Panicking about colonoscopy

[MamaLove]

I could really use some words of encouragement! I feel like I can barely breathe. My colonoscopy is on Friday and I am so terrified of what they might find. At my better moments I feel like it's a 50/50 chance of getting a good result. At my worst... Like a 10% chance. Anyway, if anyone has some words of encouragement I would really appreciate it. This is the worst anxiety spiral I've been in in a long time and I can barely function

 

[Rosy]

You are not alone. Waiting is the toughest. I just spent 2 days having major anxiety about a 6 mo. mammogram after a breast biopsy. It turned out okay but that was 2 days ago and I am still having anxiety. I also suffer from rebound anxiety, which is anxiety after the fact. I think you will be fine. Let us know how it goes. It would be helpful if you could find something to concentrate on. Keep busy. Meditation is also a good helper. Remember you are not alone and on this site you get some very good advice.

 

[RobbyH]

It is completely normal for folks with HA to experience what youa re going through. i am ALWAYS fearful of what they may find whenever I have any test, blood work, exam, etc BUT it is always okay in the end.

Based on what you have posted previously, I don't think you have anything to worry about

 

[Mandyhiero]

I went to the oral surgeon yesterday and just knew they were going to find a tumor in my jaw. After they took the X-ray I was freaking out on the inside. I thought I was going to pass out. So I know what you’re saying. It’s the fear of the unknown. Even after the X-ray didn’t show anything, I was worried. I prayed and prayed and eventually calmed down. It’s torture what we do to ourselves. But with health anxiety you just can’t help yourself.
I’m praying for you. You’re going to be fine. I’m sure of it.

 

[MamaLove]

Thanks everyone. I tried to keep my mind on other things today, watched some funny videos, colored with my preschooler and snuggled my baby. Just finished my first cup of suprep which tasted absolutely awful, but I'm looking forward to this being over.

 

[vinbaker]

Thanks everyone. I tried to keep my mind on other things today, watched some funny videos, colored with my preschooler and snuggled my baby. Just finished my first cup of suprep which tasted absolutely awful, but I'm looking forward to this being over.

Give us some news!

 

[MamaLove]

Update:
Clean colonoscopy! With the exception of some bleeding internal hemorrhoids that were causing my symptoms. I actually went unsedated for most of it because I wanted to be able to see what was going on.

Obviously I am extremely relieved, but I also feel so mad at myself for wasting a good month of my time in this anxiety hole. Have any of you had success with CBT or anything? I cannot keep doing this to myself...

 

[triceps]

Congrats MamaLove! I was involved in an anxiety group for four years that was DBT based. I think DBT is certainly worth trying. It worked great for many members of the group. I guess I'm too lazy as it didn't do much for me. It's a lot of work but well worth it if it can improve your anxiety coping skills.

 

[vinbaker]

Update:
Clean colonoscopy! With the exception of some bleeding internal hemorrhoids that were causing my symptoms. I actually went unsedated for most of it because I wanted to be able to see what was going on.

Obviously I am extremely relieved, but I also feel so mad at myself for wasting a good month of my time in this anxiety hole. Have any of you had success with CBT or anything? I cannot keep doing this to myself...

Really happy for you! One month is not much, i am in my third colon cancer anxiety month LOL

 

[hatboxghost]

That’s awesome! Yay!

 

[Mandyhiero]

That’s great news!!