I’m 19, I have had social anxiety my whole entire life, everyone always told me I was shy but it didn’t really mean anything to me until one day in 8th grade this girl called on me to read and my voice started shaking and I felt this sudden panic like I had to escape or I would die but you know of course I couldn’t because I was in class! After that I was absolutely terrified to go to school because I was thought “what if we read today” and if I ever knew we would have to, I’d skip. This carried all through my high school years. Even though that was bad, it started messing with my social life and not just school life, I met my now husband when I was 15 and at that time I didn’t have social anxiety outside of school until the day he took me to meet his mom. On the way there I had a huge panic attack and we ended up not going. Because of that I dated him for 1 year before I ever met any of his family. Making myself look completely dumb because they wanted to meet me but I couldn’t get past my panic (obviously I did because we are married now) but now it’s starting to come back but way worse. My husband is now in the military and we live in Florida. For some reason moving to Florida triggered every anxiety in me that you could have. We went home on Christmas and I had a panic attack at his families house and had to leave because I thought I was dying. My blood pressure went up and stayed up for hours on end (which is weird because I was diagnosed and take medication for hypotension) because it stressed me so much. I will not go see them at all and I look so rude but I truly do not know how to cope. I also now avoid grocery stores and restaurants because of this, I start feeling dizzy. Also, I will not meet any of his friends and I look so mean! How do I get past this??? I’m on medicine for anxiety but it doesn’t so much.
Opinions and my story of social anxiety
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