Now I am nervous - TMI Warning

[FlipperK]

So,

I was taking a shower yesterday and I was cleaning my back region and I felt small hard, about the size of a bb, bump just on the inside my canal.

I have hemorrhoids so I thought, maybe a small one, but I can't really make myself believe that when all of the others are soft/squishy and this one is more solid. It feels like its' underneath the lining and not growing on top... so possibly a new hemorrhoid forming due to a clot?

I have no bleeding and no pain where it is, and it quite small from what I can feel... but I feel like I have anus cancer.


I am a hetero male and I know that most of these cancers are HPV related, but I never had anal sex with anyone else... a couple of time experimenting on myself, but that's about it.



I made my annual physical appointment with notes about checking it out, but the earliest my primary doctor has is October 20th. I am starting to freak out a bit with all of the reading from cancer websites.





Although, my saving grace is that so far, every lump/bump/growth has been benign or normal that I have found on my body... I guess if this is not good news, then its' small, so probably very early.



Little bit of a mess right now...

 

[bigjetplane6]

What I have learned from my anxiety is that the body makes a looooot of weird things. I had a 3.8cm nodule on my throat. Now knowing what I do, I see it on pictures I have taken but then, I didn’t even feel it! I was in depression that entire month before getting benign news - I cried every day. No kidding.
My point is the body makes a lot of things, even lumps, and they’re benign. I remember asking my ENT, but why is it growing if it’s benign? And he said, not only the bad ones grow. the “normal” ones too grow and do funky things.
What I’m getting at is, even tho it’s a lump, it’s not bad news!! I’m sure it’s benign.

 

[Belizz]

I am sorry that you are going through that fear. If you have a history of hemorrhoids, then most likely it is.
There is a fact that with lots of anxiety and stress our perception is distorted and wrong. Don't panic now, before a dr/nurse sees it. Cancer in that area is as far as I know is uncommon.
I had one bump scare in the region but not inside just outside and it was a small soft sack. I was so sure that it was something hard and sinister but then called the nurse and when she asked me to touch it and described what it was she said it sounds exactly like a hemorrhoid sack. Then I think it disappeared because I don't meet the sack anymore when I wash me down there in shower. And I don't care to check it either.

Your way of thinking is right, about if there is something to treat there, it will be early on. Because our problem is with uncertainty and control actually. And we force ourselves to believe that things will happen as we want. During anxiety times we try to change the things happening and the reassurance we ask for is actually related to this effort. Not the result itself.
Hang in there. You will be fine

 

[Joshua1]

I have no bleeding and no pain where it is, and it quite small from what I can feel... but I feel like I have anus cancer.

I do not think it is cancer, i think it is either a muscle issue or skin issue.

 

[bigjetplane6]

update?

 

[FlipperK]

update?

My appointment is next week. I checked again a couple of days ago and it seems to have gotten smaller. Definitely not bigger.

 

[Belizz]

No worries then if it's shrinking
That's typical with exterior hemorrhoid sacks.

 

[FlipperK]

No worries then if it's shrinking
That's typical with exterior hemorrhoid sacks.

It’s more internal than external.

I called the nurse at the clinic this afternoon to see if I need to schedule something sooner with another doctor. She went through a list of questions and advised it was not a rush since the only symptom is that I felt it with my finger.

No need to be seen ASAP, keep the appointment. Of course if something changes, call them back

 

[TruthHurts]

My appointment is next week. I checked again a couple of days ago and it seems to have gotten smaller. Definitely not bigger.

I believe it is a thrombosed, or clotted, hemorrhoid. If it is getting smaller then it is returning to normal.

 

[FlipperK]

Had the visit today, she did the pokey pokey and looky looky and stated that everything looked and felt fine. Hemorrhoids and a papule from straining and what not. No sign of anything to worry about.

So that’s good news

 

[bigjetplane6]

That’s not good news, that’s GREAT NEWS!!!!
I’m so glad.

 

[Belizz]

That's very good news!

 

[Brown Eyed Girl]

Brilliant news.