Obsessing over the thought of being dead?

[AaronE]

So most people have at least a slight fear of dying, but has anybody ever convinced themselves that they in fact died, and that your normal life is the afterlife?

I will go into more detail. So yesterday, I had to change the electrical cord on the back of our dryer at home, because it had the wrong prongs for the outlet in our laundry room. In an extreme lapse of judgement, I decided it would be a good idea to plug the cord in, to make sure that the prongs matched the outlet... and obviously, a big spark of electricity shot out of the other end and scared the crap out of me. I didn't get shocked at all, but it definitely shook me up. After that happened, I had this crazy thought go through my head... "What if I actually did get shocked and it killed me, and now I am dead but this is some sort of weird parallel universe"?

Now my brain won't seem to let go of the thought. Everything is normal. I went to bed last night, woke up this morning, drove to work and everything is great. But I still can't shake that creepy thought that I might be dead. I am sure that this is just another way of my OCD trying to mess with me, and I'm sure that all I need to do is accept the thought for what it is and it will go away. I am just curious to hear anyone else's' stories if they've ever dealt with anything similar.

I hope everyone is having a good day!

 

[Cuchculan]

The mind is an amazing thing. What it can actually do. If you use logic, you will know you are still alive. Or else they have the crap that you had when alive, going on again for you in Heaven. Now that would be a nightmare. To have to live all this out when we die as well. Like once was not bad enough.

But once I said to a friend ' what if this is all a dream '. I got an odd look. What I was saying to them is what we were part of another person's dream? Right now they are asleep. When we sleep we dream. We create some amazing things in those dreams. You question reality. What if everything around you is not actually real? We see it. We touch it. Does that make it real? Or we could go down the path of ' what if we were to just wake up suddenly and everything we knew to be real was just one big dream '. Endless possibilities.

But that is a questioning mind for you. We have anxiety of one sort or another. Or some form of mental illness. Fact is we like this not to be real at all. It would be good if it was just a bad dream. Ours or somebody else's. Sad to have to admit that this is our lives. Our reality. It is just another form of escape from your reality. Nothing other than that. But very interesting. That much I will say. Other people find other ways to escape the days they must live in. Some daydream. Some sleep the day away. Some read books. Come the end of the day they are all just doing the exact same thing. Looking for an escape from their reality.

 

[triceps]

Well, some interesting stuff in both of your posts. I personally, with all of my suffering with anxiety, I would not like this to be a dream or would I like to have obsessive thinking about it. Aaron, I hope you can bounce past your current thoughts. And, Cuchculan, you have brought up some thought-provoking situations. Few of us know our reality, including me. We just need to keep plugging along, coping the best we can.

 

[vinbaker]

So most people have at least a slight fear of dying, but has anybody ever convinced themselves that they in fact died, and that your normal life is the afterlife?

I will go into more detail. So yesterday, I had to change the electrical cord on the back of our dryer at home, because it had the wrong prongs for the outlet in our laundry room. In an extreme lapse of judgement, I decided it would be a good idea to plug the cord in, to make sure that the prongs matched the outlet... and obviously, a big spark of electricity shot out of the other end and scared the crap out of me. I didn't get shocked at all, but it definitely shook me up. After that happened, I had this crazy thought go through my head... "What if I actually did get shocked and it killed me, and now I am dead but this is some sort of weird parallel universe"?

Now my brain won't seem to let go of the thought. Everything is normal. I went to bed last night, woke up this morning, drove to work and everything is great. But I still can't shake that creepy thought that I might be dead. I am sure that this is just another way of my OCD trying to mess with me, and I'm sure that all I need to do is accept the thought for what it is and it will go away. I am just curious to hear anyone else's' stories if they've ever dealt with anything similar.

I hope everyone is having a good day!

Love it, one of my constant thought, every time i do something stupid and nothing happens to me, i think maybe i'm dead ahhahaha