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[Glassgirlw]

I do think it would have shown up on your CBC a month ago, yes. I’m not one for paid reassurance but in this case I would recommend getting into your GP to be checked and put your mind at ease.

I would also mention to them about your constant symptom checking and possibly discuss a referral for help for your HA. I really do think that’s the root of all your current issues. There are a multitude of things that can cause our legs to ache or for us to just feel generally crummy and unwell. It’s not natural to jump to the worst case scenarios. So I do think getting help for your HA would help you to see that.

 

[FinneousRex]

I do think it would have shown up on your CBC a month ago, yes. I’m not one for paid reassurance but in this case I would recommend getting into your GP to be checked and put your mind at ease.

I would also mention to them about your constant symptom checking and possibly discuss a referral for help for your HA. I really do think that’s the root of all your current issues. There are a multitude of things that can cause our legs to ache or for us to just feel generally crummy and unwell. It’s not natural to jump to the worst case scenarios. So I do think getting help for your HA would help you to see that.

I agree with this. Maybe show them this thread so they can see the magnitude of how much your anxiety is affecting you.

 

[Scared1234]

I agree with this. Maybe show them this thread so they can see the magnitude of how much your anxiety is affecting you.

My doctor said she would see me in one month if they haven’t gone away. She said they don’t worry unless they are over 1 cm in size. I have no idea the size of mine. Today, my legs have hurt SO bad. They only hurt when standing and it’s the back of both legs. I’ve never bad leg pain. The smaller lump feels larger today. If I just run my hand over my neck, and it’s facing a certain way, I can feel it. I guess if they grow considerably larger or I get where I’m not able to walk or function, I will see if she will go ahead and see me sooner. Thanks!

 

[Scared1234]

Thanks! I agree that I need to work on the anxiety . I just worry the anxiety will mask a serious issue. I had a nurse practitioner check my lymph nodes and I told her I was concerned and about the body aches and leg aches today. She said since I was so skinny she could easily feel everything. She said the spots I felt were both in the muscles of my neck. So I’m guessing that’s not a worry then. I’m glad I didn’t have to wait a month to have my doctor check them out.

 

[Iugrad91]

The worry that anxiety will mask a serious issue is one most of us have to deal with. What if it’s not anxiety this time, or what if the doc just assumes it’s always anxiety and blows off a real issue? Where we get in real trouble is jumping to a worst case scenario after one sensation/pain/lump and running with it. Most people would notice and forget about it unless it got worse over time. We feel then obsess, google, check, double check, scan for more feelings, etc...we quickly go down the rabbit hole. It’s a pattern of thought that we have to work on. Breaking the pattern and changing our reaction. What you practice only gets stronger.

 

[Scared1234]

The worry that anxiety will mask a serious issue is one most of us have to deal with. What if it’s not anxiety this time, or what if the doc just assumes it’s always anxiety and blows off a real issue? Where we get in real trouble is jumping to a worst case scenario after one sensation/pain/lump and running with it. Most people would notice and forget about it unless it got worse over time. We feel then obsess, google, check, double check, scan for more feelings, etc...we quickly go down the rabbit hole. It’s a pattern of thought that we have to work on. Breaking the pattern and changing our reaction. What you practice only gets stronger.

Thanks! This is so true and it’s so hard to get past it being something serious when I’m still feeling symptoms. Like, what if I need more blood work, scans, etc. After hearing the NP say it was in my muscles, I felt better but not 100%. Then when I was rubbing my scalp, I found a hard lump. But, I’m pretty sure it’s fairly symmetrical to one on the other side, so I’m trying really hard to let it go. I mean, who in the works finds a lump on their scalp and pays attention to it? Me, of course! I think the last 2 months has been the longest and most intended anxiety I’ve had...
I think I keep hoping that every time I hear good news, my symptoms will disappear. But when they don’t, and new ones appear, it makes the anxiety and doctor-doubting stronger...

 

[Scared1234]

I was wondering if anyone had any ideas about this leg pain... I thought for sure if I took Tylenol before bed that I’d wake up this AM and it would be fine, but it’s not! . I’ve never had this before and it’s scaring me... both calves hurt when I’m standing. They feel fine if I’m walking or sitting. But they hurt so bad when I’m just standing in place. The NP said to take Tylenol but I don’t want to mask the pain. I want to know if I’m still having it. I just have no idea what could cause this, now for 2 days! Of course, it brings up fears!

 

[bin_tenn]

Aches and pains are part of life. So many things can cause these pains, and most often the cause is completely harmless. Nothing to worry about. Instead of trying to find out exactly what causes it, it's a good idea to work on accepting it and changing the way you react to it.

 

[Glassgirlw]

Aches and pains are part of life. So many things can cause these pains, and most often the cause is completely harmless. Nothing to worry about. Instead of trying to find out exactly what causes it, it's a good idea to work on accepting it and changing the way you react to it.

This is the perfect response right here. Reading and re-reading this during periods of doubt could be helpful for you.

Try rubbing like a bio freeze or Ben gay on your calves. Very possibly what you’re experiencing is just muscular strain. We tense some crazy muscles when we’re in the midst of anxiety!!

 

[Scared1234]

This is the perfect response right here. Reading and re-reading this during periods of doubt could be helpful for you.

Try rubbing like a bio freeze or Ben gay on your calves. Very possibly what you’re experiencing is just muscular strain. We tense some crazy muscles when we’re in the midst of anxiety!!

That’s what I’m
Hoping it is. It’s just so strange that it only hurts when standing still. I have held off and googling whether or not muscle pain is connected to blood cancer. I just feel like I’m getting worse instead of better. It’s one thing after another! I think I’ll try going to my chiropractor tonight and seeing if an adjustment might help. Or if he has any ideas on what this could be and if I should be worried or not.

Aches and pains are part of life. So many things can cause these pains, and most often the cause is completely harmless. Nothing to worry about. Instead of trying to find out exactly what causes it, it's a good idea to work on accepting it and changing the way you react to it.

I just don’t think it’s typical to have calf pain in both calves and only when standing still. I have kept myself from googling if muscle pain is connected to blood cancers though...

 

[bin_tenn]

That’s what I’m
Hoping it is. It’s just so strange that it only hurts when standing still. I have held off and googling whether or not muscle pain is connected to blood cancer. I just feel like I’m getting worse instead of better. It’s one thing after another! I think I’ll try going to my chiropractor tonight and seeing if an adjustment might help. Or if he has any ideas on what this could be and if I should be worried or not.


I just don’t think it’s typical to have calf pain in both calves and only when standing still. I have kept myself from googling if muscle pain is connected to blood cancers though...

Happens to me often, the pain in both calves when standing still.

 

[Scared1234]

Happens to me often, the pain in both calves when standing still.

Really? Like every time you stand? For more than one day in a row? Both legs?

 

[bin_tenn]

It happens sometimes, yes. I also get back aches when standing. My arms randomly hurt, either one or both at the same time. And so on.

 

[Scared1234]

It’s definitely new for me. I’ve never had it before. I don’t know if it’s better or worse (prognosis wise) that it’s both calves at the same time? I’ve tried stretching them out some and I think it may have helped a tad. I took ibuprofen a few hours ago but it hasn’t helped. Which also worries me!
Thanks for letting me know it happens to you, as well!

 

[Scared1234]

Is fatigue just being sleepy all day? I slept pretty well last night, probably better than I have in quite some time. But all day today I have felt sleepy. Not like I am so tired I can’t move or don’t want to move. Just sleepy. Is that the fatigue the dr asks about? The fatigue related to cancer?

 

[Bobnnat]

The fatigue related to cancer is so bad that you can't get out of bed, even to go to the bathroom. Likely your sleepiness is actually your anxiety/depression, as tiredness is part of those mental health conditions.

When i have muscle pain, Tylenol and Motrin NEVER help me. At night if it's bad i just need to take a Nytol.

 

[Glassgirlw]

Is fatigue just being sleepy all day? I slept pretty well last night, probably better than I have in quite some time. But all day today I have felt sleepy. Not like I am so tired I can’t move or don’t want to move. Just sleepy. Is that the fatigue the dr asks about? The fatigue related to cancer?

If you had fatigue related to cancer, I guarantee you wouldn’t be posting on this forum. My sister (currently undergoing chemo), the day before she was finally officially diagnosed, could not stand up to go to the bathroom without assistance. She had to be held up by her husband to walk.

You need to put this fear out of your mind. You’ve been to the docs, multiple times. You’ve had bloods. What are you doing (actively doing) to work on your health anxiety?

 

[Scared1234]

I went to the chiropractor tonight and explained how I have calf pain, only when standing still. He said it was probably my sciatic nerve. That made me feel better until I remembered when I was reading about Multiple Myeloma a few weeks ago, it mentioned leg pain due to your spine weakening. However, my calcium levels were fine a week ago and I think they would need to be high for damage to occur. I just wish I could wake up tomorrow and feel normal again so I can put all this past me. But each day, the pain continues and more symptoms pop up. That makes it really hard to not think it’s still MM or another type of cancer. Who knows... maybe tomorrow will be the day I wake up and stay pain free!!

If you had fatigue related to cancer, I guarantee you wouldn’t be posting on this forum. My sister (currently undergoing chemo), the day before she was finally officially diagnosed, could not stand up to go to the bathroom without assistance. She had to be held up by her husband to walk.

You need to put this fear out of your mind. You’ve been to the docs, multiple times. You’ve had bloods. What are you doing (actively doing) to work on your health anxiety?

I have been talking about my health anxiety to a very close friend who also suffers from anxiety. I also have been completely honest with my doctors about what I’m worried about. I have quit googling symptoms. It’s just unfortunate that I can remember symptoms that I had previously read. For example... when the chiro suggested that it could be sciatica nerves with my calf pain, I remember reading that if it’s both legs it’s probably from degenerating disks, which can be from multiple myeloma causing bone damage, and essentially your spine starts breaking diwn, causing leg pain. Mine is only when standing still, not when sitting and not when walking. But I wish I hadn’t remembered that this bit of information. I have been taking warm baths at night to try to relax my body. I have been taking some magnesium to help me relax. I’ve been trying to get this anxiety under control, but each day it seems like a new symptom pops up and becomes worse over time. It makes it hard to think it’s just anxiety when it becomes pains you’ve never had before. Especially when my CBC was at the beginning of January before I had all these new symptoms. My blood work last week was just protein, calcium levels, albumin, etc... no CBC. I don’t know how long you would have bad white and red cells before symptoms popped up. I do know at the urologist last week, I had one white blood cell in my urine but he didn’t seem concerned. Ive never had this hard of a time letting something go. That’s why I feel like I have something wrong, because my brain isn’t letting me let it go.

 

[Scared1234]

I slept SO badly last night and woke up with a terrible headache and still have the right pain in my calves when standing. I was really hoping for that pain free day so I could not worry. I couldn’t sleep because I kept worrying I would start having night sweats (the night before that I fell asleep with electric blanket on and a heavy blanket and woke up with a tiny. It of sweat, which I don’t think is the same as a night sweat, but still worried me). Then I had a dream that my grandma took me back to the doctor and they did another scan and I had cancer in my sternum area. So random. I am not worried about the dream, per say, but it made it hard to sleep afterwards. I just don’t understand why I’ve now had this calf pain for 3 days and it’s not going away. I wish the dr would take it a bit more seriously and/or redo my CBC. Something...
Supposed to say TIGHT pain in calves, not right pain.

 

[Iugrad91]

You have to stop questioning every single feeling and challenge your thoughts. Being tired happens to everyone. Fatigue is a normal part of life sometimes. Connecting everything you feel to something is going to drive you further into the spiral. Having pain for three days is not a sign of anything. You need to find some ways to calm your mind and body. Exercise or just go for a long walk, practice mindfulness, take a hot bath, these are things I do to relax. The more anxious you get the worse your pain/sleeplessness/headache will be. Second guessing the doctor or thinking they are not taking you seriously is common and it will only increase your anxiety. Instead tell yourself they are a trained medical professional and know what to look for and your blood test (which wouldn’t change much in one or two months) was fine in January.