New to here feeling really anxious

[Mrs_MustardSeed]

Hey Stephanie! It's good to see another person here around my age group! Trust me, I know exactly how you feel. Health anxiety is an issue the runs in my family, and unfortunately, it has been passed down to me. The scariest thing about health anxiety is allowing your fear to get so out of control that you become scared to visit doctors, and you can't differentiate between real symptoms and anxiety symptoms. I'm kind of at that point now. I have an appointment with an ENT doctor on the 21st to investigate the cause of pulsatile tinnitus that I've been experiencing in my right ear. The sound is on par with my heartbeat and its absolutely unsettling. If I can give you any advice, don't google anything! I've been googling tinnitus and have seen everything from vascular tumors to aneurysms, and it's only making me miserable. Trust me when I tell you don't be nervous over a headache. I know its easier said than done, especially when it seemingly comes out of nowhere...but it's probably stress, lack of sleep, sinus, migraine, tension...so many things before you get to brain tumor! I'm sure everything will be fine, and I hope to read a good update!

 

[LS Connection]

Welcome guys!

Does anyone else feel like they might be happier if they were diagnosed with a tumour or something? Something physically there, something I don't need to feel embarrassed about.. Maybe it's a case of the grass is always green on the other side but I get these feelings a lot.

 

[Mrs_MustardSeed]

Welcome guys!

Does anyone else feel like they might be happier if they were diagnosed with a tumour or something? Something physically there, something I don't need to feel embarrassed about.. Maybe it's a case of the grass is always green on the other side but I get these feelings a lot.

Not at all, I'd be absolutely terrified. I'm not suicidal. I do believe in God and I am a Christian, so I know that the grass is definitely greener on the other side. However, I haven't lived my life yet. I know that I have a purpose here and it hasn't been fulfilled. I want a family and I want to spend my life helping people, and fighting for what' right. Even though I know you aren't supposed to mess with soothsayers, I've had a few tell me that I have a lot of success and happiness in my future...so I try to hold on to that lol. I have anxiety because im terrified of a horrible diagnosis. If I wasn't scared of that, I wouldnt have anxiety.