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[Mgrae]

I'm a long time suffer first time poster. I have been dealing with health anxiety since I was about 12 I'm 40 now. I have been through everything from aids to cancer and back again. Countless trips to the ER and doctors for tests. Other then a kidney stone I have never had a physical health issue. Unfortunately I feel like I'm doing worse lately. I had a normal headache a few days ago and was a bit nauseous the last two days. My rational mind is trying to say it's nothing but the devil on my shoulder is of course saying glioblastoma. I haven't slept in two days and am at a loss. Usually when I think it's my heart or lung cancer I'll convince a er doctor to give me a chest x-ray or EKG. I don't think I'm going to get one to give me a brain MRI with contrast. I also know although a negative finding will make me feel better temporarily it's not a long term solution. I feel like I'm losing this battle.
Michael

 

[Mgrae]

Bump

 

[Ms.Honey]

So many non serious reasons for headaches, including “just” anxiety. Ive been feeling nauseous on and off lately too and it makes me panic about all the bad things that could be causing it. But really, I think it’s very normal to have headaches and feel nauseous once in a while.

 

[Mgrae]

Thanks Ms Honey I just want to get my life back. I haven't had a headache in days and only brief bouts of nausea but I can't seem to shake this.

 

[Ms.Honey]

Thanks Ms Honey I just want to get my life back. I haven't had a headache in days and only brief bouts of nausea but I can't seem to shake this.

I’m a big fan of guided meditation lately, it might help you too

 

[He Man]

I’m a big fan of guided meditation lately, it might help you too

Mgrae, Welcome to the forum..
This is a good thought ^.. Are you doing any kind of meditation or prayer to calm your mind (?) Any luck with anti-anxiety meds (?)
I know it's hard not to worry, but worrying has no practical value.. Maybe we can help encourage more practical, proactive approaches. Again, good to have u here, peace.

 

[bin_tenn]

I’m a big fan of guided meditation lately, it might help you too

Guided meditation was extremely helpful to me as well!

 

[Mgrae]

Mgrae, Welcome to the forum..
This is a good thought ^.. Are you doing any kind of meditation or prayer to calm your mind (?) Any luck with anti-anxiety meds (?)
I know it's hard not to worry, but worrying has no practical value.. Maybe we can help encourage more practical, proactive approaches. Again, good to have u here, peace.

Thanks for all the replies I already take medications for anxiety. I have increased my daily Klonopin which has just made me sleepy. All the other times I had a health anxiety panic I eventually had some sort of medical test that put my mind at ease. I know with this no ethical doctor is going to do a brain MRI. I also know that's not the long term solution. It's hard to explain but my rational brain knows I'm fine. The symptoms don't even make sense. I just have that devil on the other shoulder shouting brain tumor. I'm glad I found you guys most of my close friends and family don't understand what I'm going through. I'm also the son of two parents that battled cancer. My father succumbed and my mother is in remission for 4 years now. At one point they were in the same hospital at the same time. I'm my father's final years he spent countless days in and out of the hospital. I'm sharing this because I think it might be what caused me to have some of my issues.