Not Feeling Too Good.

[janemariesayed]

What is wrong with me now? I'm feeling at a really low ebb at the moment. The nausea is really bugging me too I feel like I could throw up any moment. God knows if I'm anxious about anything in particular but I can't think of anything.

My mind seems a blank but there is a thought that I can't quite grasp that keeps rearing its ugly head. I can't get to that thought! What I do know, though, is that it isn't a good one. It is scaring me as I don't know where it is going to lead. I just feel really sick and tearful. These thoughts are crucifying I hate them. I wish I could just change my thoughts to happy ones. Yet event eh happy ones I am afraid to bring to the for in case of what they might remind me of.

 

[Concernedgal]

It sounds to me your intuition is trying to tell you something. You literally get a bad feeling in the pit of your stomach and it's not always clear what your intuition is trying to say. It's so unsettling and annoying. Once you figure out what it is, the feeling will go away.

 

[janemariesayed]

I am still trying to sort out therapy would you believe? After speaking with one yesterday they told me to ring the crisis team. I did as they bade me do and then the crisis team visited me. They think I am high risk and told me that they would call me today. Now I'm waiting for them to call me. They said that they are going to arrange to take me to a mental health doctor, not my GP and they are going to suggest giving me pills one week at a time. I save up pills to take all at once just in case. The man (called Tony) confiscated my sertraline and I blubbered! I was not a happy bunny at all. The tears just flowed, I felt as though he was taking away my rights. I knew it was for the best though, as I scare myself at times and wonder how far I would go.

I did have a really bad feeling, and it was like you say, right in the pit of my stomach. I laid in bed for most of the afternoon hugging my dogs and slipped in and out of sleep. I did feel better later, not suicidal but just miserable.