New And Terrified

[W2E85]

Hello everyone. (United States Member)

I'm new to this site. Late July 2025, I started having terrifying panic attacks. Panic attacks aren't new to me, however, these panic attacks were like I never felt before. I took medical leave from work with the intention of getting myself better. However, I just got progressively worse, I just lost my job because I can't function at all, so I could not return at the end of my leave which was today. I've been bedridden since going on medical leave. The panic attacks have stopped, however, I'm left with a constant feeling that I'm losing my mind, that's the best way I can describe it. I don't sleep good, my sleep is very fargmented, filled with vivid dreams, and unrefreshing. My body never feels good, and as I stated before I feel like I'm going crazy. It feels like my brain is deteriorating or something, I don't feel grounded, or clear-minded. I'm so terrified because I feel like my life is over, I'm a 40 year-old female with no known medical issues. I've been to the ER 90+ times since July. My bowels hardly work, I have no appetite and lot 31+ pounds since July. I just lay in bed all day, with this feeling of losing my mind. I've never felt like this before and I was diagnosed with painc attacks when I was 19 and this is completely different from what I've experienced in the past. Can anxiety/painc really do this to you?.

I'm not on meds, not have I ever been. I've been prescribed Zoloft Xanax, and Klonopin. However, I'm scared to take any of it as I'm convinced that this is something else I'm dealing with. I've been on and off line since late July trying to find people who can relate, however, I can't find anyone or any stories which makes me feel all alone and feeds more into the belief that I'm dealing with something else other then panic/anxiety disorder.

Has anyone ever experienced what I'm going through, or know of anyone who's experienced what I'm going through. All day I just leave in fear that at any moment I'm going to lose my mind. I have only one family member and it's terrifying them to watch me going through this day after day for months on end, with no reprieve. Please any advice would be greatly appreciated.

 

[Cuchculan]

The best way to put it is that you need to learn all about anxiety. To learn all about panic attacks. Once you have a better understanding of them and how they work, you will see you are not going mad. Is the not knowing that can scare people. If this is the first time it ever happened to you, you will be lost. Lot of questions and no real answers. I once stayed in the house for almost a decade. Panic attacks can make us do things like that. Back away from things. But that is the wrong thing to do. Something we learn over time. The more you run from things, the harder the road back. And there is a way back. Always keep that in your mind. You can learn to control what is happening to you right now. Skills you can learn. Might find those skills in a book. Maybe a therapist. Just to explain everything to you. That is what you need right now. Some understanding.

 

[shay1988]

I did this same thing about 2 years ago. My anxiety came back stronger then ever before! All I did was lay in bed , I lost 45lbs and was so sick. I just knew I was dying! Went to hospital so many times they finally told me they couldn't help me because nothing was wrong with me. So I finally just told myself I guess I will just lay here and die cause they don't care. Well I never did die. It's been a year since then and I still suffer with anxiety but I'm working full time again and pushing myself to do things. If ima die there is nothing that I can do to stop it. So im gonna live while I can. And all that laying around hurt me way more then the anxiety! My feet started burning all the time and turning red when I would try and walk! I was having so many muscle spasms! And it was all from laying around too much! That can hurt you! So try your best to get up and move! All those issues that laying around caused, are now gone! Because i got up and started moving! ....we just bought a home last month and that made me very anxious, I worried about what if I die and we loose the house! My kids won't inherit anything from me! But i just sat down and took a breath and said I'll do what I can! That's all we can do. Just go day by day and do what we can. U need to read Claire weeks books. She explains what anxiety is and how it works and how to heal yourself from it. Please Google her and if you can, buy her books! They have helped me tremendously! I wish u luck!

 

[Jonathan123]

Hello everyone. (United States Member)

I'm new to this site. Late July 2025, I started having terrifying panic attacks. Panic attacks aren't new to me, however, these panic attacks were like I never felt before. I took medical leave from work with the intention of getting myself better. However, I just got progressively worse, I just lost my job because I can't function at all, so I could not return at the end of my leave which was today. I've been bedridden since going on medical leave. The panic attacks have stopped, however, I'm left with a constant feeling that I'm losing my mind, that's the best way I can describe it. I don't sleep good, my sleep is very fargmented, filled with vivid dreams, and unrefreshing. My body never feels good, and as I stated before I feel like I'm going crazy. It feels like my brain is deteriorating or something, I don't feel grounded, or clear-minded. I'm so terrified because I feel like my life is over, I'm a 40 year-old female with no known medical issues. I've been to the ER 90+ times since July. My bowels hardly work, I have no appetite and lot 31+ pounds since July. I just lay in bed all day, with this feeling of losing my mind. I've never felt like this before and I was diagnosed with painc attacks when I was 19 and this is completely different from what I've experienced in the past. Can anxiety/painc really do this to you?.

I'm not on meds, not have I ever been. I've been prescribed Zoloft Xanax, and Klonopin. However, I'm scared to take any of it as I'm convinced that this is something else I'm dealing with. I've been on and off line since late July trying to find people who can relate, however, I can't find anyone or any stories which makes me feel all alone and feeds more into the belief that I'm dealing with something else other then panic/anxiety disorder.

Has anyone ever experienced what I'm going through, or know of anyone who's experienced what I'm going through. All day I just leave in fear that at any moment I'm going to lose my mind. I have only one family member and it's terrifying them to watch me going through this day after day for months on end, with no reprieve. Please any advice would be greatly appreciated.

You ask 'can anxiety do this to you'? My goodness yes it can, and all the symptoms you describe are just that, chronic anxiety. You ask if anyone else has been through what you are going through. Yes, me!! and many more of us on this site. I was like you many years ago, but I did recover with good counselling and short term medication, but it was not easy and took some time.
My biggest fault was fighting 'IT' as best I could. I fought battles with 'IT' until I was exhausted. But fighting and struggling helps not one bit. All it does is create more adrenaline and so more fear. Eventually I learned to accept it all. There was no escape from the 'fight/flight' syndrome without accepting it all and without adding fear to fear. It takes time for acceptance to 'click in' but it does work It requires the three 'P's'. Patience, Persistence and Perseverance.
If you have a mind to get the book from Amazon 'Essential help for your Nerves' It's by Dr. Claire Weekes. She sets out acceptance and how to go about it.
Fear engenders fear, that much is obvious, but the 'fight/flight syndrome is there for a purpose, to protect us from danger. Anxiety is a malfunction of that safety mechanism.