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[Concernedgal]

Today was a great day. It stayed at a comfortable temperature and I was in a good mood. I think that I had a (manic) day..because as you guys know. ..I am bipolar. Anyways..all day long I had so much energy to the point that some of the day..I had nervous energy. I got home from work and the good feeling lasted about 5 mins. When I sat down and started to relax ...my energy quickly turned into nervous energy. Right now I am lying in bed and experiencing this at the point of panic. Getting a little tough to breathe and getting weird sensations. I know what this is and i'my trying to get through it but, it's' tough. Well,I just wanted to share. Love you guys. I guess I will get some sleep and see if I simply used all my energy today. Goodnight guys.

 

[janemariesayed]

Today was a great day. It stayed at a comfortable temperature and I was in a good mood. I think that I had a (manic) day..because as you guys know. ..I am bipolar. Anyways..all day long I had so much energy to the point that some of the day..I had nervous energy. I got home from work and the good feeling lasted about 5 mins. When I sat down and started to relax ...my energy quickly turned into nervous energy. Right now I am lying in bed and experiencing this at the point of panic. Getting a little tough to breathe and getting weird sensations. I know what this is and i'my trying to get through it but, it's' tough. Well,I just wanted to share. Love you guys. I guess I will get some sleep and see if I simply used all my energy today. Goodnight guys.

I'm so glad that today was good for you. It seems that you were hyped up and your energy still wanted to go somewhere. So when you started to relax your body still wanted to do something. I think you were right to go to bed and try and sleep. Take long slow breaths and you should be okay. Hope you are sleeping like a baby right now!

 

[Concernedgal]

My doctor came in the restaurant today (i'm a sous chef)while I was on break. He seen me and came over to talk to me. While we were talking he asked me ( your in your manic phase aren't you?) And he told me (I wish you would take medication ). He said it in a kind way he didn't' sound intrusive. I told him (if I do...I lose this..I love this feeling .) He said well....it's your choice. It' crazy how e noticed it right off though.

 

[janemariesayed]

My doctor came in the restaurant today (i'm a sous chef)while I was on break. He seen me and came over to talk to me. While we were talking he asked me ( your in your manic phase aren't you?) And he told me (I wish you would take medication ). He said it in a kind way he didn't' sound intrusive. I told him (if I do...I lose this..I love this feeling .) He said well....it's your choice. It' crazy how e noticed it right off though.

He sounds like a good doctor if he recognises what phase his patients are going through. I hope he spoke to you quietly though, away from other prying ears. It wouldn't have been professional if others were to hear what he said. I'm glad you're feeling good.

 

[Concernedgal]

Me too..but, I know that soon it will be over...and after this...I will want to kill myself.....again... . After this ..the bad feels painful again . Not like when i'm experiencing it all the time . At least then I know what to expect and I become numb to it. It' only when I forget how to be happy and confident again that it happens again.

 

[janemariesayed]

Me too..but, I know that soon it will be over...and after this...I will want to kill myself.....again... . After this ..the bad feels painful again . Not like when i'm experiencing it all the time . At least then I know what to expect and I become numb to it. It' only when I forget how to be happy and confident again that it happens again.

Well, in that case, you need to keep reminding yourself when you get down. That it will pass and you have a lot to live for. I hope you stay in the life because I would miss you terribly if anything happened to you!

 

[Concernedgal]

No worries jane..I will be here as long as God allows. I'm a Christian. .I couldn't kill myself it's just that you feel so hopeless and sad that it's just on my mind.