So about 3 weeks ago I noticed a soft lump down in my female area (not external but just right inside-sorry TMI) I knew it wasn’t an ingrown hair or anything like that, it was something I had never felt before. Needless to say, I completely panicked, started shaking and crying and just losing it until I finally got to see my OBGYN.
I finally get to my appointment and the doctor tells me it’s a harmless, fluid filled cyst but that she did not want to drain it with a needle because I was in a really bad state (I couldn’t stop panicking at the doctor, just completely consumed with fear) anyway she said she would order some imaging so that it’d make me feel better about it. I went home not feeling any more relieved. So instead of scheduling the imaging I rushed back the next day to another doctor at the same office who I like better. He also told me (and another nurse looked at it too) that it is a harmless fluid filled cyst but that he did not want to drain it because it’s located near the bladder and would feel more confident if a urogynecologist specialist did because he wanted to do it the safest way. Keep in mind the cyst was not causing me any pain (just EXTREME anxiety and stress knowing it was there)
After having three total medical professionals tell me that it’s nothing to worry about, I felt pretty relieved for a bit. I think I felt relieved because this doctor sat there and talked with me for a whole hour and let me ask 100000 questions and helped put some worry to rest. But then I realized I wouldn’t be able to be seen by the specialist for a whole month. That didn’t sit well with me so for whatever reason it sent me into another spiral and more googling.
Well now for the past few days I’ve had more frequent urination and what seems like some weird pelvic pain and sensations. The issue with this is that I’m in a very bad place with my anxiety and I truly cannot tell if my mind is causing these symptoms or if they are real. Usually I can dig deep and differentiate but I don’t know. I’m just convinced that they are wrong about it being harmless and fluid filled and that maybe I have cancer that Is spreading as we speak. The nurse and the second doctor said they felt confident that I didn’t need imaging because they could clearly tell it’s a cyst. But what if they were wrong. I’m just so confused and scared. I also can’t stop pressing and prodding at my bladder checking to see if I have to go pee even a little bit. It’s getting bad.
I finally get to my appointment and the doctor tells me it’s a harmless, fluid filled cyst but that she did not want to drain it with a needle because I was in a really bad state (I couldn’t stop panicking at the doctor, just completely consumed with fear) anyway she said she would order some imaging so that it’d make me feel better about it. I went home not feeling any more relieved. So instead of scheduling the imaging I rushed back the next day to another doctor at the same office who I like better. He also told me (and another nurse looked at it too) that it is a harmless fluid filled cyst but that he did not want to drain it because it’s located near the bladder and would feel more confident if a urogynecologist specialist did because he wanted to do it the safest way. Keep in mind the cyst was not causing me any pain (just EXTREME anxiety and stress knowing it was there)
After having three total medical professionals tell me that it’s nothing to worry about, I felt pretty relieved for a bit. I think I felt relieved because this doctor sat there and talked with me for a whole hour and let me ask 100000 questions and helped put some worry to rest. But then I realized I wouldn’t be able to be seen by the specialist for a whole month. That didn’t sit well with me so for whatever reason it sent me into another spiral and more googling.
Well now for the past few days I’ve had more frequent urination and what seems like some weird pelvic pain and sensations. The issue with this is that I’m in a very bad place with my anxiety and I truly cannot tell if my mind is causing these symptoms or if they are real. Usually I can dig deep and differentiate but I don’t know. I’m just convinced that they are wrong about it being harmless and fluid filled and that maybe I have cancer that Is spreading as we speak. The nurse and the second doctor said they felt confident that I didn’t need imaging because they could clearly tell it’s a cyst. But what if they were wrong. I’m just so confused and scared. I also can’t stop pressing and prodding at my bladder checking to see if I have to go pee even a little bit. It’s getting bad.
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