New year....same thoughts

[Ggirlangel93]

Just feel the need to vent. Yesterday i had probably one of the best days i have had in months. I felt good physically, i wasn't that nervous, i was actually relaxed. Then today everything went back to bad. Haven't felt good and have been on edge all day. Anxiety really is the worst...it steals happiness from life. If i didn't have it my life would be totally different. My symptoms are always changing and coming and going. Headaches, sweating palms, nauseous, lightheaded. My mind thinks so negative all the time. I always think irrational things. Always thinking i have a disease or illness. I probably dont feel good all the time because my anxiety is so strong but i have a hard time truly believing that. Lately i have been worried that i have a brain tumor or something. I know deep down its not likely but i cant help thinking about it. I obsess over a symptom till it goes away....then the cycle repeats. I'm 26 years old and on paper a healthy person. I wish i could just be normal and not live in fear. 2019 was one of the toughest years of my life and im really hoping 2020 is better. It's comforting knowing im not alone though and that i have everyone here on this forum

 

[Bobnnat]

You certainly do have us Ggirl. 2019 sucked for me as well. Actually, 2018 was nothing to write home about. I simply accept that 3 or 4 months of the year at least, I’m going to suffer mentally due to symptoms, and fears about any given disease I focus on. During my current episode, I’m taking little things that I’ll bet normally I’d never give a second thought to, and rationalize that it’s another bit of “evidence” of my feared disease.

I’m getting so tired of this never ending anxiety. But I know so many of us are in the same sad situation.