I'm pretty sure I just did brain tumor fear a year ago. I've been at this so long I'm in repeats!
I don't have results on my skin biopsy back yet - doctor agreed some spots on it looked suspicious and took it off, but said she wasn't expecting it to be melanoma. Even before then, though, I was starting to think about brain tumors. My vision is worse/different in one eye (I'm also having pressure/discomfort in that eye), I developed nausea that wouldn't leave, and I have clear fluid that drips out of my left nostril when I bend my head which has been going on for some time (CSF leak fear, especially since I've been having a stiff neck and headaches that get better when I lie down).
I see an eye doctor tomorrow (sadly my previous eye doctor passed away last year - he was literally the best doctor and also person, I could go on and on about him, but he was nearly 90 and a widower, so...I guess sometimes it's just your time - and I need a lens prescription so I can get new glasses; I'm just tired of my current look I've had for 15 years or so!) so maybe that'll answer some things for me. But even if it does, and I'm wrong...what am I going to move on to next? Will I just go back to the previous ones, or something new?
Because yeah I'm convinced this is something bad, but I also know there's a chance it isn't, because I've been wrong 95% of the time I've tried to diagnose myself from the internet (I mean...even a broken clock is right twice a day I guess). And right now I'm not in a good place, clearly. But I can't figure out WHAT is causing my anxiety to suddenly get like this. It's like things started going pretty well for me, and I'm certain that means now I get the terminal diagnosis. Suddenly people are being extra nice to me and I'm like "must be the end, then." Why is HAVING A GOOD LIFE causing me anxiety?!
I don't have results on my skin biopsy back yet - doctor agreed some spots on it looked suspicious and took it off, but said she wasn't expecting it to be melanoma. Even before then, though, I was starting to think about brain tumors. My vision is worse/different in one eye (I'm also having pressure/discomfort in that eye), I developed nausea that wouldn't leave, and I have clear fluid that drips out of my left nostril when I bend my head which has been going on for some time (CSF leak fear, especially since I've been having a stiff neck and headaches that get better when I lie down).
I see an eye doctor tomorrow (sadly my previous eye doctor passed away last year - he was literally the best doctor and also person, I could go on and on about him, but he was nearly 90 and a widower, so...I guess sometimes it's just your time - and I need a lens prescription so I can get new glasses; I'm just tired of my current look I've had for 15 years or so!) so maybe that'll answer some things for me. But even if it does, and I'm wrong...what am I going to move on to next? Will I just go back to the previous ones, or something new?
Because yeah I'm convinced this is something bad, but I also know there's a chance it isn't, because I've been wrong 95% of the time I've tried to diagnose myself from the internet (I mean...even a broken clock is right twice a day I guess). And right now I'm not in a good place, clearly. But I can't figure out WHAT is causing my anxiety to suddenly get like this. It's like things started going pretty well for me, and I'm certain that means now I get the terminal diagnosis. Suddenly people are being extra nice to me and I'm like "must be the end, then." Why is HAVING A GOOD LIFE causing me anxiety?!
