OK, I'm really freaked out right now...

[CrystalDragon]

I really can't seem to get a break, can I? It's just one thing after another. A few weeks ago, I thought my allergies might be some kind of throat cancer. Then after I got over that, I was worrying about a knee injury and I thought I might have to lose my leg. Then after that I thought a cold was also throat cancer. Just when everything cleared up and I thought I could relax, I find weird spots on my leg today and now I'm freaking out. They're small, purple and red spots that don't hurt. They're different sizes from needlepoints, to the head of a thumb tac. They aren't bumps, I can run my finger smoothly against them and I don't feel anything. I feel like they just appeared out of no where, but maybe I had them for a long time and I just never noticed... I'm freaking out because purple and red spots are a sign of HIV, one of the things I fear the most.

I... I don't know if this is me being irrational again or if I should seriously see a doctor. Normally, I don't see a doctor because the part that wants to see if I'm alright conflicts with the part of me that's afraid the doctors will laugh at me or get annoyed with me for going to the clinic over something as simple as, for example, a minor bruise. Then when my ailments go away I get frustrated with myself for panicking over nothing... again!

 

[Concernedgal]

In order to answer your question... I have follow up questions. Are u single? Have you had unprotected sex with someone in the last 3 years? Does your partner cheat? Are you a nurse? Have you ever been stuck by a needle or have you ever done intravenous drugs before? One thing you and i already k ow about hiv is how it's transmitted. From blood,seman,infected breast milk and vaginal secretions. Although I doubt very seriously that you are hiv positive. . On the other hand hiv is nothing to play around with. See your doctor .. get tested. Let me know your answers to my follow up questions soon.

 

[Kaynil]

Hey there, @CrystalDragon . I hope you have been able to calm your brain down a little to let you relax.

I can relate to having those days where it is a rush of things after another and your brain going crazy about it. Cancer and HIV are damn frightening and if we had family records and other issues in our bodies that we heard makes statistically more likely a target, can really mess us up and make us overthink every little symptom as a signal of 'it' coming to get us. It can really keep you from being able to focus on everything else. I really hope you are feeling better now. The best we can do really is to remind ourselves that if there is a simpler explanation that is a more common occurrence that is most likely it.

Regarding your current symptoms, they sound like you made yourself a bruise a few days ago and didn't realise, sometimes instead of leaving an outer mark you pop a few very fine vessels under your skin, which makes the purple marks. Just keep reassuring yourself that a one off instance won't mean anything.

If you have a regular doctor you could take a general blood test to test for different things including HIV, so that can be a quick way to shut your brain down. If you are taking a blood test at least every two years your doctor should be able to pick up anything unusual and it is easier to ease the brain.

I hope you update us on how is it going when you can.

 

[janemariesayed]

If your worst fear is HIV then you can easily go and get a test done to see if you have it or not. If you don't have it, which you probably don't, then it is time to start taking care of your intimate health. Use precautions and get to know someone before you have any hanky panky and you should be alright for the rest of your life.