hasn't.
I didn't drink the full 24 ounces of water, I drank 17, but it was good enough for them to see my bladder on the ultrasound.
Part of the ultrasound, if possible, was to see how my bladder emptied out. When they first scanned my bladder, I had 450 milliliters, and then I went to the restroom and it felt like I emptied it out, but there was still 210 milliliters left after I went to the restroom. So they were able to pick that up, and basically show that my bladder is retaining.
The reason why I say this may not be entirely true is because I went to the restroom once again 30 minutes later once I got home, and emptied out SO much once again. I just don't want there to be a false positive on my report, and then have to try and explain that to the physician's assistant. I'm hoping that it will all work out though.
Attempting to think positive thoughts on this. Hopefully it'll all turn out fine.

 

[AnxiousBean]

Thank you everyone for your kind words, I greatly appreciate it. I just had the appointment and wanted to update you all. I'm still a little bit uneasy about this. I thought this would calm me down, but it hasn't.
I didn't drink the full 24 ounces of water, I drank 17, but it was good enough for them to see my bladder on the ultrasound.
Part of the ultrasound, if possible, was to see how my bladder emptied out. When they first scanned my bladder, I had 450 milliliters, and then I went to the restroom and it felt like I emptied it out, but there was still 210 milliliters left after I went to the restroom. So they were able to pick that up, and basically show that my bladder is retaining.
The reason why I say this may not be entirely true is because I went to the restroom once again 30 minutes later once I got home, and emptied out SO much once again. I just don't want there to be a false positive on my report, and then have to try and explain that to the physician's assistant. I'm hoping that it will all work out though.
Attempting to think positive thoughts on this. Hopefully it'll all turn out fine.

I suffer the same symptoms! When I drink alot of water, I will pee... thinking I got it all. 20-30 minutes later I will go again, the same amount if not more. I've come to realize this is my new normal. It's annoying but it happens to me all the time. My urologist suspects that I have Interstitial cystitis or IC. This suspicion comes from many visits to urgent care to test for a UTI - showing white bloodcells but no bacteria, and having a bladder that burns/feels like pins and needles.

 

[adamden]

I suffer the same symptoms! When I drink alot of water, I will pee... thinking I got it all. 20-30 minutes later I will go again, the same amount if not more. I've come to realize this is my new normal. It's annoying but it happens to me all the time. My urologist suspects that I have Interstitial cystitis or IC. This suspicion comes from many visits to urgent care to test for a UTI - showing white bloodcells but no bacteria, and having a bladder that burns/feels like pins and needles.

Funny thing is, my dad even told me that that happens to him too. He'll drink like a half a glass of water, and then drink his coffee, and then do the same exact thing.
I don't suspect that is what I have, because throughout this bout of incontinence, I've had no pain while urinating, and no burning sensation, no blood in my urine, etc. That has not happened.

 

[adamden]

Alright, so I know this will sound weird, but I'm slightly anxious, but I'm not quite sure why.
This morning, I ended up having to kill a roach in my bathroom (lovely, right? Sarcasm MAJORLY intended LOL). When my mom came in to see what the commotion was about, she also went to look for something in my bathroom door in my vanity, and found that one of the shampoo bottles that I had under there exploded and there was just sticky shampoo everywhere. So she decided it was finally time to clean out my vanity drawers and the area under my sink (what is that called LOL?)
Surprisingly enough, the areas in my vanity door and drawers weren't as dusty and disgusting as I thought it was going to be, not a lot of dust. But still, there was some dust. At one point, I actually took a breath in through my nose and felt something in my throat that made me cough (felt like I inhaled dust). Had to step out a second while I was coughing up a storm LOL.
I'm wondering if I'm maybe slightly anxious just because I was expecting those to be much more dirty and maybe even see a spider living back there LOL, or maybe because of the dust I may have inhaled or whatever I inhaled LOL, or maybe just because I don't like cleaning.
Anyways, thanks for reading this mindless rant LOL. If anyone has ideas on why I might be anxious, shoot them at me!

 

[AnxiousBean]

Are you scared about what the dust will do? Like germs or something?

 

[adamden]

Are you scared about what the dust will do? Like germs or something?

I mean, I really don't know LOL. I know this is no help, but I really don't know what I have to worry about. I actually didn't physically clean out the drawers with the Clorox. I didn't touch them at all, my mom did. I was helping her with other parts of it, like throwing away things in the drawer that I didn't need anymore. I've washed my hands twice since then (once just to clean my hands after touching all that, and then after using the bathroom momentarily after).

 

[adamden]

Well I gotta say, last night was a win-lose night... and it was weird.
The win part: didn’t have night time incontinence for the first time in nine nights (Woohoo!). But part of that was because of.....
The lose part: Ended up not really being able to go to sleep last night, and it was already bad enough because my family and I had already planned for me to get up at certain times during the night just so I could empty my bladder and avoid the incontinence altogether. Well, the plan was for me to wake up at 1:30am to go to the restroom, but of course, at that time, the revenge of the eyelid headache returned. Once again, got sick because of the headache, went back to sleep, and was good for the rest of the night headache wise. But still, I got at 4:30am to go to the restroom again, and finally slept a straight four hours from 4:30 to 8:45.
So now the next idea that we came up with on what the headaches could be from is eye strain. The reason is because I’m not super busy these summer days, I’m not as active, meaning I’m spending more time in my house on my phone or laptop (which I admit is true). But what I don’t get is why these headaches are happening in the middle of the night and not while I’m actually looking at any of my screens if it is indeed eye strain.
I’m open to any ideas, so throw them at me, please and thank you!

 

[Shreddykrugaer]

Well I gotta say, last night was a win-lose night... and it was weird.
The win part: didn’t have night time incontinence for the first time in nine nights (Woohoo!). But part of that was because of.....
The lose part: Ended up not really being able to go to sleep last night, and it was already bad enough because my family and I had already planned for me to get up at certain times during the night just so I could empty my bladder and avoid the incontinence altogether. Well, the plan was for me to wake up at 1:30am to go to the restroom, but of course, at that time, the revenge of the eyelid headache returned. Once again, got sick because of the headache, went back to sleep, and was good for the rest of the night headache wise. But still, I got at 4:30am to go to the restroom again, and finally slept a straight four hours from 4:30 to 8:45.
So now the next idea that we came up with on what the headaches could be from is eye strain. The reason is because I’m not super busy these summer days, I’m not as active, meaning I’m spending more time in my house on my phone or laptop (which I admit is true). But what I don’t get is why these headaches are happening in the middle of the night and not while I’m actually looking at any of my screens if it is indeed eye strain.
I’m open to any ideas, so throw them at me, please and thank you!

Maybe its change in lighting or a astigmatism from the change in flashing lights to just dim or dark light rooms ? Do you wear glasses ?

 

[adamden]

Maybe its change in lighting or a astigmatism from the change in flashing lights to just dim or dark light rooms ? Do you wear glasses ?

I do not wear glasses. But that would seem to make sense if it was astigmatism.

 

[Shreddykrugaer]

I do not wear glasses. But that would seem to make sense if it was astigmatism.

Maybe get that checked what could it hurt? Do you drink alot of water cause dehydration can also cause headaches etc